Deader Still

22

While I stared at my hands, Connor checked through the space previously occupied by the gypsy wagon just to make sure we weren’t having the wool pulled over our eyes by some sort of illusion.

When we determined that the wagon truly wasn’t there anymore, I said, “Well, that’s pretty damn impressive.”

The crowd that had cheered when the wagon disappeared had dispersed, since it looked like the magic show was over and the wagon wouldn’t be reappearing anytime soon.

Connor paced in the now-empty booth. He looked hopeful, like maybe the wagon might suddenly reappear.

“I thought gypsies only did folk magic,” I said. “Trinkety stuff . . . lucky rabbits feet, love potions, wart removal, that kind of thing.”

Connor stopped pacing and looked up at me. He held his arms out and waved them in the empty space.

“Usually, yeah,” Connor said. “I guess some folk magic is a little bigger than others.”

“A little bigger?” I said. “We’re talking David Copper-field vanishing the Statue of Liberty proportions here. I think we should go fill the Inspectre in.”

Connor agreed and the two of us returned through a sea of geeks and nerds to our booth to give the Inspectre our rundown of what had just happened. Including the fact that I had lost my power.

“Don’t worry, kid,” Connor said once we had finished telling him. “We’ll figure something out.”

“Oh, really?” I said, agitated. “That’s pretty positive sounding coming from someone who hasn’t just lost their abilities. You’ll figure something out? Tell me, Connor, just how much folk magic have you reversed in your day?”

Connor held up his hand, his fingers tracing a circular goose egg.

“Exactly,” I said. I turned to the Inspectre. “Sir, I’m sorry. I have to get out of here.”

“Nonsense, my boy,” Inspectre Quimbley said, giving me an encouraging slap on the shoulder. “There’s plenty you can do around here to help with recruitment that doesn’t require a lick of power.”

I walked out from behind our table and went over to the next booth. It was just your average Comic Con booth, set up with a wide array of collectible comic memorabilia. I ran my hands up and down through the cardboard coffins of comics.

“Nothing,” I said, moving to the next table and the next one after that. “Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing.”

I must have looked insane.

Connor and the Inspectre stared in silence until I calmed down.

“Feel better, kid?” Connor said.

“Not really,” I said. “I feel kind of naked without my power, you know? It’s been a part of me for so long, I can’t remember life before it.”

The Inspectre gave a loud ha-room, stroked his mustache, and walked around the table to the outer side of the booth.

“Perhaps I’ll give you two a moment to collect yourselves while I check out this disappearing wagon for myself,” he said.

As he headed off in the direction we had just come from, Connor and I lapsed into awkward silence.

Several passersby sidled up to the booth, took a few pamphlets, and moved on. I was still shaking from the dawning realization of what losing my powers really meant. In many ways, they had defined my very existence up until this point.

“Listen, kid,” Connor said after a while. His voice was soft when he spoke. “Up until you joined the D.E.A., you considered your powers mostly a curse, right? Always messing up any chance with the ladies. So look on the bright side—now you don’t have to worry about your power getting in the way of your life anymore.”

I didn’t think I could feel worse than I already did, but apparently I was wrong.

“Yeah,” I said, “I can ruin my life all on my own just fine. Thanks.”

Connor cocked his head.

“Troubles in paradise, kid?”

I stepped back into our booth and sulked toward the rear of it.

“I don’t know,” I said, thankful for the change of subject even if it was also a dark one. “I don’t know if I can take her being in Greater and Lesser Arcana. I just don’t like Jane working so closely with Wesker. Every time I see them, she’s laughing and having a good time, but whenever I’m around her lately, it’s like she’s reserving all her lingering bits of darkness just for me. You don’t think that she and Wesker . . . ?”

I couldn’t even finish my sentence without my brain feeling like it might explode. My heart jackhammered in my chest.

“Wait, wait, wait,” Connor said. He came over to me. “Jane and Wesker? What? You think she’s doing the dark deed with the Dark Dud?”

He started laughing and shook his head.

“What?” I said. “I’m dead serious. What’s so hard to believe about that? He’s powerful, commanding; they share an affinity for dark things . . .”

“But he’s Thaddeus Wesker,” Connor said, unable to control himself. I felt the uncontrollable urge to smash him in the face. When he saw the serious look in my eyes, he composed himself. “Look, kid. I know that actually maintaining a relationship is new to you. It’s probably why you’re having all these out-of-whack jealousy issues. It’s like you’re in high school.”

Connor was right, though I hated to admit it. I felt my rageful urges calming down.

“I’ve never had to deal with any of this before,” I said. “I’m in uncharted water here.”

“You and Jane make a cute, if annoying, couple,” he said. “Don’t blow it over something as ridiculous as your imagined jealousy, okay?”

“Should I really be taking this advice from someone as single as you?”

Connor’s face darkened.

“Hey,” he said. “My being single is a choice. I made that decision when I entered the Department, so that no one close to me would ever come to harm. Let’s not get off topic here. We’re talking about you.”

I stared down into my hands—my powerless hands.

“Believe me,” Connor said. “There are worse problems than not having paranormal powers.”

“Things okay with you?” I said. Like the lights going out in a house, Connor’s eyes changed right before me, and he looked away.

“It’s nothing, kid,” he said, but I could still see he carried some kind of extra burden. That letter he had received had something to do with his brother. I would have bet money on it. Why had it been blocked from me in my psychometric vision, though? I had to find out.

“You know, you can talk to me,” I said. “About anything.”

Connor gave me a sidelong look of suspicion. “Is that an order?”

My stomach clenched at his words.

“Knock it off,” I said simply.

The Inspectre pushed his way back through the crowd, elves and Klingons flying to his left and right. He approached the booth, breathless.

“Anything?” Connor asked.

“As you said, the blasted wagon of theirs is nowhere to be found,” the Inspectre said.

“So there’s nothing we can do,” I said, frustrated. The only people who might have any sort of answers about the chupacabras or my power loss had literally vanished into thin air. It was all I could do not to scream. “I have to get out of here.”

The Inspectre, still winded, gave me a stern look.

“Sir, please,” I begged. I held my ungloved hands up to him. “We’re called the Department of Extraordinary Affairs. Right now I’m barely qualified for ordinary affairs, if that. I just need to get away for some time to think.”

My pleas seemed to soften the Inspectre, and he nodded.

“Of course,” he said finally. “Why don’t you take the afternoon off from the show floor and collect yourself.”

“Yeah, kid,” Connor said. I turned to him.

“Can I use your phone?” I said.

Connor hesitated. I never asked to borrow it from him, but that had been because I generally didn’t want to trigger off anything personal of his unless it was under the right circumstances. Without my powers, it really didn’t matter what I touched, but Connor didn’t move to hand it over.

“Mine melted in the Oubliette, remember?” I reminded him.

Connor nodded, and reluctantly pulled out his phone. He started to hand it to me, then pulled it away. “Maybe I should dial whatever number for you, just for safety’s sake.”

I reached over and snatched the phone from him. It felt oddly liberating not to have to worry at all about keeping my power in check while holding it. Liberating, yes, but also a little bit empty.

“Give me that,” I said, stepping away before he could grab it back. “I just need to get in touch with Jane.”

I’d have to contend with Mina and the heist details later, but now that I was powerless, the desire to see Jane was suddenly overwhelming. Sure, I had poor impulse control, but I wasn’t scheduled to take “Controlling Your Poor Impulse Control” until next spring anyway, so I couldn’t feel guilty about it.