Chapter 17

Detective Wakefield called a private emergency meeting five hours after Mary's interview with Holly Lind-strom. Present in the first-floor room of the Minneapolis Police Department were Wakefield, Mary, Anthony, and Gillian.

"What's your opinion?" Wakefield asked the two FBI agents. He was popping antacid tablets and clutching a stained coffee mug that said wishin* i was fishin'. "Do you think this wacko who kidnapped the Lindstrom girl is the same guy who's killing women and cutting out their eyeballs?"

"Without more evidence," Anthony said, "we have nothing to tie them together."

"You're profilers. You were called in because we don't have enough evidence. Can't you just come out and say what you think? That's why I wanted only the four of us here. This is completely off the record, but I have to know what you're really thinking, and I have to know it now. Not tomorrow. Not in a week or ten days, or whenever the hell you can get those guys at Quantico to sign off on another profile. Let's quit beating around the bush about this. Let's cut through that FBI red tape and tell me what you think."

Mary looked at Anthony. To anyone else his expression may not have seemed to change, but Mary understood he was agreeing to go against protocol. She turned back to Wakefield. "Off the record," she said, "we think it's the same guy."

Wakefield let out a deep breath. "Thank you. That's all I wanted to know. Now let's proceed. We've got people out combing the woods where the Lindstrom girl was picked up. They found some footprints they're making casts of as we speak. They've also found some strands of hair caught on branches. But so far no torn clothing and no tire tracks."

"Holly said he took photos of her." Mary sat down in an unforgiving plastic chair. Anthony stood nearby, a hip against the window ledge, feet crossed at the ankles. "I doubt he'd want to take his film in to get it developed, which means he's probably processing it himself."

"Sebastian Tate's taking darkroom classes," Gillian offered, contributing for the first time.

Wakefield took a sip of coffee, then grimaced as if he knew it was going to hurt when it hit his stomach. "Tate's still on the suspect list. With the earlier profile we've been able to narrow the names down to roughly twenty. Have detectives out interviewing all twenty right now."

"We can't concentrate exclusively on the list," Mary said. "The killer might not be on it. I think we need to broaden the net."

"I agree," Anthony said.

Wakefield let out a groan. "You know how many people are into photography in the Twin Cities area? How many people have their own darkroom? We'll have Research go through data from places that sell darkroom equipment, but there are probably thousands. Still," he added reluctantly, "at this point, the photography angle seems to be all we got."

"Anthony and I have discussed this, and our opinion is that he'll try to come after Holly," Mary said. "She represents the one who got away. Not only physically but romantically as well."

"That's my feeling too," Wakefield agreed. "He's going to be pissed off. This girl has to be watched. She has to.be protected."

"Have you explained the danger she's in?" Anthony asked.

"I thought I'd give her until this afternoon to equalize, then hit her with the bad news. Unfair as hell, but there it is. She's a target."

"Right now it looks as if our best chance of catching the killer is Holly Lindstrom," Mary said. "But the problem I foresee is high visibility. He's not going to try anything if he knows he's being watched."

"What we need is somebody who isn't so visible," Gillian said with enthusiasm. Until that point she'd been basically ignored. "I want to propose an idea. What if I move in with the Lindstroms?" Anticipating protests, she held up her hands. "Hear me out. What if I move in with them and go to school with Holly? Spend every second with her? That way she'd be better protected," Gillian reasoned. The plan appeared to be taking shape as she spoke. "And by being with her at all times, I would see everybody she sees throughout the entire day. We could say I'm a cousin or something. Somebody who is maybe having trouble at home and could use a change of scene while also keeping Holly company."

"You mean work undercover?" Mary asked skeptically. She suspected Gillian's proposal was based on the desire to put an idea, any idea, on the table. "Pose as a high school student?"

"Why not? People always think I'm younger than I am. A little change in wardrobe, hair, and makeup, and I could pass for seventeen."

Mary's heart pounded in alarm at the thought of her sister exposing herself to the Lucia Killer. Gillian was a master at getting her way, and Mary hadn't missed the father-daughter relationship between her sister and Wakefield. In one more minute he would be agreeing to the scheme. "A visiting relative might raise the killer's suspicion," Mary said, hoping to effectively halt the direction of the conversation before it began.

"Possible benefits could certainly outweigh the risks of a blown cover," Anthony interjected. "The idea is sound."

Why was he siding with Gillian? Mary wondered. "Even if we consider it, I don't think the visiting teenybopper should be Gillian."

Had Anthony forgotten about Gavin? If the kidnapper was Gavin Hitchcock, what good would Gillian's presence do? And if he wasn't Gavin-well, she didn't think her sister had worked in the field long enough to carry out such a deceptive and dangerous operation.

She got to her feet and grabbed Gillian by the arm. "Can I speak with you in the hallway?"

Once out of earshot of Anthony and Wakefield, Mary said what she had to say. "It's a bad idea. Period."

"I knew you'd be against it," Gillian said, clearly annoyed. "You know what your problem is? You'll never think of me as an adult. No matter how old I get, I will always be your silly little sister. When I'm ninety and you're ninety-three, you'll think of me as the kid who used to follow you around, who used to do everything you said. Well, I no longer operate on blind faith."

"I'd say that's all you operate on. At the moment you're working under the assumption that the killer isn't Gavin Hitchcock."

Gillian gave her a surprised look. "You're working under the assumption that it is."

"You won't be exactly undercover if it is Gavin."

"It's not Gavin. Get him out of your head."

This was how all of their arguments used to start, with Gillian jumping on whatever Mary said as soon as she said it. Until today, Mary had been impressed with Gillian's work. Now she could see she was showing a grave lack of experience.

"How in the hell did you get a job with the BCA?" Mary asked, fighting a rising tide of panic. What her sister was proposing was dangerous. She wasn't going to stand by and let Gillian get herself killed.

"You're too jaded," Gillian retorted. "I have an idea. Why don't we go back in there and you pretend you don't even know me? Then maybe you might treat me with some respect."

"Gillian, it's dangerous," Mary said, her every nerve screaming.

"And your job isn't?"

"You fit the victimology."

"Are you pretending to be worried about me?" Gillian asked in sarcastic disbelief. "Give me a break! I'm not that naive."

"This isn't a game!" Mary said. "Young women are being murdered."

"Stop treating me like a child! I know women are being murdered. Why do you think I want to be a part of this?"

"Maybe because you have some misplaced notion that it's romantic? So you can be a hero? Or does it have some deeper meaning? Is it possible you're subconsciously trying to right something that happened years ago? Subconsciously trying to save another girl,, a different girl?"

"What are you getting at?"

"Fiona's dead. Nothing you do now can ever change that."

"I think you've got the Cantrell sisters mixed up. Mary's the one suffering from post-traumatic stress, not me."

Why had she ever thought Gillian would feel bad about Fiona's death? Mary wondered bleakly.

"I'm perfect for the job," Gillian said. "Why can't you admit it?"

"I want you to know that I completely disapprove of your idea."

"I'm not asking for your approval."

There had been a time when Mary's approval had meant everything to Gillian, but that had been years ago.

Gillian lifted her chin, her nose high.

"The princess is in a snit," their grandfather would have said.

Mary stared, suddenly having trouble separating the old Gillian from the new. But then, maybe the two weren't so different. "If Wakefield gives you the go-ahead," Mary said, knowing fighting was useless, "I don't think you'll have any trouble passing for seventeen."

"Does that nasty comment mean I have your reluctant vote?"

"You won't get even that much from me."


It was happening again.

The sensation came over Gavin like a tidal wave, knocking him to the floor, kneecaps meeting solid wood, jarring him all the way to his fillings.

Talk yourself out of it. You can talk yourself out of it.

Crippling poison rushed through his artedes, pushing out to his extremities, curling his fingers and toes, locking them.

Don't let it get you. Don't let it control you.

He was weak, so weak, and it was so strong. Getting stronger every day.

I'm scared.

Don't be scared, sweetie. It won't hurt you. If you can't beat it, then relax and let it take you. Let it take you away. Grandma will hold you. Grandma will be here for you.

Grandma, grandma. Grand mal, grand mal.

He couldn't win.

It overtook him, tightening his muscles until it seemed like his bones would snap.

Somehow he managed to twist his head enough to look at the clock above the sink. 6:45 p.m.

When he was little, the seizures never lasted over thirty seconds. Now they went on for much longer. Writhing, he managed to grab the dish towel from the refrigerator handle. He jammed it in his mouth before losing control…

The return to consciousness was slow and seductive. Bones and muscles that had been stretched to the limit were now weak and limp as a newborn's. The feeling wasn't unpleasant-druggy, like a heroin high. He drifted, enjoying the sensation, the lack of pain. He finally managed to open his eyes long enough to read the clock. 7:05.

What time had it been before he blacked out? 6:45? Could that be right? That meant he'd lost… He tried to figure it out, but he'd always been bad at math. Arid his head was so fucked up and fuzzy.

Almost twenty minutes. He'd lost almost twenty minutes.

His attacks were getting more frequent, and he was noticing that afterward it was getting harder and harder to remember what he'd been doing when they started.

He heard a sound and held his breath. Lying on his back on the floor, he listened.

Knocking.

Nobody ever knocked on his door, not even people trying to sell things.

He pulled the towel from his mouth and rolled to his knees. With trembling muscles, he shoved himself to his feet. He looked down to see if he was dressed. Jeans. No shirt. Barefoot. He ran a hand over his face. His fingers came away stained with blood.

Bloody nose.

Knock, knock, knock.

Whoever was out there was persistent. Why did people always knock three times? He never knocked three times.

At the sink, he washed his face, then dried it with the kitchen towel he'd dropped on the floor. On weak legs, he went to the door.

It was Gillian.

He was suddenly aware of how shitty he looked. He needed to shave, and he wished he'd put on a shirt before answering. But how could he have known Gillian would be there? She'd come to his house only once, right after he got out of prison. She'd brought him a basket of fruit and cheese-along with some white flowers, because she knew he liked flowers. He and his grandmother used to plant them together.

"Hi, Gavin." She was looking as sweet as ever. "Can I come in?"

"Oh. Yeah." He opened the door wide and stepped back. After she was inside and the door was closed, he started moving around the living room, picking up dirty clothes and empty food wrappers. "I wish I'd known you were coming," he said, unable to make eye contact, ashamed of the way his house looked, the way he looked.

"You don't have to straighten up for me," she said, taking a seat on the couch.

Right beside her lay a girlie magazine. He swooped down and grabbed it, turning it over on the table he'd made from a door. On the back of the magazine was a garish ad for a phone sex line. He grabbed the magazine again, dropped it to the floor, and shoved it under the couch with his bare foot. "Can I get you something to drink?" he asked, wondering if he had anything other than beer. But then, maybe she'd want a beer. That would be nice, if they drank a beer together.

"No, thanks." She smiled up at him.

Most people were either afraid of him or suspicious of him. Gillian was the only person he knew who looked at him in a completely open way that seemed to mean she was genuinely glad to see him.

"I came to tell you that I'm going to be out of town for a while."

"For your job?"

"I can't go into any detail about it. I just wanted you to know in case you stopped by my place."

"What about your bird?"

"My mother's going to take care of him-are you feeling okay?"

He scratched his head and pretended to yawn. "I was asleep when you knocked." He hadn't told her about the recent attacks. She knew about his epilepsy. She was one of the first people he ever told. But he didn't want her to know it had gotten worse since getting out of prison. He had enough things to be ashamed of.

"Since I'm going to be gone, I wanted to give you my mobile phone number in case you need to get in touch with me. I won't have my phone on much, but I'll check it once or twice a day so you can leave a message on my voice mail and I'll call you back when I can. I'll also leave my pager number."

She was going undercover. "This is about the Lucia Killer, isn't it?" he asked, his heart beginning to thunder. He could feel it in his chest and in his head.

"I can't tell you what I'm doing."

That's what it was.

"Don't go. Don't do it."

"I've already made plans. Don't worry. It won't be any big deal."

When he was little, his grandmother used to tell him that the seizures brought him closer to God. Sometimes when he came back she'd say, "How was your visit with God, sweet pea?"

Now that his seizures were more severe, he figured he spent a lot more time with God, a lot more time letting him whisper in his ear. But was it really God?

His seizure seemed to have opened a direct path to Gillian's brain, and he suddenly felt as if she were made of transparent glass. He could see through her skull to the gray matter beneath. On a threadlike rope were sentences that exposed her to him. It was her slanted handwriting, written in little snippets of information.

I'll be working on the murder case.

Something secret.

Something I can't tell.

I love you.

What?

He stared at her brain.I love you. That's what it said.

He continued to stare at the lettering, wishing he could save it somehow. As he stared, she continued to talk as she dug into her purse and pulled out a piece of paper and a pencil. She jotted something down, then pushed the paper across the door table. He saw her mouth move, saw her smile up at him.

She got to her feet.

I love you.

Why hadn't she ever told him how she felt about him? Why had she been hiding it, playing this game?

I wanted you to discover it for yourself.

Had she spoken those words out loud? Yes. He was sure she had. And now his heart was singing with happiness.

At last certain of her feelings for him, he stepped forward and boldly grabbed her by both arms. He pulled her to him and pressed his mouth to hers. Her lips blossomed under his, all soft and welcoming and warm. He pushed her backward on the couch and fell on top of her, his mouth never leaving hers. He released her arm to shove a hand up her shirt, immediately working his way under her bra, her breast filling his hand.

He breathed in her intoxicating scent, his head full of her, his blood pounding, roaring through his veins. I love you, I love you!

He felt her hands on his back, pulling him close, tugging at him, pushing slapping, shoving, shoving, shoving- He broke away in surprise.

"What the hell are you doing?" she screamed.

Stunned, he jumped to his feet, away from her.

She was lying on the couch, her shirt twisted under her armpits, her bra above one breast, her eyes large and angry and frightened.

"I thought, I didn't mean-"

She sat up, dropping her blouse to cover her nakedness.

"Gillian, don't be afraid of me. Please don't be afraid of me. You're the only friend I have. Please-"

"This is how you treat your friends? You try to rape them?"

Rape? "No." He raised an imploring hand to her. "No-"

"If it is, then fuck you, Gavin Hitchcock. Fuck you."

He heard the front door slam shutand her stomping footsteps, followed by her car squealing away from the curb.

And he realized it hadn't been God whispering in his ear at all-it had been the devil.

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