47

Just as a defused bomb can be recycled into household ornaments, the aftermath became routine, as it always does. Tommy Bryson gave a confused statement, the clearest part of which was ‘I loved her, I loved her, I loved her.’ He was given a change of clothes from somewhere and put in a cell. Bud Lawson denied that the car they had seen in the Bridgegate had any connection with him. He said he had gone to Poppies and followed Harry Rayburn from there. Once he found where Tommy Bryson was, he had decided to wait till night and then go back and kill him. He was taken to hospital. Minty McGregor was released, saying, ‘This is some bloody way tae treat a dyin’ man.’ When the police went into Poppies for Harry Rayburn, they were left with a corpse to collect. He had gone to get his jacket and had cut his throat.

‘You’re the healthy one,’ Laidlaw said to Harkness. ‘How many people have you ever loved like that?’

They were sitting in an office at Central Division. Harkness was working at their report, Laidlaw was working at coffee, smoking and staring at the wall. Harkness had thought the end of it would feel different. He felt cheated of the euphoria he should be experiencing. It was like knowing there was a party on but not being able to find the address. It certainly wasn’t here.

‘That must’ve been a hard thing for Bud Lawson to do,’ he said.

‘Aye. It’s welcome to evolution for the big man. He’ll have to think instead of hitting for a while.’

‘It’s a good thing you managed to convince him he was wrong.’

‘I don’t know that I did that. I don’t even know that he was wrong.’

Harkness was surprised again to discover that the most certain thing about Laidlaw was his doubt. Everything came back to that, even his decisiveness.

‘So what was all that about?’ Harkness asked.

Laidlaw took some coffee.

‘What I’ve got against folk like Lawson isn’t that they’re wrong. It’s just that they assume they’re right. Bigotry’s just unearned certainty, isn’t it?’

Harkness went back to typing. The phone rang and Laidlaw took it. He listened for a time, making faces at Harkness.

‘Thank you,’ he said, ‘I’ll tell him,’ and put the phone down.

Harkness knew but wanted to hear it.

‘The head man sends all congratulations. He’s impressed with you. He’ll be seeing you himself.’

‘Thanks. What about you?’

‘Aye. He was very nice there. The rest of my life’ll be an anti-climax.’

Laidlaw went back to wall-staring. He was wondering how much more energy he had to go on inhabiting the fierceness of the contradictions in his life. He would go back home tomorrow — he looked at his watch — today. The forebodings in that thought of some kind of imminent disaster oppressed him.

‘John Rhodes,’ he said.

Harkness stopped and looked up.

‘Who set the boy up, you mean?’

‘Must have been.’

‘I’ve been thinking that. And tipped us off about Minty McGregor. To lead us away.’

‘It fits him. He believes in the man to man thing. An eye for an eye and a son for a daughter. Jehovah Rhodes. Well, there’ll be other times with him.’

‘You feel up to them?’

‘I wasn’t thinking in those terms. But if it came to that, all right.’

‘I thought you didn’t fancy yourself as a hard man?’

‘I don’t. But I don’t really fancy anyone else as one either. I hate violence so much I don’t intend to let anybody practise it on me with impunity. If it came to the bit, he’d win the first time all right. But I’d win the second time, if there was enough of me left to have one. No question about that. I’d arrange it that way. I don’t have fights. I have wars.’

To Harkness it seemed unnecessarily gloomy to be talking about next times before they had even savoured this one.

‘It’s a good feeling, though,’ he said. ‘A crime solved.’

Laidlaw lit another cigarette.

‘You don’t solve crimes,’ he said. ‘You inter them in facts, don’t you?’

‘How do you mean?’

‘A crime you’re trying to solve is a temporary mystery. Solved, it’s permanent. What can the courts do with this then? Who knows what it is? It’s maybe just another love story.’

‘What? I’d like to hear somebody trying to tell you that if you were the girl’s father.’

‘No way, I agree. I’m sure I’d be in the Bud Lawson stakes if it happened to one of my girls. But that wouldn’t make it right. I’m never very clear exactly what the law’s for. But that’s one thing it can do — it can protect the relatives of the victim from atavism. It can pull the knot on all those primitive impulses by taking over responsibility for them. Until we get them into balance again.’

‘It’s still a long way from a love story.’

‘I don’t know. It’s maybe Romeo and Juliet upside down. I mean she really fancied him. And he loved her. He said it himself. And I suppose her father tried to love her the way he could. And poor old Harry Rayburn loved him. And his mother.’

‘You really believe that?’

‘I don’t know. But what I do know is that more folk than two were present at that murder. And what charges do you bring against the others? Against Bud Lawson. He’s made a clenched fist of his head all his life. Sadie Lawson’s more submissive than the world can afford anybody to be. John Rhodes. Because he’s very handy, he’s going to play at Nero with a boy’s life. Who the hell does he think he is? I don’t care that he could beat everybody eight days a week. Then there’s you with your deodorised attitudes. And me. Hiding in suburbia. What’s so clever about any of us that we can afford to be flip about other people? We only get our lives on tick for so long. Every so often it’s got to be divvied up. Jennifer Lawson and Tommy Bryson were the ones that had to foot most of the bill. I mean — what happened in that park?’

Harkness exhaled slowly.

‘But,’ he said. ‘Take it far enough and it’s all just an act of God.’

‘So maybe we should find out where He is and book Him.’

Laidlaw stood up.

‘I think I’ll go up and see that boy,’ he said. ‘Maybe he needs to talk to somebody. You get the headstone typed out in holy triplicate.’

Harkness sat staring ahead after Laidlaw had gone out. In the bleakness he felt, one thought sustained him like a raft. He would be in The Muscular Arms tonight.

He lifted the sheet of paper they had taken from Tommy Bryson’s pocket. It was a page of writing which had been almost entirely scored out with great care. Holding it against the light, he tried to make out some of it. It was virtually impossible but, speculating on the fragments of letters he could see, he thought he deciphered ‘I think she thought she knew who I was.’ But you couldn’t be sure. All that was clearly left of whatever he had written was one small statement near the bottom: ‘I tried to love her.’

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