Far From You

37

NOW (JUNE)

“Are you really gonna make me stay in the car?” Kyle asks as we drive down the dirt road leading to Rachel’s house. I park behind her mud-spattered Chevy and get out, trying to ignore how my legs are still shaking.

“No,” I say reluctantly. “Come on.”

He follows me up the porch steps, and I knock hard on the door. The impatience that I’ve kept at bay leaps to life again.

What has she found?

Rachel doesn’t answer, but I hear the rumble of an engine in the distance, so Kyle and I walk around the house to the back field. The dogs are lying on the deck, panting in the heat. Rachel’s riding an ancient mower, cutting swathes of long, summer-bleached grass in the yard. She waves when she spots us, cutting the engine and hopping off, walking toward us.

“Who’s this?” she asks when she gets close to the porch.

“Kyle.”

Rachel raises an eyebrow. “Seriously?”

“I think he’s on our side now,” I say.

“That’s right,” Kyle says. “Hi.” He holds his hand out to her, and she takes it, frowning.

“You’re gonna have to fill me in later, Sophie,” she says.

“Will do,” I say, trying to conceal my impatience. “Now what did you find out?”

Rachel wipes her forehead, clearing the sweat beading at her temples. “Come inside. I’ve got it all set up. It’s better if you see it.”

She leads us into her living room, where she’s got a laptop sitting on the wagon-wheel coffee table. She clicks and taps for a few seconds, then flips the switch of the projector she’s got rigged next to it. On the wall opposite us, her desktop appears.

“I’ve got to say, your girl? She was thorough.” Rachel clicks on a file labeled TL, and my eyes widen as the first thing I see is: September 28: Jackie Dennings disappears while jogging on Clear Creek Road (approx. 6PM). Mother calls police when she doesn’t return by dinner (approx. 8PM). Police recover pink sweater at the side of Clear Creek Road (approx. 9PM).

I scan the rest of the page.

It’s a time line.

My chest is tight with triumph. I’d been right. Mina chasing after a story got her killed.

“What is this?” Kyle asks.

“They’re Mina’s notes,” I say as Rachel clicks on the arrow, revealing another date on Mina’s time line: ­September 30: ­Matthew Clarke (Jackie’s boyfriend) is brought in for questioning. “This is the real reason we were out at Booker’s Point. Rachel, are all the files on the drive about Jackie Dennings?”

“Yeah.” Rachel minimizes the time line and brings up more files, newspaper articles, their headlines blaring Community Searches for Missing Girl; Six Weeks, No Sign of Local Girl; and Two Years Later, Dennings’ ­Disappearance Still a Mystery.

“Fuck,” Kyle says.

“What?” I ask.

“Last year, Mina asked me to get my brother to give her Amy Dennings’s phone number. Tanner and Amy are friends.”

“Jackie’s little sister?” I ask.

Kyle nods. “You remember when Jackie disappeared? We’d just started freshman year. There were all those vigils.”

“Trev was upset,” I say. “He and Jackie were in the same class.”

I look at the article Rachel’s projector beams onto the wall. Jackie Dennings’s face smiles at me, her straight blond hair brushing her shoulders, blue eyes full of warmth.

What had Mina found that made her chase after this so recklessly?

“What else do the notes say?” I ask Rachel.

“Jackie Dennings has been missing for almost three years,” Rachel says. “They never found any trace of her. No sightings. She’s just…gone. I don’t mean to sound all dire or anything, but she’s almost definitely dead. And Mina thought so, too.” Rachel taps on the keyboard for a few seconds, and the newspaper articles disappear, replaced with a map of the county. There’s a big circle drawn around the northwest corner, and when I look closer, I see that right at the center of the circle is Clear Creek Road, where Jackie disappeared.

“Was she looking for places where Jackie’s body might be?” I ask, feeling sick to my stomach.

“Well, yeah,” Rachel says. “I mean, I don’t know if she was going off in the woods with a shovel, but she mapped it out. Estimated how far whoever took Jackie would be able to get before the police put up roadblocks. Mina’s theory was that Jackie got abducted on Clear Creek Road and then taken to a second location, killed there, and dumped.”

“West of town, he had half the Trinities to choose from.” I shake my head.

“And the lake’s only ten miles away,” Rachel says. “The ideal place to dump a body. No one’s gonna be finding it.”

“So you’re saying that whoever took and probably killed Jackie Dennings three years ago killed Mina, too?” Kyle asks.

“Well, if she was meeting someone for a story, it was most certainly this story,” Rachel says. “And she was interviewing people connected to the case. There are three audio files of her interviewing Jackie’s family members and the boyfriend. That’s probably why she wanted Amy’s number from you, Kyle. Amy’s interview is on the thumb drive.”

My breath catches in my throat and something twists inside me, a weird mix of dread and wonder. “There’s…her voice…It’s Mina talking?” I ask.

Rachel reaches over and squeezes my hand. “Do you want me to play them?”

A sickening heat floods me, half want, half protest.

I’m not ready.

“No,” I say quickly. “No. Please. Don’t.”

There’s an exhalation of breath behind me, a relieved sigh from Kyle.

“She had a lot of material,” Rachel says. “I swear she saved every article ever written about Jackie. And her suspect list is so detailed—she was good at this.”

“Too good,” I say. “She got too close. She was gonna figure it out. And he stopped her so she wouldn’t tell.”

“There’s one thing,” Rachel says. “I think the killer tried to warn her. Tried to get her to back off.”

“What?” Kyle and I say at the same time.

“Seriously, look.” Rachel brings forward Mina’s time line again, paging forward. “The time line’s huge; it spans years. The most recent entry is December, just a few months before Mina was killed. Look at what it says.”

December 5: Warning note received. Sender’s been tipped off (Accidentally? On purpose?)

December 20: Note #2 received. Going to lie low for a while. Just to be safe.

I’m paralyzed for a moment with anger, consumed by it.

Why did she have to be so secretive all the time? She should’ve known better. Should’ve known she wasn’t invulnerable. I hate her for being so reckless. For not bothering to think about all of us, left in her wake.

“That’s what the killer meant,” I whisper. “That night. He said ‘I warned you’ before he shot her.”

“She was getting threatening notes and she didn’t tell us?” Kyle looks bewildered. “She would’ve told the police,” he adds, but he sounds uncertain, because deep down he knows he’s wrong. He’s trying to hide, to forget, what she was really like. How she’d existed half in this world and half in her own, and how when she’d break the rules, it’d be so beautiful to be a part of it that you’d play along, follow her anywhere, just to bask in her glow. “Or Trev?” he suggests, when Rachel and I say nothing. “Maybe she told Trev?”

“If she had told Trev she was being threatened, trust me, we wouldn’t even be having this discussion,” I say. “She’d be alive right now. Because Trev would’ve locked her in her room and called the cops. That’s why she didn’t tell him. That’s why she didn’t tell anyone.”

Kyle looks out the window at nothing as Rachel bites her lip, her gaze flitting back and forth between the two of us.

“She wouldn’t have gone out there that night if she thought she was meeting the person who sent those notes, though,” Kyle says, breaking the uncomfortable lull. This time, there’s no uncertainty in his voice.

“Are you sure about that?” Rachel asks, and she’s looking more at me than Kyle.

I almost shrug, but Kyle beats me to it. “No,” he says firmly. “Not with Sophie there. If she thought it would be dangerous, she would’ve come up with an excuse to leave Sophie at home.”

“She didn’t treat me—”

“You don’t know how much she worried about you relapsing—­she always talked to me about it. She wouldn’t have put you in danger.”

Heat crawls along my cheeks, and the silence goes on too long, until Rachel clears her throat.

“So that means it was someone she didn’t suspect,” I say.

“It means more than that,” Kyle says. “It means it was someone she trusted.”

Kyle’s right, of course. It makes me sick that she just walked into it. That the killer gained her trust, manipulated her into meeting him out there, and she’d gone, because she had that hunger to know.

“There aren’t any scans or photos of the warning notes she got?” I ask.

Rachel shakes her head. “No. She would’ve kept them, though, right?”

“Definitely,” I say.

“But the police searched her room,” Kyle says.

“Not very well—I found the thumb drive under the floorboards.”

“We should go through it again, then,” Kyle says.

“I can’t really do that,” I say, taking a breath.

“Why not?” Kyle asks.

“Trev,” Rachel answers, when it becomes apparent that I won’t.

“Oh, yeah,” Kyle says, and he has the grace to look guilty. “He’s really pissed at you. I’ll go talk to him. I’ll explain everything. Tell him I lied, that it wasn’t your fault you guys were at the Point. Don’t worry. Trev’s totally whipped over you—he’ll forgive you.”

I firmly ignore the last thing because I hate thinking about it, and instead I look up at Kyle. “If you tell Trev the truth, he’ll kick your ass.”

“I can take care of myself,” Kyle mutters.

“It’s not a good idea,” I say hastily, more for Trev’s sake than Kyle’s.

“But—”

“Drop it, Kyle,” I say. “Rachel, what else have you got?”

“Not much. I’ll make copies of all this for you both. You guys knew her, the way she worked and thought; you might be able to see something I didn’t.”

“We can meet again in a few days,” Kyle suggests. “Compare notes?”

“Sounds good,” Rachel says, looking at me for my consent.

I nod. “Yeah. Sounds good.”