Chapter 3


At 7:30 A.M., while tens of thousands in greater Detroit had been up for hours and were already working, others - either through choice or the nature of their work - were still abed.

One who remained there by choice was Erica Trenton.

In a wide, French Provincial bed, between satin sheets which were smooth against the firm surface of her young body, she was awake, but drifting back to sleep, and had no intention of getting up for at least two hours more.

Drowsily, only half-conscious of her own thoughts, she dreamed of a man

. . . no particular man, simply a vague figure . . . arousing her sensually, thrusting her deeply-again! again! . . . as her own husband had not, for at least three weeks and probably a month.

While she drifted, as on a gently flooding tide between wakefulness and a return to sleep, Erica mused that she had not always been a late riser. In the Bahamas, where she was born, and lived until her marriage to Adam five years ago, she had often risen before dawn and helped launch a dinghy from the beach, afterward running the outboard while her father trolled and the sun rose. Her father enjoyed fresh fish at breakfast and, in her later years at home, it was Erica who cooked it when they returned.

During her initiation to marriage, in Detroit, she had followed the same pattern, rising early with Adam and preparing breakfast which they ate together - he zestfully, and loudly appreciative of Erica's natural talent for cooking which she used with imagination, even for simplest meals.

By her own wish they had no live-in help, and Erica kept busy, especially since Adam's twin sons, Greg and Kirk, who were at prep school nearby, came home during most weekends and holidays.

That was the time when she had been worried about her acceptance by the boys - Adam had divorced their mother earlier the same year, only a few months before meeting Erica and the beginning of their brief, jet-speed courtship. But Erica had been accepted at once by Greg and Kirk -even gratefully, it seemed, since they had seen little of either of their parents over several preceding years, Adam being immersed in his work, and the boys' mother, Francine, traveling frequently abroad, as she still did. Besides, Erica was closer to the boys' own age. She had been barely twenty-one then, Adam eighteen years her senior, though the differences in ages hadn't seemed to matter. Of course, the gap of years between Adam and Erica was still the same, except that nowadays - five years later - it seemed wider.

A reason, obviously, was that at the beginning they had devoured each other sexually. They first made love - tempestuously - on a moonlit Bahamas beach. Erica remembered still: the warm, jasmine-scented night, white sand, softly lapping water, a breeze stirring palm trees, music drifting from a lighted cruise ship in Nassau harbor. They had known each other for a few days only. Adam had been holidaying - an aftermath to his divorce - with friends at Lyford Cay who introduced him to Erica at a Nassau night spot, Charley Charley's. They spent all next day together, and others afterward.

The night on the beach was not their first time there. But on the earlier occasions she had resisted Adam; now, she learned, she could resist no longer, and only whisper helplessly, "I can get pregnant."

He had whispered back, "You're going to marry me. So it doesn't matter."

She had not become pregnant, though many times since she wished she had.

From then on, and into marriage a month later, they made love frequently and passionately - almost unfailingly each night, then expending themselves further (but, oh, how gloriously) on awakening in the morning. Even back in Detroit the night and morning love-making persisted, despite Adam's early work start which, Erica quickly discovered, was part of an auto executive's life.

But as months went by and, after that, the first few years, Adam's passion lessened. For either of them it could never have sustained itself at the original fevered pace; Erica realized that. But what she had not expected was that the decline would come as early as it had, or be so near-complete. Undoubtedly she became more conscious of the change because other activities were less. Greg and Kirk now came home seldom, having left Michigan for college - Greg to Columbia, en route to medical school; Kirk to the University of Oklahoma to major in journalism.

She was still drifting . . . Still not quite asleep. The house, near Quarton Lake in the northern suburb of Birmingham, was quiet. Adam had gone. Like most in the auto industry's top echelon, he was at his desk by half-past seven, had done an hour's work before the secretaries came.

Also, as usual, Adam had risen in time to do exercises, take a ten-minute run outside, then, after showering, get his own breakfast, as he always did these days. Erica had slipped out of the habit of preparing it after Adam told her candidly that the meal was taking too long; unlike their early years together, he chafed impatiently, wanting to be on his way, no longer enjoying their relaxed quarter hour together at the table. One morning he had simply said, "Honey, you stay in bed. I'll get breakfast for myself." And he had, doing the same thing next day, and on other mornings after that, so they had drifted into the present pattern, though it depressed Erica to know she was no longer useful to Adam at the beginning of his day, that her imaginative breakfast menus, the cheerfully set table and her own presence there, were more irritating to him than pleasing.

Erica found Adam's diminishing concern about what went on at home, along with total dedication to his job, more and more an aggravating combination nowadays. He was also tediously considerate. When his alarm clock sounded, Adam snapped it off promptly before it could penetrate Erica's sleep too deeply, and got out of bed at once, though it seemed not long ago that they had reached for each other instinctively on waking, and sometimes coupled quickly, finding that each could bring the other, feverishly, to a swifter climax than at night. Then, while Erica still lay, lingering for a moment breathlessly, her heart beating hard, Adam would whisper as he slipped from her and from the bed, "What better way to start a day?"

But not any more. Never in the morning, and only rarely, now, at night.

And in the mornings, for all the contact they had, they might as well be strangers. Adam awakened quickly, performed his swift routines, and then was gone.

This morning, when Erica heard Adam moving around in the bathroom and downstairs, she considered changing the routine and joining him. Then she reminded herself that all he wanted was to move fast - like the go-go cars his Product Planning team conceived; the latest, the soon-to-be-unveiled Orion - and be on his way. Also, with his damned efficiency, Adam could make breakfast just as speedily as Erica - for a half-dozen people if necessary, as he sometimes had. Despite this, she debated getting up, and was still debating when she heard Adam's car start, and leave. Then it was too late.

Where have all the flowers gone? Where the love, the life, the vanished idyll of Adam and Erica Trenton, young lovers not so long ago? O where, O where!


***

Erica slept.

When she awakened it was midmorning, and a watery autumn sun was slanting in through slats of the venetian blinds.

Downstairs, a vacuum cleaner whined and thumped, and Erica was relieved that Mrs. Gooch, who cleaned twice a week, had let herself in and was already at work. It meant that today Erica need not bother with the house, though lately, in any case, she had paid much less attention to it than she used to do.

A morning paper was beside the bed. Adam must have left it there, as he sometimes did. Propping herself up with pillows, her long ashblond hair tumbling over them, Erica unfolded it.

A sizable portion of page one was given over to an attack on the auto industry by Emerson Vale. Erica skipped most of the news story, which didn't interest her, even though there were times when she felt like attacking the auto world herself. She had never cared for it, not since first coming to Detroit, though she had tried, for Adam's sake. But the all-consuming interest in their occupations which so many auto people had, leaving time for little else, repelled her. Erica's own father, an airline captain, had been good at his job, but always put it behind him mentally when he left an Island Airways cockpit to come home. His greater interests were being with his family, fishing, pottering at carpentry, reading, strumming a guitar, and sometimes just sitting in the sun. Erica knew that even now her own mother and father spent far more time together than she and Adam did.

It was her father who had said, when she announced her sudden plans to marry Adam: "You're your own girl and always have been. So I won't oppose this because, even if I did, it would make no difference and I'd sooner you go with my blessing than without. And maybe, in time, I'll get used to having a son-in-law almost my own age. He seems a decent man; I like him. But one thing I'll warn you of: He's ambitious, and you don't know yet what ambition means, especially up there in Detroit. If the two of you have trouble, that'll be the cause of it." She sometimes thought how observant - and how right - her father had been.

Erica's thoughts returned to the newspaper and Emerson Vale, whose face glared out from a two-column cut. She wondered if the youthful auto critic was any good in bed, then thought: probably not. She had heard there were no women in his life, nor men either, despite abortive efforts to smear him with a homosexual tag. Humanity, it seemed, had a depressing proportion of capons and worn-out males. Listlessly, she turned the page.

There was little that held interest, from international affairs - the world was in as much a mess as on any other day - through to the social section, which contained the usual auto names: the Fords had entertained an Italian princess, the Roches were in New York, the Townsends at the Symphony, and the Chapins duck hunting in North Dakota. On another page Erica stopped at Ann Landers' column, then mentally began composing a letter of her own: My problem, Ann, is a married woman's cliche.

There are jokes about it, but the jokes are made by people it isn't happening to. The plain truth is - if I can speak frankly as one woman to another - I'm simply not getting enough . . . Just lately I've not been getting any . . .

With an impatient, angry gesture Erica crumpled the newspaper and pulled the bedclothes aside, She slid from the bed and went to the window where she tugged vigorously at the blind cord so that full daylight streamed in. Her eyes searched the room for a brown alligator handbag she had used yesterday; it was on a dressing table. Opening the bag, she riffled through until she found a small, leather-covered notebook which she took - turning pages as she went - to a telephone by Adam's side of the bed.

She dialed quickly - before she could change her mind - the number she had found in the book. As she finished, Erica found her hand trembling and put it on the bed to steady herself. A woman's voice answered, "Detroit Bearing and Gear."

Erica asked for the name she had written in the notebook, in handwriting so indecipherable that only she could read it.

"What department is he in?"

"I think-sales."

"One moment, please."

Erica could still hear the vacuum cleaner somewhere outside. At least, while that continued, she could be sure Mrs. Gooch was not listening.

There was a click and another voice answered, though not the one she sought. She repeated the name she had asked for.

"Sure, he's here." She heard the voice call "Ollie!" An answering voice said, "I got it," then, more clearly, "Hullo."

"Here is Erica." She added uncertainly, "You know, we met . . ."

"Sure, sure; I know. Where are you?"

"At home."

"What number?"

She gave it to him.

"Hang up. Call you right back."

Erica waited nervously, wondering if she would answer at all, but when the ring back came, she did so immediately.

"Hi, baby!"

"Hullo," Erica said.

"Some phones are better'n other phones for special kindsa calls."

"I understand."

"Long time no see."

"Yes. It is."

A pause.

"Why'd you call, baby?"

"Well, I thought . . . we might meet."

"Why?"

"Perhaps for a drink."

"We had drinks last time. Remember? Sat all afternoon in that goddamn Queensway Inn bar."

"I know, but . . ."

"An' the same thing the time before that."

"That was the very first time; the time we met there."

"Okay, so you don't put out the first time. A dame cuts it the way she sees; fair enough. But the second time a guy expects to hit the coconut, not spend an afternoon of his time in a big gabfest. So I still say - what's on your mind?"

"I thought . . . if we could talk, just a little, I could explain"

"No dice."

She let her hand holding the phone drop down. In God's name, what was she doing, even talking with this... There must be other men.

But where?

The phone diaphragm rasped, "You still there, baby?"

She lifted her hand again. "Yes."

"Listen, I'll ask you something. You wanna get laid?"

Erica was choking back tears, tears of humiliation, selfdisgust.

"Yes," she said. "Yes, that's what I want."

"You're sure, this time. No more big gabfest?"

Dear God! Did he want an affidavit? She wondered: Were there really women so desperate, they would respond to an approach so crude?

Obviously, yes.

"I'm sure," Erica said.

"That's great, kiddo! How's if we hit the sack next Wednesday?"

"I thought . . . perhaps sooner." Next Wednesday was a week away.

"Sorry, baby; no dice. Gotta sales trip. Leave for Cleveland in an hour.

Be there five days." A chuckle. "Gotta keep them Ohio dolls happy."

Erica forced a laugh. "You certainly get around."

"You'd be surprised."

She thought: No, I wouldn't. Not at anything, any more.

"Call you soon's I get back. While I'm gone, you keep it warm for me."

A second's pause, then: "You be all right Wednesday? You know what I mean?"

Erica's control snapped. "Of course I know. Do you think I'm so stupid not to have thought of that?"

"You'd be surprised how many don't."

In a detached part of her mind, as if she were a spectator, not a participant, she marveled:

Has he ever tried making a woman feel good, instead of awful?

"Gotta go, baby. Back to the salt mines! Another day, another dollar!"

"Goodbye," Erica said.

"S'long."

She hung up. Covering her face with her hands, she sobbed silently until her long, slim fingers were wet with tears.


***

Later, in the bathroom, washing her face and using make-up to conceal the signs of crying as best she could, Erica reasoned: There was a way out.

It didn't have to happen a week from now. Adam could prevent it, though he would never know.

If only, within the next seven nights he would take her, as a husband could and should, she would weather this time, and afterward, somehow, tame her body's urgency to reasonableness. All she sought - all she had ever sought - was to be loved and needed, and in return to give love. She still loved Adam. Erica closed her eyes, remembering the way it was when he first loved and needed her.

And she would help Adam, she decided. Tonight, and other nights if necessary, she would make herself irresistibly attractive, she'd wash her hair so it was sweet-smelling, use a musky perfume that would tantalize, put on her sheerest negligee . . . Wait! She would buy a new negligee - today, this morning, now . . . in Birmingham.

Hurriedly, she began to dress.

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