Play dead

TWENTY-TWO

Byrne stood on the corner of Twentieth and Market Streets.

As the lunchtime crowd flowed around him, he glanced at his phone. He had turned it off. He wasn't supposed to do this, but he had half a day off, and he was going to take it. He could still think, even when he was off duty, couldn't he? On the other hand, he couldn't recall ever feeling completely off duty, not in the past fifteen years. He once took a week in the Poconos, and found himself mulling over his caseload while sitting in a creaky Adirondack chair, sipping Old Forester out of a jelly jar. Such was the life.

His mind drifted from Caitlin O'Riordan to Laura Somerville to Eve Galvez.

Eve.

Somehow he had always known what happened to her. He hadn't imagined such a gruesome fate, but he had known it was bad. He had always hoped that he was wrong. He knew that they were He felt a hand on his arm.

Byrne spun, his heart in his throat. It was his daughter, Colleen.

"Hey, Dad," she signed.

"Hey."

His daughter hugged him, and the world broke out in roses.

They walked down Market Street, toward the Schuylkill. The sun was high and hot. The lunchtime crowd streamed by.

"You look so good," she signed. "Like, really good."

Colleen Siobhan Byrne had been deaf since birth, proficient at American Sign Language since the age of seven. These days she taught it part-time at an inner-city school. Her father was pretty good at it too.

"I'm getting there," Byrne said. It had been a slow climb back since he had been shot three years earlier. He had realized this past spring, on a damp morning when everything, including his eyebrows and ankles and tongue hurt like hell, that he had to do something. He'd had a man-in-the-mirror talk with himself. He knew that if he didn't make a move, at this age, he never would. He was even considering a yoga class, although he would never tell anyone. Even his daughter. He'd even gone so far as to pick up a yoga DVD, and had tried a few of the breathing exercises. He had also been working with weights twice a week, too. Anything to stay out of physical therapy.

"Have you been working out?" she asked.

"A little," Byrne signed.

"A little?" She grabbed his upper left arm, squeezed. "Don't get too buff on me, Dad," she signed. "All my girlfriends think you're pretty cute as it is."

Byrne blushed. No one could get to him like his daughter.

Colleen looped her arm through his.

At Twenty-first, a pair of spike-haired boys approached them, boys around seventeen, both wearing torn jeans, black T-shirts bearing some death message. They both leered at Colleen in her white sundress, at Byrne's signing, then back to Colleen. They nudged each other, as if to say that the fact that this hot blond was deaf made her even hotter. The boys smiled at his daughter. Byrne wanted to drop them where they stood. He resisted.

When they stopped, waiting for the light on Twenty-second Street, Byrne knew it was time to ask. He got his daughter's attention.

"So," he began. "What's this all about?"

Two days earlier, Donna Sullivan Byrne, Kevin Byrne's ex-wife, Colleen's mother, had called out of the blue. She said she wanted to see him, to have lunch. Just like that. Lunch. It was nearly an alien construct for the two of them.

They hadn't really had lunch since they were courting. Their divorce had been reasonably amicable-if you considered the Crimean War amicable-but they had tolerated seeing each other over the years for Colleen. The other day, on the phone, Donna had seemed kind of like the old Donna. Flirtatious and happy. Happy to talk to him. It didn't take the world's greatest detective to know that something was up. Byrne just didn't have a clue what it could be.

Of course, he hadn't slept more than two hours in a row thinking about this.

"I swear I don't know," Colleen signed on the tail of a mysterious smile.

She stopped at a metal box of newspapers, one of a half dozen, and picked up a copy of The Report, the sleaziest free weekly in Philly, which was saying something. Even for free it was grossly overpriced. Byrne winced. Colleen laughed. She knew her father's history with the paper. As they walked on, Colleen flipped to page three, halved it, like she knew where she was going. She did. She pointed to the picture of Caitlin O'Riordan.

"This is your case, isn't it?" she signed.

Byrne hated to talk about the ugliness of his job with Colleen, but he had to constantly remind himself of late that she was no longer a child. Far from it. She would be in college before he knew it.

He nodded.

"The girl was a runaway?"

"Yes," Byrne signed. "She was from Lancaster."

Colleen looked at the article for a few moments, then folded the paper and put it into her tote bag.

Byrne thought about how blessed he was, how bright, and capable and resourceful his daughter was. He then thought of Robert O'Rior- dan, and the four months of hell through which the man had lived. Byrne had no idea if they were ever going to close the O'Riordan case. About this Kevin Byrne had a number of hopes, as well.

When they reached the building, Byrne looked at his daughter, she at him. He must have looked exactly the way he felt.

Colleen rolled her eyes, swatted him on the arm. "You are such a baby."

Byrne silently agreed and held open the door.

Byrne and Colleen were seated at a table at Bistro St. Tropez, near the windows overlooking the Schuylkill River. The sun had come out again, and the water sparkled. They sat without conversing for a while, just enjoying their nearness.

Soon a shadow crossed the table. Byrne looked up. A woman stood next to their table, a butterscotch blond with a slender figure and a beautiful smile. She wore a pale-lemon linen suit.

The woman was his ex-wife, the love of his life. Byrne stood. Donna kissed him on the cheek. She thumbed off her lipstick-an old endearment-and his legs wobbled.

Big city cop, Byrne thought. Real tough guy. He'd been shot, stabbed, and punched more times than he could count. The slightest touch of his wife's thumb and he was down for the count.

They sipped their waters, glanced around at the well-dressed clientele, made their small talk. They perused the menus. Okay, Byrne did. It seemed Donna and Colleen had been here before, and knew what they wanted long before he did. They both ordered salads-one Poulet Moroccan, one Belle Mer-and Byrne ordered the Burger St. Tropez.

No one was surprised.

While they waited for their food, Byrne tried to keep up with the gossip, but he was really lost in a fog. Donna Sullivan was still the most beautiful and vibrant woman he had ever met. From the moment he first laid eyes on her next to a 7-Eleven, when they were both teenagers, he had always been in her thrall. He'd had many affairs since the divorce, had even thought he felt the real thing a few times, but his heart still stuttered every time they met.

Donna had worked as a real-estate agent for the past five years, but had recently joined a small interior design firm. She had always been creative, had taken design courses in college, but had never found the proper outlet. Now, it seemed, she had.

The lunch hour passed far too quickly. At least a dozen times as they ate and talked and laughed, Byrne thought, I'm with my wife and daughter. I'm actually sitting in a restaurant with the two girls who actually mean something to me on this planet.

Okay, two of the three. Jessica would kill him.

At just before two o'clock Donna glanced at her watch. She grabbed the check. Byrne objected, but just a little. She made a lot more than he did.

She signed, the leatherette notebook was whisked away, they finished their coffees. She then reached into her bag, pulled out a photo, showed it to Byrne.

"We're redoing a house in Bryn Mawr. They want us to reuphol- ster this couch. Isn't it fabulous?"

Byrne looked at the picture. It was an antique red velvet backless couch, with one end raised. He had no idea how anyone could actually sit on it. "Where's Cate Blanchett?"

Colleen laughed, signed, "You are so hip, Dad."

"It's called a fainting couch," Donna said. "I think they paid about fourteen thousand dollars for it."

"I understand the fainting part, then."

"Look, I have to go check out some fabrics for it," Donna said as they were getting ready to leave. "It's just upstairs. Why don't you come up with us? It will be fun."

Fabrics. Fun.

"You know, as much as I would love to do this-you know me and fabrics-I really have to get back," he said.

Byrne made eye contact with Colleen. Colleen's eyes said that she knew he was talking about the Caitlin O'Riordan case. She gave a slight nod, meaning it was okay. She could not only read his lips like an expert, she could read his heart.

Byrne immediately felt bad about taking the rest of the day off. He'd head back to the Roundhouse from here. Either that or lie to his daughter. It was no contest.

"Oh all right, macho man," Donna said. They left the bistro, stood in the fourth floor hallway, waiting for the elevator. Then, completely out of the blue, Donna kissed him. Not on the cheek. Not a two-peck Euro style kiss. It was a full-blown, let's-get-a-room-sailor French kiss, the first in years. Many years. Donna pulled back, looked deep into his eyes. Kevin Byrne tumbled, teetered on the edge of saying something stupid, caught himself, then said it anyway.

"Yeah. Well. I didn't feel a thing," he said. "You?"

Donna shrugged. "I think one toe may have curled just a little, but that's about it."

They both laughed.

"We'll walk you down," she said.

Byrne, still reeling, watched his ex-wife and daughter step into the elevator ahead of him. They were the same height now. They looked so much alike that his heart ached. From behind, they were almost indistinguishable. Two women.

In the lobby, Colleen took out her digital camera, took a picture of Byrne and Donna.

Byrne hugged them both again, made his good-byes. Donna walked toward the elevators, cell phone out. Colleen lingered for a moment.

Byrne pushed through the huge doors, into the bright afternoon sun. He took out his handkerchief, wiped his lips. Donna's lipstick glanced seductively back. For some reason he stopped, turned. Colleen was watching him. She was perfectly framed in the lobby's square front window. She smiled her melancholy, teenage smile, held up her hand.

I love you, Dad, she signed.

Byrne's heart flew.