Wilt

Chapter 4

‘I loathe parties,’ said Wilt on Thursday night, ‘and if there’s one thing worse than parties it’s university parties and bottle parties are worst of all. You take along a bottle of decent burgundy and end up drinking someone else’s rotgut.’

‘It isn’t a party,’ said Eva, ‘it’s a barbecue.’

‘It says here “Come and Touch and Come with Sally and Gaskell 9 PM Thursday. Bring your own ambrosia or take pot luck with the Pringsheim punch.” If ambrosia doesn’t mean Algerian bilgewater I’d like to know what it does mean.’

‘I thought it was that stuff people take to get a hard-on,’ said Eva.

Wilt looked at her with disgust. ‘You’ve picked up some choice phrases since you’ve met these bloody people. A hard-on! I don’t know what’s got into you.’

‘You haven’t. That’s for sure,’ said Eva, and went through to the bathroom. Wilt sat on the bed and looked at the card. The beastly thing was shaped like a…What the hell was it shaped like? Anyway it was pink and opened out and inside were all these ambiguous words. Come and Touch and Come. Anyone touched him and they’d get an earful. And what about pot luck? A lot of trendy dons smoking joints and talking about set-theoretic data-manipulation systems or the significance of pre-Popper Hegelianism in the contemporary dialectical scene, or something equally unintelligible, and using fuck and cunt every now and then to show that they were still human.

‘And what do you do?’ they would ask him.

‘Well, actually I teach at the Tech.’

‘At the Tech? How frightfully interesting,’ looking over his shoulder towards more stimulating horizons, and he would end the evening with same ghastly woman who felt strongly that Techs fulfilled a real function and that intellectual achievement was vastly overrated and that people should be, oriented in a way that would make them community coordinated and that’s what Techs were doing, weren’t they? Wilt knew what Techs were doing. Paying people like him £3500 a year to keep Gasfitters quiet for an hour.

And Pringsheim Punch. Planters Punch. Printers Punch. He’d had enough punches recently.

‘What the hell am I to wear?’ he asked.

‘There’s that Mexican shirt you bought on the Costa del Sol last year,’ Eva called from the bathroom. ‘You haven’t had a chance to wear it since’

‘And I don’t intend to now,’ muttered Wilt, rummaging through a drawer in search of something nondescript that would demonstrate his independence. In the end he put on a striped shirt with blue jeans.

‘You’re surely not going like that?’ Eva told him emerging from the bathroom largely naked. Her face was plastered with white powder and her lips were carmine.

‘Jesus wept,’ said Wilt, ‘Mardi Gras with pernicious anaemia.’

Eva pushed passed him. ‘I’m going as The Great Gatsby,’ she announced,’ ‘and if you had any imagination you’d think of something better than a business shirt with blue jeans’

‘The Great Gatsby happened to be a man,’ said Wilt.

‘Bully for him,’ said Eva and put on her lemon loungers.

Wilt shut his eyes and took off his shirt. By the time they left the house he was wearing a red shirt with jeans while Eva, in spite of the hot night, insisted on putting on her new raincoat and trilby.

‘We might as well walk.’ said Wilt.

They took the car. Eva wasn’t yet prepared to walk down Parkview Avenue in a trilby, a belted raincoat and lemon loungers. On the way they stopped at an off-licence where Wilt bought a bottle of Cyprus red.

‘Don’t think I’m going to touch the muck,’ he said, ‘and you had better take the car keys now. If it’s as bad as I think it will be, I’m walking home early.’

It was. Worse. In his red shirt and blue jeans Wilt looked out of place.

‘Darling Eva,’ said Sally, when they finally found her talking to a man in a loincloth made out of a kitchen towel advertising Irish cheeses, ‘you look great. The twenties suit you. And so this is Henry.’ Henry didn’t feel Henry at all. ‘In period costume too. Henry meet Raphael.’

The man in the loincloth studied Wilt’s jeans. ‘The fifties are back,’ he said languidly, ‘I suppose it was bound to happen.’

Wilt looked pointedly at a Connemara Cheddar and tried to smile.

‘Help yourself, Henry,’ said Sally, and took Eva off to meet the freest but the most liberated woman who was simply dying to meet booby baby. Wilt went into the garden and put his bottle on the table and looked for a corkscrew. There wasn’t one. In the end he looked into a large bucket with a ladle in it. Half an orange and segments of bruised peach floated in a purple liquid. He poured himself a paper cup and tried it. As he had anticipated, it tasted like cider with wood alcohol and orange squash. Wilt looked round the garden. In one corner a man in a chef’s hat and a jockstrap was cooking, was burning sausages over a charcoal grill. In another corner a dozen people were lying in a circle listening to the Watergate tapes. There was a sprinkling of couples talking earnestly and a number of individuals standing by themselves looking supercilious and remote. Wilt recognised himself among them and selected the least attractive girl on the theory that he might just as well jump in the deep end and get it over with. He’d end up with her anyway.

‘Hi,’ he said, conscious that already he was slipping into the Americanese that Eva had succumbed to. The girl looked at him blankly and moved away.

‘Charming,’ said Wilt, and finished his drink. Ten minutes and two drinks later he was discussing Rapid Reading with a small round man who seemed deeply interested in the subject.

In the kitchen Eva was cutting up French bread while Sally stood with a drink and talked about Lévi-Strauss with an Ethiopian who had just got back from New Guinea.

I’ve always felt that L-S was all wrong on the woman’s front,’ she said, languidly studying Eva’s rear, ‘I mean he disregards the essential similarity…’ She stopped and stared out of the window. ‘Excuse me a moment she said, and went out to rescue Dr Scheimacher from the clutches of Henry Wilt. ‘Ernst is such a sweetie,’ she said, when she came back ‘you’d never guess he got the Nobel prize for spermatology.’

Wilt stood in the middle of the garden and finished his third drink he poured himself a fourth and went to listen to the Watergate tapes. He got there in time to hear the end.

‘You get a much clearer insight into Tricky Dick’s character quadraphonically,’ someone said as the group brake up.

‘With the highly gifted child one has to develop a special relationship. Roger and I find that Tonio responds best to constructional approach.’

‘It’s a lead of bull. Take what he says about quasars for example…’

‘I can’t honestly see what’s wrong with buggery…’

‘I don’t care what Marcuse thinks about tolerance. What I’m saying is…’

‘At minus two-fifty nitrogen…’

‘Bach does have his moments I suppose but he has his limitations…’

‘We’ve got this place at St Trop…’

‘I still think Kaldor had the answer…’

Wilt finished his fourth drink and went to look for Eva. He’d had enough. He was halted by a yell from the man in the chef’s hat.

‘Burgers up. Come and get it.’

Wilt staggered off and got it. Two sausages, a burnt beefburger and a slosh of coleslaw on a paper plate. There didn’t seem to be any knives or forks.

‘Poor Henry’s looking so forlorn,’ said Sally, ‘I’ll go and transfuse him.’

She went out and took Wilt’s arm.

‘You’re so lucky to have Eva. She’s the babiest baby.’

‘She’s thirty-five,’ said Wilt drunkenly, ‘thirty-five if she’s a day.’

‘It’s marvellous to meet a man who says what he means,’ said Sally, and took a piece of beefburger from his plate. ‘Gaskell just never says anything straightforwardly. I love down to earth people.’ She sat down on the grass and pulled Wilt down with her. ‘I think it’s terribly important for two people to tell one another the truth,’ she went on, breaking off another piece of beefburger and popping it into Wilt’s mouth. She licked her fingers slowly and looked at him with wide eyes. Wilt chewed the bit uneasily and finally swallowed it. It tasted like burnt mincemeat with a soupçon of Lancôme. Or a bouquet.

‘Why two?’ he asked, rinsing his mouth out with coleslaw.

‘Why two what?’

‘Why two people,’ said Wilt, ‘Why is, it so important for two people to tell the truth?’

‘Well I mean…’

‘Why not three? Or four? Or a hundred?’

‘A hundred people can’t have a relationship. Not an intimate one,’ said Sally, ‘not a meaningful one.’

‘I don’t know many twos who can either,’ said Wilt. Sally dabbed her finger in his coleslaw.

‘Oh but you do. You and Eva have this real thing going between you.’

‘Not very often.’ said Wilt. Sally laughed.

‘Oh baby, you’re a truth baby.’ she said, and got up and fetched two more drinks. Wilt looked down into his paper cup doubtfully. He was getting very drunk.

‘If I’m a truth baby, what sort of baby are you, baby?’ he asked, endeavouring to instil the last baby with more than soupçon of contempt. Sally snuggled up to him and whispered in his ear.

‘I’m a body baby,’ she said.

‘I can see that.’ said Wilt. ‘You’ve got a very nice body.’

‘That’s the nicest thing anybody has ever said to me,’ said Sally.

‘In that case.’ said Wilt, picking up a blackened sausage ‘you must have had a deprived childhood’

‘As a matter of fact I did,’ Sally said and plucked the sausage from his fingers. ‘That’s why I need so much loving now. She put most of the sausage in her mouth, drew it slowly out and nibbled the end. Wilt finished off the coleslaw and washed it down with Pringsheim Punch.

‘Aren’t they all awful?’ said Sally, as shouts and laughter came from the corner of the garden by the grill.

Wilt looked, up.

‘As a matter of fact they are,’ he said. ‘Who’s the clown in the jockstrap?’

‘That’s Gaskell. He’s so arrested. He loves playing at things,’ In the States he just loves to ride footplate on a locomotive and he goes to rodeos and last Christmas he insisted on dressing up as Santa Claus and going down to Watts and giving out presents to the black kids at an orphanage. Of course they wouldn’t let him.’

‘If he went in a jockstrap I’m not in the least surprised,’ said Wilt. Sally laughed.

‘You must be an Aries,’ she said. ‘you don’t mind what you say.’ She got to her feet and pulled Wilt up-’I'm going to show you his toy room. It’s ever so droll.’

Wilt put his plate down and they went into the house. In the kitchen Eva was peeling oranges for a fruit salad and talking about circumcision rites with the Ethiopian, who was slicing bananas for her. In the lounge several couples were dancing back to back very vigorously to an LP of Beethoven’s Fifth played at 78.

‘Christ,’ said Wilt as Sally collected a bottle of Vodka from a cupboard. They went upstairs and down a passage to a small bedroom filled with toys. There was a model train set on the floor, a punchbag, an enormous Teddy dear, a rocking horse, a fireman’s helmet and a lifesize inflated doll that looked like a real woman.

‘That’s Judy,’ said Sally. ’she’s got a real cunt. Gaskell is a plastic freak.’ Wilt winced. ‘And here are Gaskell’s toys, puberty baby.’

Wilt looked round the room at the mess and shook his head. ‘Looks as though he’s making up for a lost childhood,’ he said.

‘Oh, Henry, you’re so perceptive,’ said Sally, and unscrewed the top of the Vodka bottle.

‘I’m not. It’s just bloody obvious.’

‘Oh you are. You’re just terribly modest, is all. Modest and shy and manly.’ She swigged from the bottle and gave it to Wilt. He took a mouthful inadvisedly and had trouble swallowing it. Sally locked the door and sat down on the bed. She reached up a hand and pulled Wilt towards her.

‘Screw me, Henry baby,’ she said and lifted her skirt, ‘fuck me, honey. Screw the pants off me.’

‘That,’ said Wilt, ‘would be a bit difficult.’

‘Oh. Why?’

‘Well for one thing you don’t appear to be wearing any and anyway why should I?’

‘You want a reason? A reason for screwing?’

‘Yes,’ said Wilt. ‘Yes I do.’

‘Reason’s treason. Feel free.’ She pulled him down and kissed him. Wilt didn’t feel at all free. ‘Don’t be shy, baby.’

‘Shy?’ said Wilt lurching to one side. ‘Me shy?’

‘Sure you’re shy. OK, you’re small. Eva told me…’

‘Small? What do you mean I’m small?’ shouted Wilt furiously.

Sally smiled up at him. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. Just you and me and…’

‘It bloody well does matter,’ snarled Wilt. ‘My wife said I was small. I’ll soon show the silly bitch who’s small. I’ll show…’

‘Show me, Henry baby, show me. I like them small. Prick to the quick.’

‘It’s not true,’ Wilt mumbled.

‘Prove it, lover,’ said Sally squirming against him.

‘I won’t,’ said Wilt, and stood up.

Sally stopped squirming and looked at him. ‘You’re just afraid,’ she said. ‘You’re afraid to be free.’

‘Free? Free?’ shouted Wilt, trying to open the door, ‘Locked in a room with another man’s wife is freedom? You’ve got be joking.’

Sally pulled down her skirt and sat up.

‘You won’t?’

‘No,’ said Wilt.

‘Are you a bondage baby? You can tell me. I’m used bondage babies. Gaskell is real…’

‘Certainly not,’ said Wilt. ‘I don’t care what Gaskell is.’

‘You want a blow job, is that it? You want for me to give you a blow job? She got off the bed and came towards him. Wilt looked at her wildly.

‘Don’t you touch me,’ he shouted, his mind alive with images of burning paint. ‘I don’t want anything from you.’

Sally stopped and stared at him. She wasn’t smiling any more.

‘Why not? Because you’re small? Is that why?’

Wilt hacked against the door.

‘No, it isn’t.’

‘Because you haven’t the courage of your instincts? Because yours a psychic virgin? Because you’re not a man? Because you can’t take a woman who thinks?’

‘Thinks?’ yelled Wilt, stung into action by the accusation that he wasn’t a man. ‘Thinks? You think? You know something? I’d rather have it off with that plastic mechanical do than you. It’s got more sex appeal in its little finger than you have in your whole rotten body. When I want a whore I’ll buy one.’

‘Why you little shit’ said Sally, and lunged at him. Wilt scuttled sideways and collided with the punchbag. The next moment he had stepped on a model engine and was hurtling across the room. As he slumped down the wall on to the floor Sally picked up the doll and leant over him.

In the kitchen Eva had finished the fruit salad and had made coffee. It was a lovely party. Mr Osewa had told her all about his job as underdevelopment officer in Cultural Affairs to UNESCO and how rewarding he found it. She had been kissed twice on the back of the neck by Dr Scheimacher in passing and the man in the Irish Cheese loincloth had pressed himself against her rather more firmly than was absolutely necessary to reach the tomato ketchup. And all around her terribly clever people were being so outspoken. It was all so sophisticated. She helped herself to another drink and looked around for Henry. He was nowhere to be seen.

‘Have you seen Henry?’ she asked when Sally came into the kitchen holding a bottle of Vodka and looking rather flushed.

‘The last I saw of him he was setting with some dolly bird,’ said Sally, helping herself to a spoonful of fruit salad. ‘Oh, Eva darling, you’re absolutely Cordon Bleu baby.’ Eva blushed.

‘I do hope he’s enjoying himself, Henry’s not awfully good at parties.’

‘Eva baby, be honest. Henry’s not awfully good period.’

‘It’s just that he…’ Eva began but Sally kissed her.

‘You’re far too good for him,’ she said. ‘we’ve got to find you someone really beautiful.’ While Eva sipped her drink, Sally found a young man with a frond of hair falling across his forehead who was lying on a couch with a girl, smoking and staring at the ceiling.

‘Christopher precious,’ she said, ‘I’m going to steal you for a moment. I want you to do someone for me. Go into the kitchen and sweeten the woman with the boobies and the awful yellow pyjamas.’

‘Oh God. Why me?’

‘My sweet, you know you’re utterly irresistible. But the sexiest. For me, baby, for me.’

Christopher got off the couch and went into the kitchen Sally stretched out beside the girl.

‘Christopher is a dreamboy,’ she said.

‘He’s a gigolo.’ said the girl. ‘A male prostitute.’

‘Darling,’ said Sally, ‘it’s about time we women had them.’

In the kitchen Eva stopped pouring coffee. She was feeling delightfully tipsy.

‘You mustn’t.’ she said hastily.

‘Why not?’

‘I’m married.’

‘I like it. I like it.’

‘Yes but…’

‘No buts, lover.’

‘Oh.’

Upstairs in the toy room Wilt, recovering slowly from the combined assaults on his system of Pringsheim Punch, Vodka, his nymphomaniac hostess and the corner of the cupboard against which he had fallen, had the feeling that something was terribly wrong. It wasn’t simply that the room was oscillating, that he had a lump on the back of his head or that he was naked. It was rather the sensation that something with all the less attractive qualities of a mousetrap, or a vice, or starving clam, had attached itself implacably to what he, had up till now always considered to be the most private of parts. Wilt opened his eyes and found himself staring into smiling if slightly swollen face. He shut his eyes again, hope against hope, opened them again, found the face still there and made an effort to sit up.

It was an unwise move. Judy, the plastic doll, inflated beyond her normal pressure, resisted. With a squawk Wilt fell back on to the floor. Judy followed. Her nose bounced on his face and her breasts on his chest. With a curse Wilt rolled onto his side and considered the problem. Sitting up was out of the question. That way led to castration. He would have to try something else. He rolled the doll over further and climb on top only to decide that his weight on it was increasing pressure on what remained of his penis and that if he wanted to get gangrene that was the way to go about getting it. Wilt rolled off precipitately and groped for a valve. There must be one somewhere if he could only find it. But if there was a valve it was well hidden and by the feel of things he hadn’t got time to waste finding it. He felt round on the floor for something to use as a dagger, something sharp, and finally broke off a piece of railway track and plunged it into his assailant’s back. There was a squeak of plastic but Judy’s swollen smile remained unchanged and her unwanted attentions as implacable as ever. Again and again he stabbed her but to no avail. Wilt dropped his makeshift dagger and considered other means. He was getting frantic, conscious of a new threat. It was no longer that he was the subject of her high air pressure. His own internal pressures were mounting. The Pringsheim Punch and the vodka were making their presence felt. With a desperate thought that if he didn’t get out of her soon he would burst, Wilt seized Judy’s head, bent it sideways and sank his teeth into her neck. Or would have had her pounds per square inch permitted. Instead he bounced off and spent the next two minutes trying to find his false tooth which had been dislodged in the exchange.

By the time he had got it back in place, panic had set in. He had to get out of the doll. He just had to. There would be a razor in the bathroom or a pair of scissors. But where on earth was the bathroom? Never mind about that. He’d find the damned thing. Carefully, very carefully he rolled the doll on to her hack and followed her over. Then he inched his knees up until he was straddling the thing. All he needed now was something to hold on to while he got to his feet. Wilt leant over and grasped the edge of a chair with one hand while lifting Judy’s head off the floor with the other. A moment later he was on his feet. Holding the doll to him he shuffled towards the door and opened it. He peered out into the passage. What if someone saw him? To hell with that. Wilt no longer cared what people thought about him. But which way was the bathroom? Wilt turned right, and peering frantically over Judy’s shoulder, shuffled off down the passage.

Downstairs, Eva was having a wonderful time. First Christopher, then the man in the Irish Cheese loincloth and finally Dr Scheimacher, had all made advances to her and been rebuffed. It was such a change from Henry’s lack of interest showed she was still attractive. Dr Scheimacher had said that she was an interesting example of latent steatopygia, Christopher tried to kiss her breasts and the man in the loincloth had made the most extraordinary suggestion to her. And through it all, Eva had remained entirely virtuous. Her massive skittishness, her insistence on dancing and, most effective of all, her habit of saying in a loud and not wholly cultivated voice, ‘Oh you are awful’ at moments of their greatest ardour, had had a markedly deterrent effect. Now she sat on the floor in the living-room, while Sally and Gaskell and the bearded man from the institute of Ecological Research argued about sexually interchangeable role-playing in a population-restrictive society. She felt strangely elated. Parkview Avenue and Mavis Mottram and her work at the Harmony Community Centre seemed to belong to another world. She had been accepted by people who flew to California or Tokyo to conferences and Think Tanks as casually as she took the bus to town. Dr Scheimacher had mentioned that he was flying to New Delhi in the morning, and Christopher had just come back from photographic assignment in Trinidad. Above all, there was an aura of importance about what they were doing, a glamour that was wholly lacking in Henry’s job at the Tech. If only she could get him to do something interesting and adventurous. But Henry was such a stick-in-the-mud. She had made mistake in marrying him. She really had. All he was interested in was books, but life wasn’t to be found in books. Like Sally said, life was for living. Life was people and experiences and fun. Henry would never see that.

In the bathroom Wilt could see very little. He certainly couldn’t see any way of getting out of the doll. His attempt to slit the beastly thing’s throat with a razor had failed, thank largely to the fact that the razor in question was a Wilkinson bonded blade. Having failed with the razor be had tried shampoo as a lubricant but apart from working up a lather which even to his jaundiced eye looked as though he had aroused the doll to positively frenzied heights of sexual expectation the shampoo had achieved nothing. Finally he had reverted to a quest for the valve. The damned thing had one somewhere if only he could find it. In this endeavour he peered into the mirror on the door of the medicine cabinet but the mirror was too small. There was a large one over the washbasin. Wilt pulled down the lid of the toilet and climbed on to it. This way he would be able to get a clear view of the doll’s back. He was just inching his way round when there were footsteps in the passage. Wilt stopped inching and stood rigid on the toilet lid. Someone tried the door and found it locked. The footsteps retreated and Wilt breathed a sigh of relief. Now then, just let him find that valve.

And at that moment disaster struck. Wilt’s left foot stepped in the shampoo that had dripped on to the toilet seat, slid sideways off the edge and Wilt, the doll and the door of the medicine cabinet with which he had attempted to save himself were momentarily airborne. As they hurtled into the bath, as the shower curtain and fitting followed, as the contents of the medicine cabinet cascaded on to the washbasin, Wilt gave a last despairing scream. There was a pop reminiscent of champagne corks and Judy, finally responding to the pressure of Wilt’s eleven stone dropping from several feet into the bath, ejected him. But Wilt no longer cared. He had in every sense passed out. He was only dimly aware of shouts in the corridor, of someone breaking the door down, of faces peering at him and of hysterical laughter. When he came to be was lying on the bed in the toy room. He got up and put on his clothes and crept downstairs and out of the front door. It was 3 AM.