Take a Chance On Me

Chapter 6 When Will I See You Again?

When Emma entered the clinic Monday morning, she thought she'd strayed into somebody's funeral by mistake.

There were flowers everywhere.

A huge cut-glass vase of roses-at least two dozen flaming red blooms-sat atop the registration counter. On the small table usually reserved for Lyme disease brochures sat a woven basket overflowing with black-eyed Susans. A blue speckled crock of late summer wildflowers sat near the display for engraved dog tags.

Emma stared in amazement. Then fury.

How dare he do this to her?

"There's more in your office, Em." Velvet's dark head popped up over the registration counter, and she was smiling ear to ear. "I read all the cards so I have a general idea what's going on, but I'm still dying to hear the gory details." Velvet sighed dreamily. "This is just about the sweetest thing I've ever seen a man do."

Emma felt her shoulders sag and her spirits sink. In silence, she trudged through the door that led to her office and exam rooms.

"Hey!" Velvet called after her. "Don't you want to see what he wrote, Em?"

"Absolutely not."

"Emma?"

She threw her backpack onto an office chair and clicked on her computer, the anger swelling and burning inside her chest. It was then she noticed the porcelain teapot smack in the middle of her desk, overflowing with carnations and baby's breath, and a matching china plate piled with teas and chocolates.

How dare he?

"Em?"

"Get this stuff out of here, Velvet. Now. Please. Before I blow a gasket." Emma logged on the computer with loud, pounding strikes on the keyboard. She checked her e-mail with her back toward her assistant.

Velvet stopped and frowned. "Hey. You really are mad." She plopped down in the empty office chair. "I'm sorry. I just assumed you'd be happy about this. Maybe we should just get right to the details."

"There are no details, Velvet!" Emma wheeled around in her chair. "The man is sick. An addict. A manipulator. And you'd think, of all the people in the world, you'd be the last person who needed me to spell this out! God! And why he thinks flowers-freaking flowers!-are going to somehow make up for all the shit he's put me through I'll never know! And to think he had the nerve to ask me for money again when this pointless gesture must have cost a fortune! I just want to go on with my life! Is that too much to ask?"

Emma took a big breath. "Is it?"

She let her face drop into her hands and tried to get a grip on herself. She refused to start off the week like this. He had no right to do this to her-no right! The sound of Velvet's laughter caused her to look up.

"Excuse me? Is there something funny about this?"

"Well, yeah." Velvet kept giggling. "It sounds like you two managed to cover quite a lot of ground on your first date."

At that instant, Emma saw the elaborate gift basket full of dog treats directly in her line of vision-chewies, biscuits, Nylabones, rawhide sticks. It was perched on the bookcase below the display of her diplomas, bundled up in fancy clear plastic wrap and tied with a huge red polka dot bow. Her mind was reeling. Velvet's comments made no sense.

"You've completely lost me." Emma picked up the computer printout of the day's appointments and groaned. Sigmund Goetz and Roscoe the blue point Siamese were her first order of business. She was at the bottom of her bag of tricks for that poor old man and his schizophrenic cat and she knew it.

Velvet reached behind her for the small white envelope taped to the dog bones. "Here, Em. Read this. It'll clear things up for you." She forced the card between Emma's closed fingers. "This is my personal favorite, but honestly, the one with the wildflowers made me cry. He's not only gorgeous-he's extremely romantic."

Emma stared blankly. "Whaa?"

"Just read this. Then tell me everything."

Emma opened her palm and stared at the envelope, her name written in an unfamiliar hand-bold, squarish letters that took up a lot of space. She pulled out the card.

Emma,

Even if you throw away all the flowers, I know you'll keep these for your patients. I apologize for my behavior the other night. I'd like to see you again.

Thomas

Her mouth fell open. She took an awkward gulp of air and nearly choked.

Velvet jumped up to pat her back. "Are you all right?"

Emma shook her head. "Hell, no, I'm not all right! Oh, my God-this is so awful!" Emma threw the card on her desk and quickly grabbed the one tucked beneath the china plate.

Emma,

I hope you like chocolate. I opted for every kind of tea they had because I didn't know which you preferred.

Thomas

Emma leaped from her chair and went flying back out into the waiting room, the door thudding in Velvet's face as she stumbled behind her.

"Emma! Wait!"

She went for the wildflowers first because they were closest, and pulled so violently at the dainty white envelope that its plastic prong went flying across the room, sticking in the vinyl window blinds.

Emma,

These reminded me of you-simply beautiful.

Thomas

She lunged for the black-eyed Susans, her heart pounding behind her ribs.

Emma,

You are a lovely and interesting woman and I am an idiot. I hope you like the Marylandstate flower.

Thomas

At that point, Emma began to breathe again. The bundle of cards fell from her limp hand to the floor. She turned toward the registration desk and put one foot in front of the other with the zeal of a woman heading for her own execution.

As her fingers reached inside the explosion of red satin petals, she sucked in the sweet, heavy fragrance and briefly closed her eyes. Her mind went blank. Then she read these words:

E-

I'd like to start over. Just tell me what to do.

Yours, T.

Emma looked up to the fluorescent lights on the ceiling and blinked back the tears now gathering in her eyes. Damn that man! Talk about not fair! She'd had Thomas Tobin all figured out and now what had he done? He'd ruined it! Now she was wondering if he might be for real. Now she was wondering if she had completely lost her mind for wondering that.

"Aaugh!" Emma slammed the card to the floor and shouted, "Holy shit on a stick and goddamn it all to hell! This sucks!"

A deep voice came from behind her.

"Ach nein. I haven't heard talk like that since the war." Mr. Goetz shook his head in disapproval. "Most ladies love to get flowers! Vat's za fuss?"

Oh, how lovely-her first patient of the day! Emma wheeled around to see that Mr. Goetz wore his usual mothball-smelling suit, bow tie, and threadbare fedora, and his eyes were as bright and intelligent as always. His cane leaned up against the pet carrier that housed a hissing and spitting Siamese.

Velvet came to the rescue, stepping between them. "Hey, handsome, you're a few minutes early. Your appointment's not until nine-thirty."

"Ya, I'm early, und you can be sure I'll be early from now on-I never knew what I vas missing." He smiled at the women. "It appears za doctor having man troubles?"

"I apologize for my language, Mr. Goetz." Emma smoothed back her hair and straightened her shoulders. "I've been under a lot of stress lately."

Mr. Goetz shrugged. "Maybe za stress would go avay if you give this poor man another chance. It looks like he's desperate, yes?"

Emma looked hopelessly to Velvet, who grinned and shrugged.

Mr. Goetz added, "Obviously, he'd do anyzing to get you back."

Now, that made Emma perk to attention. "Really? Have you ever sent a woman"-she quickly counted-"six arrangements at one time?"

He seemed offended, and waved his hand in dismissal. "Mein Gott, no! I have my dignity!"

By lunchtime, Emma had selected yet another treatment option for poor miserable Roscoe, handled a new referral for canine obsessive-compulsive behavior, met with a pharmaceutical rep, and counseled a weepy young woman faced with putting down a Rottweiler that had bitten three neighborhood children.

Through it all, her thoughts kept returning to Thomas and his assault on her peace of mind. She couldn't just ignore the flowers. She couldn't just ignore the way he'd plowed into her life. All this force demanded an answer, and she had every intention of giving him one.

Just as soon as she decided what to say.

As Emma picked through the lovely assortment of teas-English breakfast tea, green tea, spiced chai, chamomile, orange pekoe decaf-she wished she could just hate him and get it over with.

As she headed to the lunchroom, she wished Thomas would just crash through the clinic door, grab her by the shoulders, and kiss her senseless.

And as she made eye contact with Velvet, seated at the lunch table waiting to pounce, she wished she'd never laid eyes on the man.

What could she possibly tell Velvet? The truth was she didn't know what to think about Thomas Tobin. She didn't know how to take this display of humor, regret-and yes, thoughtfulness. Did he really want another chance with her, or was this just part of the Thomas Tobin two-step-one tug forward and one push back?

There was one thing she knew with certainty: Thomas was not the right man for her. He had issues-more issues than an annual Newsweek subscription, in fact. She needed to calm herself. The situation called for a clear head and a clear understanding of the facts.

As she heated water for tea, she put together a silent accounting of Thomas Tobin's most significant shortcomings.

For starters, he was obviously lying about what he did for a living, leading her to believe he was engaged in something dangerous, illegal, or top secret-bad news for the woman in his life regardless. And the lying itself was a huge red flag.

Plus, he was too serious. He was afraid to laugh. In fact, Emma doubted the man would recognize joy if it jumped up and took a chunk out of his left butt cheek.

But the ultimate danger sign was that he led her on. He convinced her that he liked her, touched her in a way that turned her patellas to pudding, then turned his back on her.

A man like that was truth in advertising-he'd only bring her more pain. A man like that could not be trusted.

She had no business with a man like that.

She'd just gotten rid of a man like that.

Emma sighed. It was a shame that all these flaws were part of the most divine package of maleness she'd ever seen. A damn shame.

At least the memory of him would stir up her imagination on many a future front-porch night.

But if she were smart-which of course she was-then her imagination would be the only place she'd ever see him again.

The microwave beeped. Her tea water was done. She pulled her chicken salad sandwich from the refrigerator-and waited for Velvet to say something. But her assistant remained uncharacteristically silent, flipping through a magazine, not even looking Emma's way. It was driving her nuts.

Emma began dunking her tea bag-she'd selected the Earl Grey-and counted the seconds until she could bear it no longer.

"Nothing much happened, okay?"

Velvet didn't look up.

"Is this some kind of reverse psychology trash they taught you in graduate school?" Emma picked up her sandwich and mug and went to the table. "Am I supposed to be tortured by your lack of interest and spill my guts to you? Because, really, Velvet, there's not a whole lot to tell." Emma unzipped the sandwich baggy. "He bit me, then told me he wasn't interested in dating me. That's it. That's the whole story."

Velvet slowly raised her eyes, her yogurt spoon poised in mid-air, her dark eyebrows crooked in interest. "Thomas Tobin bit you?"

"Yep."

Velvet blinked. "Biting as in chomping down on your flesh with his teeth? Biting as in the referrals we get?"

Emma chewed her sandwich and nodded pleasantly. "My left earlobe."

"Wow. No kissing first? Just straight to the biting?"

Emma pondered that question as she swallowed. What he'd done prior to the bite couldn't really be classified as a kiss. There was no puckering involved.

"Actually, I think he might have licked me first. Then bit."

Velvet's eyes grew wide. "Specify the body part, please."

"The same general area-right under the earlobe. First the lick. Then the bite. Then the part where he says 'No, thanks-I don't want to date you' and runs to his car. Now that's romance for you, girl."

"Holy shit."

"My sentiment exactly, as you might recall. I know Mr. Goetz always will."

Velvet shoved her chair from the table and walked over to throw her yogurt cup in the trash. Emma sensed Velvet's shock and had to laugh.

When it came to the complexities of the human mating dance, Velvet wasn't often surprised. From what Emma knew about her relationship with Marcus-which was far too much, really-there was no such thing as proper form.

"Let me get this straight, Em." Velvet began pacing in front of the sink. "You asked him out. He licks your throat, bites your ear, and says 'no'?"

"That's correct."

"How many seconds of bodily contact are we talking about here?"

Emma took a sip of tea. "Well, let's see. He stroked my face, sniffed my hair, then he kind of pressed up against me and my knees nearly gave out."

"Go on." Velvet was back in her chair.

"Then the licking and the biting."

"How hard?"

"Hard enough to sting."

"So we're looking at what-fifteen seconds of body contact?"

"About that-but it felt more like an hour."

Velvet looked stunned. "Em, how hot are we talking? I mean, seriously, how hot is this guy?"

"Surface of the sun, Velvet."

"Wow," she whispered. "And what were the exact words he used to turn you down?"

"He said, 'I'm not the man for the job. I'm sorry.'"

Velvet sat back in her chair, her mouth agape, no sound coming out of it. Emma wished she had her camera.

"So what do you think? Do I thank him for the flowers and the Pup-Peroni and start picking out my silver pattern?"

Velvet howled with laughter. "Yeah, right! This guy's a total nut job!" She gripped Emma's wrist, her face pulling into a serious scowl. "I think we should send him to someone else for follow-up, okay? I don't know if it's safe for you to be around him again. He sounds sort of… I don't know… abnormal."

Then Velvet pulled out the big guns: "I bet he even calls his girlfriends 'baby doll' or something equally offensive."

Emma smiled sweetly. "When was the last time I told you you're the wisest employee I have?"

"I'm the only one you have."

Emma continued to smile at Velvet. But she was thinking of Thomas, and the words that came to mind were, What a waste.

Leelee flew in the Wit's End front door about three-thirty, raring to go. She enjoyed her Monday, Wednesday, and Friday afternoon job at the office and loved the five bucks an hour she made doing brainless office stuff. She usually snagged close to forty dollars a week-tax-free-and that was decent money for a twelve-year-old in Maryland currency. Not that there was anywhere great to spend it close by, but she could always save it up for a weekend trip to Towson Town Center, Tyson's Corner, or The Gallery at Baltimore's Inner Harbor.

"Kon'nichiwa, Miki-san!" Beckett yelled, walking in the door behind Leelee.

"Kon'nichiwa, Beckett-san!"

Leelee watched Beck's face light up as he jabbered in Japanese with Velvet, the way he did every time he dropped her off. It was like language lab at school, except that Japanese was way cooler than French.

Velvet and Beck laughed at the end of their exchange and Beck shut the front door, the little bell tinkling as it swayed from the doorknob. "Thanks for humoring me, Velvet."

Velvet smiled heartily at him. "Anytime. Obaasan gives me grief for not speaking it more than I do."

"How's your grandma doing these days?"

Velvet shrugged. "Better. Living with Mom and Dad, making my mom's life a living hell with her need to be cooking constantly."

Beckett gave her a naughty wink. "That's our job as old people, you know. We go to secret classes to learn how to drive the younger generation crazy. I got an A-plus, right, Leelee?"

Leelee wasn't really paying attention. She was staring at the huge vase of roses.

Velvet caught Leelee's eye. "Hey girlie-girl. You up to helping me reorganize the empty office today? We've got some new shelves to put up."

"Sure." There were flowers everywhere, and Leelee's heart was thudding much faster than normal. Her throat and chest tightened. Her thoughts raced back to the last apartment they had in L.A., the one-bedroom with the broken air-conditioning, and her mom's last guy. The guy who sent her flowers all the time. The guy who killed her when he drove off the road.

She'd had so many flowers at her funeral.

"Who died?" Beckett joked, scanning the floral arrangements.

Velvet glanced toward the exam rooms before she whispered, "Some guy sent these to Emma. He likes her, but she isn't sure if she likes him. He's a little off the wall."

One of Beck's white brows arched over a sharp blue eye and then he winked at Leelee. "That'd be par for the course, now wouldn't it?"

"Hey, Pops. Hey, Leelee." Emma came sailing through the hallway door with a chart in her hand and a smile on her face. A lady clutching a mean-looking Chihuahua followed close behind.

"Mrs. Bellafonte will need to stop back in about two weeks from now, all right?" Emma turned to the owner. "It was good to meet you and Pancho. Please call if you have any questions."

Leelee watched the normal things take place in front of her eyes, but the sick twisting in her chest had only gotten worse. Her vision began to swim. It barely registered that Emma had already gone back in her office, that Velvet had handed her a stack of charts to file, and Beckett was on his way home.

As Leelee replaced the charts according to alphabetical order, she wondered about the flower guy. Did he love Emma? Would he break her heart the way Aaron had? Would Emma love this guy more than she could ever love her?

For about the millionth time since she'd been transported to Maryland like a hog to slaughter, Leelee wondered if Emma would have been happier if she'd never come into her life.

She shook her head. She needed to chill. Emma was not like her mom, right? Emma wasn't going to go off half-crazed with lust for some guy she'd just met, like her mom always did. Emma wasn't that kind of woman. Emma was cautious. Emma was safe.

Emma really loved her.

The phone rang, and it jarred Leelee into the land of the living. Velvet was on another line with an owner, and she began gesturing wildly for Leelee to answer the phone.

Leelee picked up. "Wit's End Animal Behavioral Clinic, may I help you?"

"Emma?"

He sounded eager, nervous. "I'm sorry, Dr. Jenkins is on another line." Leelee had no idea why she'd just lied, but she didn't like this man's voice one bit. It was too deep. Too he-man.

"I see."

He sounded disappointed.

"Thank you, Leelee," Velvet's voice chimed in the background. "I've got it now."

Leelee put the caller on hold and stepped slowly away from the phone, feeling her heart sink to her knees.

"I'm afraid Dr. Jenkins will no longer be able to care for Hairy," she said. "We can refer you to the only other behaviorist in the area, a Dr. Aaron Kramer in Annapolis, or to a veterinarian of your choosing."

"Isn't he Emma's ex-husband?" Thomas asked.

If Emma's assistant was surprised he knew about Aaron, she didn't let on. "Yes, he is. Shall I call-"

"I'd prefer to see Emma."

"Really? Well the thing is, Mr. Tobin, Dr. Jenkins doesn't want to see you. Capisce?"

Thomas could hardly believe he was getting the Godfather brush-off from a Japanese-American vet assistant who, from what he recalled, dressed like a Spice Girl.

"Ms. Miki, isn't it?"

"Yes."

"Did Emma get the deliveries this morning?"

She snickered. "Sure did. The dog treats were an original touch. I was impressed."

"Thank you. But I take it Emma didn't feel the same way?"

"Oh, she liked the treats well enough-just not the treatment."

Thomas closed his eyes and sighed. Velvet Miki was apparently Emma's bodyguard as well as employee, and she had the protective instincts of a junkyard pit bull. His chances of getting by her appeared slim.

"Hey, Velvet, do you think you might be able to help me out here? All I want to do is apologize in person. Talk to Emma. I know I screwed up. I… I'm not all that smooth with women."

She laughed. "You don't say?"

"Look-"

"Actually, I think I can help you, Mr. Tobin." Velvet's voice seemed quite cheerful. "My suggestion would be that with your next victim, try to work up to the Count Dracula thing instead of springing it on a girl right off."

Thomas had a bad feeling about where this conversation was headed, and swallowed hard. "I'm not sure I understand."

"You chomped down on Emma's ear, then hit the road! I think it might have been a bit disconcerting for her. What do you think?"

Thomas winced.

"She's a sweet woman who's had a rough time lately. She deserves better-in fact, she deserves the very best there is-in men and in life."

"Yes, she does."

Thomas knew he must sound like the idiot he was, but everything Velvet said was true. Emma did deserve the best, and he was well aware that he fell short of that mark. "Just tell her I called. Would you do that?"

Velvet was quiet for a moment, then said, "Yeah. I can do that."

Thomas thought he detected a trace of regret in her voice.

He couldn't stand it another nanosecond. Thomas flipped the sheet off his legs, gingerly sat up on the edge of the bed and heaved himself to a stand.

By the time he got downstairs and ripped the pillowcase off the dog crate, the ungodly noise had ceased.

"Listen up, pal. You're disturbing the peace. I'm tired. And if you don't shut the fuck up I won't be held accountable for my actions. Got it?"

I'm so lonely, Big Alpha. So cold and afraid. I need to be close to someone warm, feel their touch. Take me with you! Get me out of here!

Thomas replaced the pillowcase and began to walk away when the racket started up again. It was a high-pitched keening sound, like the screams from miniature demons from hell interspersed with those little "yips!" that felt like knitting needles being rammed into his ear canals.

I'm going to die if I have to be alone one more night! Please!

"God!" Thomas turned on his heels, threw the pillowcase across the room, and opened the latch. He reached in for Hairy and crammed him into the crook of his arm as he staggered back up the stairs to his bedroom.

"Here. Lie down right here and shut your damn yap." He dropped Hairy to the rug next to his bed. "I'll be up here."

Thomas returned to the bliss of lying flat, pulled the sheet over his legs, and closed his eyes.

This was not working out.

Sure, Hairy was getting better, but the weirdness factor was just too damn high for him to take much longer. Thomas had hit the wall earlier that evening, when he'd found Hairy snuggling up with a pair of his boxer shorts.

Apparently, none of the goddamn squeaky toys did a thing for Hairy. None of the fuzzy little beanbag things, either. None of the chewy rings or the bumpy rubber balls seemed to float his boat.

So what did Hairy want? He wanted Thomas's boxer shorts-the white pair stamped with purple and black Ravens football team logos. He carried them in his mouth all over the house. He buried them under the couch. He slept on top of them. He wadded them up and pounced on them.

Thomas eventually tricked Hairy into giving up the damn things. He threw them in the bathroom laundry hamper and shut the closet door, thinking that would be the end of that. But Hairy sat down in front of the door and pined for them, whining and pacing and making pitiful noises that Thomas just couldn't take.

Thomas lay on his back now, staring at the dark ceiling, groaning. All right, so be caved-he gave the dog the shorts. But damn! At least he'd washed them first. There were some things that were just too strange to allow to happen in this world.

Thomas felt himself grin in the dark, remembering how the little mutant sat patiently in front of the washer, then the dryer, his tail wagging. He'd given the boxers back to the dog only after he'd tied them in knots. He figured that if anyone happened to see them hanging from Hairy's mouth, they wouldn't immediately see that the dog had an abnormal attachment to a pair of underwear.

Jesus God, the dog was weird.

Thomas rubbed his face with his hands and tried to go back to sleep. But not two blissful minutes had passed before he felt the dainty impact of dog paws on the mattress, then the pinch of little feet going up his shin, to his thigh, to his bare stomach, then to his chest. Thomas kept his fists clenched at his sides, fighting the urge to fling the six-pound pain in the ass across the room.

At that point, the circling began-tight and fast little spins that went on and on until Hairy apparently thought he'd rearranged Thomas's chest hair to perfection.

Hairy plopped down with a sigh, dropping the pair of boxers next to Thomas's head. The dog curled up and managed to bury his pointy snout in the cozy hollow beneath Thomas's chin.

Thomas lay perfectly still. He tried to relax his fists and breathe normally. He felt the dog's warm skin against his own and looked down his nose to watch the dog's shock of white Billy Idol hair rise and fall with each of his own breaths.

This was plenty weird, Thomas realized, but not in a completely bad way. Just odd. Unusual. But not utterly awful. He tried to ignore the fact that he had an ugly dog sleeping on top of him and closed his eyes.

And before he knew it, he was having The Dream again. But this time it was more than a simple rehashing of the most miserable day of his life. This time, it was worse.

As usual, Rollo sat across the desk from them in his white coat with the black embroidery on the pocket-RolloPhelps, M.D., ChesapeakeUrologyCenter. He was using the same words he always did: injury; motility; rupture; antibodies; infertility.

Rollo spewed out the usual numbers. A normal man has twenty-five to fifty million sperm per milliliter-and Thomas had one million. About half of a normal man's sperm are damaged or deformed in some way-for Thomas, it was ninety percent. And about fifty percent of a normal man's sperm have the horsepower to make the long journey toward an egg-but it was only one percent for Thomas.

And then Rollo reviewed all the options available to them-steroid treatments, in-vitro fertilization, some kind of new sperm injection technology.

But at this point in the dream, things veered off into a completely new direction. Thomas turned to watch Nina rise from her chair and give the speech she always gave at this juncture-"You've never been overly interested in getting married and having a family, and now it appears you couldn't have children if you wanted to. I'm taking this as a sign. It's over."

But this time it wasn't Nina giving the speech.

It was Emma.

This time, a dark, curly head didn't turn to give him that look of pity and reproach-it came with a flip of a mahogany braid.

The eyes weren't dark brown-they were powder blue. It wasn't Nina's voice he heard say "I'm not wasting one more minute of my life with you." It was Emma's voice.

The door shut behind her with finality. Then Rollo said, as he always did at this point, "God, Thomas. I'm so sorry."

Thomas turned to face his friend. But Rollo wasn't Rollo anymore, and the black embroidered pocket of the doctor's coat now read Punk-Ass Stock Boy, CVS, and the kid smirked at him, then busted a gut laughing and said, "Girlfriend? In your dreams, sucker!"

At this point, Thomas began to surface from the bizarre dream world to a waking state, pulled along by the most outrageously delicious physical sensation he'd ever experienced. Emma-sweet, soft, sexy, unbearably female Emma-was nibbling on his unshaven face, giving little fleabites to the tiny hairs growing along his jaw, moving to the stubble on his upper lip, heading toward his mouth for what promised to be a hot, passionate kiss…

Thomas woke with a shout, staring into the bug-eyes of the mutant.

Whoa, relax, Big Alpha! We need to get you together with Soft Hands-and soon.

Hairy yawned.

I slept great. How about you?

Aaron hated to admit it, but he had the hands of a killer. In the light from the motel reading lamp, he could see scratches from where Slick had fought him like a wildcat-using his nails and teeth and kicking and spitting, the little son of a bitch!

The wounds were mostly healed, but Aaron could see faint lines of new pink skin, and it spooked him.

The whole business of killing had made him sick. And now he was going to have to do it again.

Aaron sighed and let his gaze travel around Room 4 of the King of Hearts Motor Court. He'd relocated here and closed the clinic indefinitely to avoid another unpleasant encounter with the Ugly One. He'd had to fire the office girl because he had no money to keep her-he certainly couldn't pay her with the credit card of dubious origin he'd used at check-in, could he?

He took a swig of whiskey and shuddered. Aaron had only started drinking this week and thought the stuff tasted like piss. But he sure loved the effect. There was a time when he'd been proud that he'd managed to dodge the alcohol bullet, but it just didn't matter anymore. Nothing did.

Well, hell. He might be backed up against a wall, but he wasn't an idiot. He knew the secret was to keep the blood off his hands, so this time he planned to be far away- Atlantic City maybe-making sure lots of people saw him.

With one last swallow for the road, Aaron left his motel room. He drove a half-hour to some rotten neighborhood, stopped at the first pay phone he saw, and called the number the prostitute had given him. Some guy named Tom.

He got his voice mail. Even hit men had voice mail.