Winning Colors

Chapter Three

“What is it, another little problem?” Cecelia was scowling into a viewscreen. “Bad hocks,” she muttered, before Heris said anything.

“Where?”

“This excuse for a hunter stallion—look at it!” Heris came around the end of the desk and looked at the shiny black horse on the viewscreen. It trotted back and forth, looking sound enough to her. Cecelia froze the picture, and pointed. “Here—this is the problem. Those hocks should be much bigger—”

“It’s the feet that always look too small to me,” Heris said. No use trying to get Cecelia’s mind shifted to the crew until she’d worked her way through the horse business. “Why are the hocks too small?”

The answer took longer than Heris had expected, because Cecelia insisted on bringing up video files on a dozen or so horses, as well as an animated skeletal model. And when Heris dismissed it, at the end, with “I see—just like ankles, as you said—ankles sprain more often than knees or hips,” Cecelia threw up her hands.

“You are ridiculous! It’s the same joint, but it’s not the same stresses. I give up. What was it you came about?”

Heris had hoped to soothe Cecelia, but since that hadn’t worked, she tried for a bland, quick summary of her reasons for wanting a quick departure. “Arash Livadhi, who saved our skins as you recall, has asked me a favor; he wants me to transport one of his crew, who needs to be . . . er . . . out of touch for a while.”

“Why?”

“He didn’t say, exactly. It has something to do with the mess we were all in, and something the person overheard. He’s a communications tech.”

Cecelia scowled at her. “Is this a way of sneaking in another ex-military crewmember?”

“No.” Heris didn’t explain further; it wouldn’t help.

“I don’t like it,” Cecelia said.

“Arash’s medical teams saved Sirkin’s life,” Heris pointed out. “And yours. We owe him, both of us. He got us back here, past potential enemies, in time for the Grand Council.”

Cecelia’s expression didn’t soften. Inspiration hit. “You don’t have to consider this person a crewmember, if you wish. Since it’s technically my ship, consider him my guest.”

“You—!” Cecelia’s face went white, then red in patches, then she burst into laughter. “You stinker! I almost wish I’d known you when you were all military. You must have been—”

“Difficult,” Heris said demurely. “Difficult is what they called it.”

“Brilliant on occasion, I’ve no doubt. If you were my age, I’d thrash you, but considering—I’ll just put some interesting problems in your next riding lesson.”

It was Heris’s turn to stare. “You can’t mean that—you think I’m going on with riding?”

“It would exercise something besides your ingenuity,” Cecelia said. “And you never know when physical fitness will come in handy. You and Petris, for instance—”

Heris felt the heat in her face. She and Petris indeed. She struggled for something, anything, to say, and blurted it out before her internal editor had a chance at it. “We have other ways of maintaining physical fitness. . . .”

“I’ll bet you have,” Cecelia said, and smirked. Heris glared.

“Other than that.” But she had to chuckle; she had done it to herself. “I don’t know why I thought you’d mellow after rejuvenation.”

“I don’t either,” Cecelia said. “And I didn’t. Mellow was never my virtue. But we’ve had even honors on this one; I won’t say any more about that man’s crewman, whatever he is.”

“Thank you,” Heris said. “May I ask why you were looking at that stallion whose hocks you didn’t like?”

“Rotterdam,” Cecelia said. “Those people did a lot for me; they’re old friends, of course, but . . . I want to do something for them. Of course I can share the bloodstock I have there—but I’ve been doing that for years. What I’m looking for is some outcross lines that will broaden their base, that they couldn’t possibly afford on their own.”

“Is that all the planet does, raise horses?”

“Almost.” Cecelia touched her screen, and brought up a graphic montage. “It’s a combination of climate, terrain, and the accidents of discovery and development. Horses are useful in a variety of ways in colonization: self-replicating farm power, for instance. Pack animals in difficult terrain. Personal transportation. But they’re displaced if industrialization provides alternatives. So usually you have poor planets with horses—workhorses—and room to breed but no recreational bloodstock. Then you have industrial planets with a demand for recreational horses, but those horses squeezed into less and less land. Rotterdam was settled as an agricultural world, complete with draft horses. But its climate is far better suited to permanent pasturage than grain farming. Someone apparently obtained some bloodstock semen and began breeding recreational horses. . . .”

“How did they market them?” Heris asked. Horses, she remembered, shipped badly aboard spacecraft.

“With great difficulty. But somehow they got a colt nominated for a famous stakes race, and got him there alive and capable of running. More than capable. That was Buccinator—it was one of his descendants that I rode at Bunny’s. I bought into his syndicate as a young woman—”

This made no sense to Heris, but the general plan did. “So you’re going to find additional semen or whatever for your friends on Rotterdam. . . .”

“Right. I’ve got a dozen cubes to review—ordered them from bloodstock agents—and then we’ll go take a look. So far most of Rotterdam’s produce is semen and embryos. It’s too far off the main shipways, and very rarely can a group get together to haul mature animals someplace. When I first set up my stud there, I’d planned to work on that . . . but things changed. . . . Anyway, if they have the quality, the money will follow. And provide transport.”

“Have you decided where to go first?”

“Wherrin Horse Trials. I’ve missed two of them—no reason to miss this time. I should pick up more ideas there, breeders not yet with bloodstock agents, that sort of thing.”

“I’d like to leave as soon as Koutsoudas is aboard,” Heris said. “He’s not the only problem—I know you talked to your nephew—and you know that Lord Thornbuckle has asked me to take on Brun.”

“I’m willing,” Cecelia said. “The lawyers can handle my suit just as well without me. Better perhaps. They say I interfere. . . . I didn’t know it would affect Ronnie and Raffaele.”

Heris thought of saying what she thought about the lawsuit, but considering her own family relations she decided against it. She was hardly one to preach reconciliation with relatives.

Brigdis Sirkin hated being back on Rockhouse Major. Over on Minor, she had been able to pretend that they weren’t in the same system where Amalie died. Here, every shop window, every bar, every slideway and bounce tube reminded her of Amalie. Here she had died, and into this station’s recycler her physical cells had gone, to become the elements of something else . . . even this meal. She shoved it away, disgusted suddenly by the rich aroma of stew and bread.

“What’s wrong, hon?” Meharry leaned across the crowded table. “Got a bug or something?”

She didn’t want to answer. Meharry and the others had been so careful of her since the shooting, so sorry they’d believed a former shipmate and condemned her. They had organized that revenge on Amalie’s counselor in hopes of cheering her up; they had enjoyed it a lot more than she did. She was tired of it, tired of having to be kind in return. What she really wanted, she thought, was to be somewhere else, with someone else, someone who wasn’t part of the original mess. A face flickered in her memory a moment, the rich girl who had been Lady Cecelia’s friend and pretended to be hers as well.

She scolded herself into a deeper depression. Probably she wouldn’t see Brun again. Why would a girl like that want to be around her? It was silly to keep looking at the presents Brun had bought, as part of their pretense of courtship.

“Hi, there!” Sirkin looked up, startled. Meharry scowled, and Oblo grunted. Brun in the flesh, clearly excited and happy, in a soft blue silk jumpsuit that must have cost a fortune and brought out the blue of her eyes. Brun squeezed in next to Sirkin, with a chair she snagged from the next table. “We have to talk,” she said.

Sirkin felt her face going hot. There was no need for this; that other game was long over.

“And how did you find our humble eatery?” Meharry asked, with a bite to her voice.

Brun smiled, smugly. “I asked where the Sweet Delight’s crew usually ate. Since I’m now in the crew—”

“You’re not!” Oblo stared at her wide-eyed, then shook his head. “I wonder what the captain’s thinking of.”

“My father,” Brun said, and reached for a hunk of bread. “He thinks I need seasoning before I’m turned loose on an unsuspecting universe, and he thinks Captain Serrano is the right person to provide it. And you, of course.” She grinned around the table. The others all stared at Brun, and Sirkin hoped no one would notice how fast her own pulse was beating. She didn’t know yet if she was happy about this or not, but she couldn’t be indifferent.

“I hope you’re ready to go aboard and start working,” Meharry said. “Captain’s told us to be ready to ship out at a half-shift notice.”

“Fine with me,” Brun said. “I’ve already put my stuff aboard.”

“It’s called ‘duffel,’ ” Meharry said.

“Duffel.” Brun smiled at her, blue eyes wide. “Are you really angry, or just pretending? Because I’m not really an idiot—I actually have some ship time.”

“On what?” Oblo said quickly, hushing Meharry. Brun’s grin widened.

“On a shit-shoveler,” she said. “Caring for critters.”

Oblo snorted. “That’s not ship time . . . that’s just work. Proves you can work, but—we’ll see about you and the ship.”

Sirkin watched the others watching Brun, and wondered. She felt less alone now, less the one being watched. And Brun still gave her a good feeling, as if they might really be friends.

Esteban Koutsoudas arrived at the shipline in a plain gray jumpsuit with a Sweet Delight arm patch already on it. That didn’t surprise Heris. What did surprise her, a little, was that he’d made it here alive if Livadhi was right about how much danger he was in. Surely it would have been easier to take him on the station than on her ship. If not—she didn’t want to think about that.

“Esteban Koutsoudas, sir,” the man said. He carried an ordinary kitbag slung over his shoulder, and a couple of handcarries. She would have passed him in the concourse without a second thought—just another traveler, neither rich nor broke, with an intelligent but unremarkable face. Until he smiled, when his eyebrows went up in peaks.

“Glad to have you aboard,” Heris said, though she still wasn’t sure of that. “Mr. Petris will show you your quarters,” Heris said, by way of taking up a moment of time.

“Commander Livadhi sent you this,” Koutsoudas said, handing over a datacube. “And he said I was to assist you any way you liked.”

Right. Turn a superb longscan communications tech loose on her equipment . . . could she trust this man? Yet she lusted for his expertise; she had suspected for years that Koutsoudas was the secret of Livadhi’s success in more than one engagement.

“When you’ve stowed your gear,” she said, “Mr. Petris will introduce you to the crew. Then we’ll see.” She left a message for Lady Cecelia, who had gone off to talk to her lawyers again. Heris could believe they wanted her out of touch, at least for a while. She had been angry with her own family—she still was, if she thought about it—but it had never occurred to her to sue them. The rich are different, she reminded herself, as she notified Traffic Control that she would need a place in the outbound stack.

Maneuvering in and out of Rockhouse Major had begun to seem routine; Heris found her mind wandering even as she recited the checklist and spoke to the captain of the tug that snared the yacht’s bustle. They were leaving behind the problems of the new government, Cecelia’s family, Ronnie’s romantic problems, and whatever had been chasing Koutsoudas. Ahead—ahead, the frivolity of horse trials, though she dared not call it frivolity to Lady Cecelia.

Her ownership of the yacht had begun to sink past surface knowledge . . . having to pay the docking fees and the tug fees out of her own account certainly made an impression. True, Lady Cecelia had prepaid the charter fee to the Wherrin Trials, but still—Heris hoped she understood how to calculate what to charge.

They had an uneventful system transit, and the jump transition went smoothly as well. Day by day, Sirkin seemed brighter; she and Brun hung around together when they were off-shift. Heris hoped this would last, at least through the voyage. She didn’t want to have to deal with young passions unrequited, not with her own relationship going through a difficult period. She and Petris still found it awkward to get together aboard the ship; the intellectual knowledge that their situation was now different could not quite eradicate the habit of years.

She had expected Koutsoudas to be an unsettling presence, but oddly enough, he turned out to be very incurious about his shipmates. Did he already know (or think he knew) everything, or did he not care? Heris found it difficult to believe he didn’t care. Was he focussed only on the mechanical, on ship identities? Unlikely: she knew from rumor that he carried with him an analysis of opposing commanders. Perhaps he was here not to be kept out of someone’s eye, but to keep her under someone else’s. No, that was paranoia. She hoped. She wished her paranoia button had a “half on” setting, just in case.

Brun scowled over the maintenance manual for ship circuitry. “I wasn’t fond of ohms and volts two years ago, and they aren’t any friendlier now.”

Sirkin looked up from her own reading, a year’s worth of Current Issues in Navigation on cube. “You didn’t realize you’d have to learn what you were doing?”

“I didn’t on that shit-shoveler. Just put the output into the intake with a tool that’s been around since humans had domestic animals.”

“This is different.” Sirkin prodded Brun with her toe. “Captain Serrano wants her crew to be cross-trained and above-average in skills.”

“I know, I know.” Brun punched up the background reference again. “It’s just that electricity has never made sense to me. I keep wanting to know why it does what it does, and all my instructors insisted I should memorize it and not worry about the theory.” She entered the values she needed for the problem set. “And these names! How far back in the dark ages was it when they named these things? Volt, ohm, ampere: might as well be biff, baff, boff, for all the sense it makes.”

Sirkin opened her mouth to lecture Brun, then saw that the screen had lit with the colored flashes meant to cheer on the successful student. “You got them all correct,” she said.

“Of course.” Brun didn’t look up; she was entering her solutions to the next series of problems. “I’m not stupid; I just don’t like this stuff.”

Sirkin watched the angle of jaw, the cheekbone, the droop of eyelid as Brun looked down at the reference. She had heard Amalie complain so often about her classwork, but Amalie had had real trouble with it. She had not imagined that someone who could race through the material would still dislike it, and say so.

“You’re good at it,” she said, feeling her way. “So why don’t you like it?”

Brun looked up as if startled, and gave Sirkin a sober look that quickly turned to a mischievous grin. “I’m good at lots of things I don’t like,” she said. “I was bred to be good at things; that’s part of being a Registered Embryo.”

“But how do you know what to do? What speciality to pursue?” Sirkin remembered clearly the aptitude tests she’d had, year after year, that had aimed her at her present career with more and more precision.

Brun turned completely around, and set down her stylus. “I never thought about it,” she said frankly. “No one expects us to specialize, unless we have an overwhelming talent.” That seemed incredible to Sirkin, and her expression must have shown that, for Brun wrinkled her own nose and went on. “There’s general stuff we all have to know: economics, and management, and whatever is done by our family interests. You know.”

“No.” Sirkin didn’t know, and she had a vague feeling of irritation. She had never wondered much about the children of the very rich, how they were educated, what they did. But this sounded too flabby, too shapeless, to be worth anything. “I don’t see how you can expect to learn anything useful if you study only generalities.”

“We don’t.” Brun, she saw, had picked up that irritation, and chose not to reflect it. “We have a lot of specifics, too—things we’ll need—”

“Which fork,” Sirkin interrupted. Brun waved that away.

“Trivial. Children learn that by the time they start school, just from eating at tables with a range of flatware. No, there’s a lot of background information, on our own families and the other Chairholders. Some of it we pick up, but a lot has to be learnt, formally. To vote my shares intelligently, for instance, I have to know that certain families will not invest in any phase of pork production on religious grounds.”

“Shares of what?” Sirkin asked, forgetting her pique in genuine interest.

“Family companies. You know, the things our family invests in, products and processes . . .” Sirkin shook her head. “Do you know how investment works?”

“Not . . . exactly.” Not at all, really. She had started her own savings account in the Navigators’ Guild; she knew vaguely that they “invested” in something to keep that private bank going, but she had no idea how or what.

The process, when Brun finally got it across to her, she found appalling. She had thought that money—some real substance—sat in the Navigators’ Guild vaults. She had thought that some real substance lay behind the ubiquitous credit cubes and credit slips which she used in everyday transactions.

“Not anymore,” Brun said cheerfully. “It’s all a tissue of lies, really, but it works, and that’s all that matters.” That didn’t sound right, but Sirkin was past asking questions. “It’s whether people believe the credit cubes are any good that matters, and they define ‘good’ by the exchange rate.”

“I’m lost,” Sirkin said.

“No, you’re not.” Brun squirmed into the nest of pillows at one end of the bunk and began waving those long arms. “Look—what’s the smallest unit of money in the Familias?”

“A fee.” At least she knew that much. In rural districts, on more backward planets, you could still find vending machines that took fees, little disks of metal with designs stamped into them.

“And what can you buy with a fee?”

“It depends,” Sirkin said. Not much anywhere, she knew that, but something that cost ten fees in one town might cost fifteen somewhere else. She said that; she did not add that already she was beginning to believe in the worth of Brun’s education, however unusual.

“Exactly. So a fee is worth what someone will give you for it. The same with all our monetary units.”

“But that’s not the same as saying they’re no good if someone says so. . . .”

“Brig, think a moment. Suppose we’re on a station somewhere: I run a restaurant, and you want a meal. You hand me your credit cube . . . why would I take that in exchange? I have to believe that with the credits I take off your cube, I can buy things I want or need—like the food I’m going to cook to make your meal.”

“But of course you can—”

“As long as we all agree on the same lies, yes. But if we don’t—if I suspect you’ll eat the food, but the grocer won’t accept credit for the raw foods—”

“What else could they want?” It made no sense; everyone used credit cubes, and only a stupid person would refuse them.

“Something of hard value . . . you know, barter. Surely you had friends you traded around with? You know, you liked her scarf and she liked an earring you had, and you just traded.”

“Well, of course, but that’s not like buying it—”

“It is, really. Look—you might have seen her scarf, and said ‘What’ll you take for that?’ and it wasn’t a close friend, so she wouldn’t give it to you, and you’d pay a few fees. And then a week later, she spotted your earring, and bought it from you. Only difference is, if you have the things there, you can just trade. . . .”

“Seems more honest, that way,” Sirkin said.

“As long as you know how to judge the value of everything—but it wouldn’t work overall. I mean, an employer can’t keep a warehouse full of everything every employee might like, and let you rummage for a day’s worth of goods.”

“I see that,” Sirkin said. “But I still think money has to be real somehow. Solid. Stored someplace. They talk in the news about depositories as if they had something in them.”

“They do, but it’s mostly to keep counterfeiters from running down the value—” Brun stopped, aware that she was only confusing things. “Sorry. Look—this is sort of my field. For all of the Chairholders, I mean. I’ve explained it badly; I should have started slower.”

“I’m not stupid.” Sirkin turned away.

“No, and that’s not what I meant.” Brun waited, but Sirkin said nothing. She sighed, and went on. “Look, if you’re determined to be angry, I can’t stop you. Lots of people hate the rich. That’s understandable. We go bouncing around having fun, and even when we are working it doesn’t look like what you do.”

“That’s not it,” Sirkin said, still looking away.

“Are you sure? If not, what is it?”

“It’s—not that you have more money. That you can buy things.” Sirkin was looking down at her hands now, her fingers moving as if on a control board. “It’s that you seem to live in a different universe. Larger. You’re so smart, in everything. You’ve had all this education, in everything. Maybe I know more about navigation, and ten days ago I knew more about this electronic system . . . but you learn so fast. I always thought I was smart—I was smart; I had perfect scores. And you come waltzing in and learn it without trying, it seems like.” Her head dropped lower. “I feel like . . . like you’re going to read me, learn me, as fast as you have everything else, and then I’ll be just a bit of experience that enriches your life.” Sirkin tried to copy Brun’s accent. “ ‘Oh, yes, I had a woman lover once; she was a nice girl but rather limited.’ That’s what’s bothering me. I don’t want to be your adventure with gender orientation.”

“Oh.”

“Which is what Meharry says you’re doing,” Sirkin said, getting it all out in a rush. “She says you’re an R.E., and R.E.s are all made hetero, because your families want you to marry—”

“Meharry was supposed to be playing a role,” Brun said savagely, slamming her fist into one of the pillows. She didn’t want to be talking about this now, and especially not after Meharry had taken the high ground. “And besides she’s wrong.”

“About what, Registered Embryos in general, or you in particular?”

Brun waited a long moment, gathering her thoughts. “When I was in that cave, I realized that I didn’t want to be anyone’s designated blonde. So I understand that you don’t want to be my fling with sexual experimentation, a sort of bauble on the necklace of my life story. But that’s not how I’ve seen it, Sirkin. I admired you, and the way Captain Serrano talked about you . . . if it hadn’t been for you, they wouldn’t have come after us in time. Then we met, and . . . and I liked it.”

“But do you love men or women?”

Brun stirred uneasily. “I don’t know. I like both—to have as friends, I mean. I never really thought about it, because it didn’t matter a lot. Until now.”

“How can you not think about it!” More accusation than question. “You have to think about it.”

“I didn’t.” She had assumed, growing up in her family, knowing she was a Registered Embryo, that she would eventually marry and have children, most if not all of them also Registered Embryos. Being an R.E. determined your destiny; only the freelofs could choose. But on Sirkin’s face was an angry look that didn’t want to hear about complications. She had to try, anyway. “You know about genetic engineering—”

“Of course. What does that have to do with—oh.”

“I am a Registered Embryo, Brig. You knew that before Meharry said it; I told you early on. She’s right—at least, I thought it meant I wouldn’t love women, just because . . . because it’s so expensive.”

“Expensive?” Sirkin’s brow wrinkled. “Loving women?”

“No, being an R.E. They’re tough enough to produce with well-mapped sets—and we’re fourth-generation R.E., so all our stuff’s on file except any new mutations. Because of that, we’re all set to be heteros—so the work that goes into each of us will be available for the next generation.”

“There’s always A.I.” Sirkin said. Brun realized she didn’t know how Registered Embryos were made. Most people didn’t.

“A.I. is already part of it,” she said. “Harvesting of ova and sperm, in vitro fertilization and then splicing . . .”

“Then what does it matter what orientation the Registered Embryos have?” Sirkin asked. “If the whole reproductive bit is handled outside?”

“Prudence,” Brun said. “In the . . .” she hesitated, trying to think of a polite way to say “important families.” There wasn’t, so she plunged on to the second level of reasoning she’d been told about years before. “If things go wrong—if something happened to the Registered Embryo program, the families would still need children. We’d have to provide them the . . . er . . . old way. And they’d want us to want to. At least, not to want not to.”

“Oh.” Sirkin reflected on that a moment. “So it’s to protect the family against the loss of childbearing capacity if the medical infrastructure fails?”

“Right.” Brun frowned. “My mother said that even then the orientation of women wasn’t critical—in some cultures, women can be forced to bear children no matter what their wishes—but our culture thought that was unethical. Although it seems odd, that they would consider it ethical to determine our orientation so that it wouldn’t be overruled later. But formal bioethics always seemed full of loopholes to me, anyway.”

“I still think you have to know what you love, though.”

Brun threw up her hands. “I love lots of things, Brig. I’m that sort . . . I’m sorry, but that’s the truth. That’s what got me into that fast crowd at school, really. I want to try everything, do everything, be everything. Logically, that’s not possible, but . . . it would be such fun.”

“And fun is what matters?”

Brun winced. “Not all that matters, no. But—I’m trying to be honest with you, Brig, so please try to understand. I don’t think it’s being rich that did this. I think some people are like me, rich or not, R.E. or not. When we were trying to think how to get Lady Cecelia out of that horrible place, I’m the one who thought of the hot air balloon. And one reason it worked was that it was so utterly ridiculous. Impossible. Crazy. I loved that about it—the very outrageousness of it. New things—different things—they draw me. I asked Dad—I thought maybe the R.E. process had fouled up with me—and he said they’d asked for an extra dollop of some set of multi-named neurochemicals that produce my sort of person. They’d opted for conservative intelligence with the older ones; he said they wanted a little sparkle in me.”

“I think we are too different,” Sirkin said. “Maybe it’s your genes, and maybe it’s your background, but we aren’t enough alike—”

“Not for a permanent sexual relationship, no. But I don’t see why we can’t enjoy each other now and be lifetime friends. I like you; I admire you. Doesn’t that help?”

“Yes. I just wish—”

“You need a long-term lover. I understand that. And if you want Meharry instead of me—”

“No!”

“I thought you liked her. She’s angry enough at me that I thought you two had some kind of—”

“We don’t have any kind of anything,” Sirkin said. “I mean, I like her, as a sort of big sister, but like any big sister she tries to run my life too much. And she’s hard.”

“That’s being ex-military, probably.”

“I still don’t like it. She makes me feel like a fluffy helpless kitten, and I don’t like feeling helpless.”

“But fluffy?” Brun cocked an eyebrow at her.

“Well . . . I have to admit I’ve enjoyed shopping with you. I was brought up to be practical, of course. But it’s—it’s kind of fun to dress up.”

“So . . . even if you think fun isn’t enough—even if you think I’m just a spoiled rich brat with more money than sense—you could have fun sometimes.”

“With you, you mean,” Sirkin said. It wasn’t fair, the way Brun could coil an argument into a trap. “You think I should just relax and enjoy you, and forget the future?”

“Forget it? Never. But right now you can’t go hunting a better partner; I understand that you’ll want to, when you leave this ship. If you choose, we can be friends—I’d really like that, because I like you, and the friendship can last beyond this voyage. Lovers? Again, that’s up to you. I don’t want to hurt you, though I may have already—” Brun frowned, thinking about it. “I’d like to help you, if I knew how.”

Sirkin looked at her, at the body she now realized had been carefully engineered for health and beauty and even sexuality, at the mind behind the eyes which had also been engineered for intelligence and whatever the genetic specialists meant by “sparkle.” She couldn’t help admiring Brun; she suspected that that, too, had been built in, as ineradicable as the choice of height and coloring. In one way it seemed weak to admire, to love, someone engineered to be admirable and lovable—it gave her the queasy feeling that she was being manipulated by the genetic engineers. Yet Brun had been the material of their manipulations; she was even less free than Sirkin. She couldn’t help being who she was, any more than Sirkin could help being attracted.

“I would like to be friends,” she said, after a long pause. “I don’t know if it will work, in the long run, but—I do like you, and it’s fun having another young woman to talk to. But not more than friends. I could fall for you, Brun, and if there’s no chance for permanence, I don’t want to risk it.”

“Fair enough,” Brun said. A faint flush reddened her face, then faded. “Now—if we can go back a bit—I’d like some help with the navigation sets our beloved captain sent down for me.”

“You’re going to end up better at navigation than I am,” Sirkin grumbled.

“Not so. I’ll pass the test, that’s all. Didn’t you ever know anyone who could pass tests but flunked real life?” The tension of the past conversation shattered, and Sirkin found herself laughing, not quite in control, but content to be so.