The morning began much the same as any other for Karen Meadows. It was a typical summer’s day on the English Riviera. Sky grey, the air warm and damp.
As usual the recently promoted detective superintendent breakfasted alone, apart from her cat, in her apartment overlooking the sea. She had lived there, a mile or so from the centre of Torquay, for nine years. Her brain was full of work because that was pretty much all she let it be full of. Her heart was full of nothing much because that was how she liked it — or at least that was how she told herself she liked it. Her eyes no longer took in the view across the bay which was glorious in even the dullest of weather.
Breakfast took the form of three mugs of strong tea, dash of milk, no sugar, consumed on the run as Karen never seemed to have time to do anything properly in the mornings, and two menthol cigarettes. She kidded herself that the peppermint taste made them healthier than the other kind. Not that she wasted a lot of time worrying about her health. She was too busy to allow any such preoccupation, and there was nobody else it mattered much to, she reflected bitterly. She showered and dressed in between smoking and drinking her tea.
Karen Meadows had always had good taste in everything except, on one or two unfortunate occasions, men. Her home was very stylish, simply decorated in shades of cream and pale greys and blues, and furnished almost entirely with antiques of a standard considerably higher than might be expected of a woman whose sole income was her police salary, which was down to her off-duty passion for browsing junk shops and antiques fairs and auctions. Unfortunately her housekeeping skills did not match her talent as either an antiques collector or an interior decorator. Sighing at her own inadequacies she sifted through the teetering pile of clothes at the foot of her bed beneath which a pretty little Victorian nursing chair, worthy of far better treatment, was totally buried. Karen had no idea how anyone as organized and in control as she knew she was in her work could be so disorganized and untidy at home. It was her constant dream that one day she would wake up and find that she had become effortlessly tidy and ordered overnight.
Meanwhile she was forced to delve through the debris on the chair, and then to search her overstuffed wardrobe, much of the contents of which had fallen onto the floor, in order to somehow unearth a pair of baggy cream trousers that were barely creased at all, a denim waistcoat and a beige linen jacket which was actually supposed to look crumpled, the main reason she had bought it in the first place. She found one of the grey satin designer trainers she had decided were the only shoes that would possibly do that day underneath the bed, and the other, for reasons which defied her, on the worktop in the kitchen. She fed Sophie the cat on the remains of last night’s old Marks & Spencer’s chicken because she had run out of tinned cat food, located her various keys with the customary difficulty, then gulped down the last mouthful of her final mug of tea, some of which she slurped on to her jacket thus necessitating a panic-stricken dash to the bathroom for an emergency mopping-up operation.
Yet, miraculously, when she ultimately emerged from her flat she looked as good as she almost always contrived to and considerably younger than her forty-one years. Her glossy dark hair, cut into a geometric bob, framed a good strong-boned face, albeit one which had a tendency, no doubt accentuated by her job, to look severe. And the clothes she wore, as ever casual and giving the impression of being thrown together — even though every day she agonized over her appearance, rather tragically she thought, and not without difficulty considering the problems she invariably had finding anything at all — suited her well and added to the impression of youthfulness that she had about her.
Certainly the way she looked totally belied the chaos which had, as usual, engulfed the start of her day. And as she headed for the lift, an ancient convoluted contraption which managed to provide at least a hint of real or imagined danger almost every time she used it, Karen looked confident and in control, though admittedly not a bit like most people’s idea of a policewoman.
She flashed a big smile and paused to speak to an elderly woman neighbour who was taking out a plastic bag of rubbish.
“When you’ve finished, Ethel, give my place a going-over, will you?” she remarked cheerily.
“For you, darling, anything,” replied the old lady. “I’m expensive though. You’d never be able to afford me, not in your job.”
“You never know, Ethel. Perhaps I’ll join the villains instead of trying to catch ’em.”
“May as well, dear. They’ll probably make you a peer then, like that Jeffrey Archer.”
Karen could still hear Ethel chuckling as she stepped into the elevator, closing the latticed-iron outer gates behind her. Briefly she leaned against the ornately mirrored walls of the inner cage and closed her eyes for just a few seconds. She felt tired. Terribly tired.
It was the same every morning. And it never used to be like this. Karen was a natural high flier, capable, in charge of herself, personable, warm, funny. That was her image, that was the personality she put across and had lived up to throughout her life. She liked the way the world perceived her. She liked the way people reacted when she walked into a room. She didn’t want that perception to change because without it she was convinced she would be lost.
She didn’t want the world to know that she was plagued with self-doubt, that what went on inside her head was as far removed from the image she put across as was the chaotic way she lived from the way she would like to live. That would never do. Karen’s state of mind was a very private thing. She never spoke of her dementia-ridden mother in a nursing home whom she increasingly saw less and less. In any case the guilt, justified or not, was abiding and nothing anybody said could ever help. She never spoke of the regrets she felt that she had not married and had a family and that she had probably now reached an age where that was no longer likely to happen. She never let on that she had ever wanted a child. Nobody who knew her would ever have suspected that Karen Meadows was anything other than a happy, successful, fulfilled woman. The police force had made her believe that to show any other side of herself would be seen only as weakness. And that would never do. Karen refused to give away anything about her true self. She believed that if she ever allowed her contained outer shell to crack open even a little she would fall straight through it flat onto her face.
So inside the lift she pushed herself upright again, pressed the ground-floor button, and shook her head quite ferociously in order both to clear it and to deny the troubled thoughts it contained. The temperamental old lift shuddered into action, incomprehensibly bouncing an inch or two upwards before lurching dramatically downwards in such a jerky fashion that Karen was forced to lean against one of its walls again to ensure that she didn’t lose her footing.
The banter with Ethel had been fairly typical of Karen Meadows. It was automatic for her to respond to people in that way. She lived her daily life on a kind of personality autopilot. She didn’t know how else to do it. It wasn’t contrived. It wasn’t altruistic. After all, it worked for her, too, as well as for those around her. She knew that by the end of a halfway good day she would probably be believing in her own image again, almost as much as did all those she encountered.
As she made her way out of the building and across the parking area towards her car she lit a third cigarette and inhaled deeply. Tomorrow she would give up, she told herself for the umpteenth time.
Her mobile phone rang just as she was about to unlock her car door. She dropped the car keys as she rummaged for it in her big shoulder bag, overstuffed like the wardrobe. Swearing to herself she went down on one knee to pick up the keys with her left hand as she finally located the phone in the bottom of the bag and pushed the speak button with her right one.
“It’s Phil, boss.”
Detective Sergeant Cooper’s voice was pitched slightly higher than usual. He sounded excited.
“Those divers out off Berry Head, the ones exploring that old Nazi U-boat that’s been in the news. They’ve found something; bones, parts of a skeleton, inside the hull.”
Karen stopped scrabbling for her keys at once. Cooper wouldn’t have called to tell her they’d found the remains of some poor German sailor. In any case that was pretty unlikely after getting on for sixty years in the depths of the Atlantic Ocean.
“Go on,” she encouraged.
“It was wrapped in tarpaulin and wound around with heavy chains. So we can pretty well forget any thoughts either of one of the original crew or any sort of freak accident at sea. Looks almost certain some bastard just threw it into the sea from a boat.”
Karen remained motionless on one knee, oblivious to the small sharp pieces of gravel digging into her skin through the thin cotton of her trousers. Her mouth felt dry when she opened it to speak again. Her brain was buzzing. She ran her tongue around her lips. The sharp moment of suspense, albeit so brief, while she considered the possible meaning of what she had been told, made it difficult for her to formulate the words she wanted to say.
“Anybody taken a guess at how long the skeleton may have been there?” she asked eventually, aware that her voice was perfectly calm. Karen always managed to sound calm whatever she was feeling inside. It was one of the many tricks she had developed which made up her persona.
“No way, boss. But the divers did say that it had been pretty securely wrapped in the tarpaulin, and also that it had drifted or been swept inside the hull of the U-boat where it was wedged in such a way that it’s been protected from the currents and the fish. So it could well have been there much longer than you’d normally reckon possible from its condition.”
Karen thought quickly. She always did. That was what made her so bloody good at her job.
“You said parts of a skeleton? What about the head?”
Phil Cooper would know at once what she was getting at. If the head were intact that might mean teeth still existed. Dental records gave swift irrefutable identification. DNA might be obtainable but it was not always as straightforward as people assumed, and certainly not when only bones were left of a corpse.
“Most of the torso and the arm and leg bones are there apparently, but the tarpaulin had worked loose around the neck freeing the head to all the destructive elements of the Atlantic Ocean,” Cooper replied. “Nothing of it left at all, they don’t reckon. Sorry, boss.”
Karen grunted. Her brain was still buzzing as if a swarm of honeybees had crawled inside it. She closed the fingers of her free hand around her dropped car keys and rose slowly to her feet.
“Are they certain it’s just the one body?”
“I think I can guess what you’re getting at, boss.”
Karen had been pretty sure that he would, but she had no time for the niceties of game playing.
“Well?” she enquired sharply.
“Seems so. The amount of bones, and even the way the skeleton was bundled up, suggests a single adult corpse only. We don’t have an expert opinion yet, though.”
Karen grunted.
“Where’s the skeleton now?”
“On its way to the morgue at Torquay Hospital.”
“Meet you there in fifteen.”
She snapped off her phone without waiting for a reply. Her heart was pumping very fast, as if she had been exercising hard. When she opened the car door and slipped into the driver’s seat she was aware that her mouth was drier than ever. Her hands on the wheel trembled very slightly. Her eyes gleamed with excitement. Apart from any other considerations, this was what she had joined the police force for. Until Phil Cooper had called, her day ahead was to have been devoted entirely to paperwork and admin, the aspects of her job which held no appeal for her at all. Now she could cast that aside with a clear conscience, for once.
She gunned the engine into life and swung her sleek convertible sports car out of the car park. It was one of the new MGs. Her long-time journalist friend John Kelly, a devotee of the original MGBs, whom she was sure she would encounter very soon as he had a nose for a story that would shame your average bloodhound, was derisory of what he called “the pale imitations.” But then Kelly, who always seemed to be in trouble of one sort or another, was barely qualified to speak as his most recent series of misadventures had led to him being banned from driving for the foreseeable future.
The sky was beginning to lighten a little as Karen pulled into the main seafront road, so out of habit she reached up with one hand, unfastened the hood and swung it back — a trick she had taught herself as soon as she acquired the car. Karen was not the type who had either the time or the inclination to pull into a lay-by and stop in order to lower a car hood. Her hair shifted only slightly with the draught caused by the vehicle’s forward motion. She had one of those cuts which rarely moved out of place. It was, she sometimes thought, possibly the only intrinsically tidy thing about her and she was extremely fussy about her hair, washing it daily and fussing over it constantly. If Karen’s hair didn’t look right, she was inclined to feel unable to function at all.
She reached into the glove compartment for a pair of dark glasses and coasted to a halt at the first set of traffic lights, the determined upward tilt of her jaw and the inexplicable aura of excitement she now exuded from every pore making her appear particularly attractive.
She was quite unaware of the admiring glances of the driver of the car adjacent to her. But Karen’s image, maintained always in such a fragile manner, was firmly reinstated, both in her mind and that of others. She had already forgotten the empty blackness of her early morning mood, which was, in any case, not for public consumption. Neither did she remember how tired she had felt just a few minutes earlier. Her brain was on overdrive. The adrenaline raced through her system making every nerve-end tingle with anticipation.
It couldn’t be, she thought. Not after all this time. Not after twenty-eight years. It really couldn’t be. Could it?