The Dance of Reality: A Psychomagical Autobiography

Index

All page number are refer to the print edition of this title.

Page numbers in italics indicate photos.

Aldunate, Lora (magic mirror owner), 238

Almagro, Diego de, 33–34

anti-Semitism, 46–47, 52

Arrabal, Fernando, 164, 189

Bachelard, Gaston (philosopher), 243

Benoit, Jean (sculptor), 243

Bernardo (cousin), 89–90

Breton, André, 172–73, 200, 243–44

Canseliet, Eugène, 214

Carrot Clown, 146, 147, 149, 150

Castaneda, Carlos, 262–65

Cereceda, Carmen, 90

Cereceda, Veronica, 90–93

charlatans, 293–302, 316

Chevalier, Maurice, 177–78

childhood in Tocopilla, 1–31

booger elephant created, 22–23

charity discovered, 7–8

consciousness imagined in all things, 12

death wondered about, 23–27

disappearance by magic, 31–32

holes in his socks, 28

learning to read early, 2

lion cub, 3, 4, 146

loneliness suffered, 19–21

long hair cut off, 27–28, plate 2

love of theater fostered, 130–36

mocked by classmates, 2–3

move to Santiago, 30–31, 32

Pinocchio nickname, 2

Rebbe as advisor, 11–12, 20–21, plate 11

red shoes and Carlitos’s death, 9–11

sardines and seagulls, 4, 7–8, plate 4

scratching Gadfly’s back, 8

shame about penis, 20

suicide attempt, 16, 18

tooth fixed, no anesthesia, 17–18,

plate 5

visit to maternal grandmother, 21–23

words sweetened by Moishe, 14

See also Jodorowsky, Jaime

Claude, Jean (doctor), 303

Confucius, dream encounter with,

212–13

Consuelo (de-virginized woman),

144–45

Costa, Marianne, 209, 385

Cristina (maid in Tocopilla), 214,

236–37

Cuauhtémoc, Brother. See Pachita

Dance of Reality, The (film), plates 1–12

death

childhood curiosity about, 23–27

as a disease, 354

fear of dying, 170–71

“Intellectual, learn to die!” 198, 215

lucid dreaming of the dead, 205–11

patients’ desire for, 285–87, 349

of son Teo, 172, 208

Decroux, Ettienne, 173–75

Díaz, Stella (poet), 96–109

Donoso, José (novelist), 168

dreams. See lucid dreaming

ego, proper attitude toward, 243

El Topo (film), 194, 195

Emilfork, Daniel (actor), 161–63, 164

Enrique (folk magic healer), 277, 278,

285, 291–93. See also Pachita

ephemeral panics, 184–85, 188, 190–

92, 209

with Arrabal and Topor, 189–94

early spectacles in Mexico, 182–83, 186

on Mexican TV, 184–85, 186–89

theory of, 193–94

Ernesto, Don (healer), 296–97

family tree, healing. See psychomagic

Farcet, Gilles (interviewer), 333

Faz, Carlos (poet), 240

Fierro, Francisco (painter), 266

First Company of Firemen, 130–33, 132

Flores, Alejandro (actor), 153–60, 155

Frégoli, Leopoldo (actor), 129

Fromm, Erich, and disciples, 244–47

Fu-Manchu (Mexican magician),

31–32, 129

Furious, the (painter), 176

Gloria (healer), 295–96

Griffy, Tinny (performer), 129

Groddeck, Georg (writer), 336

Gross, Saúl (sister’s husband), 55–56, 59

Gurdjieff (teacher), 243

Hervey de Saint-Denys, 200–201

holiness, civil, 142–45

Holy Mountain, The, 215–18, 251–52, 266

Ichazo, Óscar (teacher), 252–62, 255

initiatory massage

beginnings of, 224, 229

death of son’s mother and, 361

experimental techniques, 367

on feet, 366–67

man trapped by train and, 360

massager/client dynamic and, 367–68

massaging a rock, 227–29

massaging the bones, 361–62

opening the body, 362

phantom body and, 368–70

scraping away the past, 359–60, 361

stretching the skin, 361

Jashe (grandmother), 21–23, 27, 37, 88, 89

Jesus Christ, 212–13, 225

Jodorowsky, Adan (son), 209, 303

Jodorowsky, Alejandro, 6, 115, 132,

148, 164, 179, 181, 184–85, 188,

190–92, 195, 209, 245, 310, 377,

383

bird man met, 223–24

birth of, 1

Breton and, 172–73, 200, 243–44

Castaneda met by, 262–65

Chevalier helped, 177–78

conception of, 53

death of son Teo, 172

with Decroux, 173–75

ephemeral panics, 182–94

films by, 194, 195, 215–18, 251–52,

266, plates 1–12

first months in Paris, 173

with Fromm and disciples, 244–47

hair cut by Julien, 176–77

haunted by fear of dying, 170–71

with Ichazo, 252–62

initiatory massage, 224, 227–29

LSD experience of, 256–61, 268

with Marceau, 175–76, 178, 180

in Mexico, 178, 180–89

mushroom experience of, 266–68

with Pachita, 269, 270–91

painting the Furious’s house, 176

seven-day Zen meditation, 196–98

Tarot reading sessions, 303–5

as theatrical advisor, 194–95

touching sacred symbols, 225–27

as unwanted child, 50–52

See also childhood in Tocopilla; lucid

dreaming; youth in Santiago

Jodorowsky, Alejandro (grandfather),

11, 23–24, 50–51

Jodorowsky, Axel Cristóbal (son), 179,

209, 222–23, 328–29

Jodorowsky, Benjamin (uncle), 37, 51

Jodorowsky, Brontis (son), 179, 207,

209, 361

Jodorowsky, Denisse (first wife), 207–8

Jodorowsky, Eugenia (daughter),

291–93

Jodorowsky, Jaime (father), 29

adultery by, 166

Alejandro not wanted by, 50–52

anger after house burned, 165–66

arts despised by, 41–42

business competition by, 14–16

childhood of, 37

circus career, 3, 146

cleaning banknotes, 42–43

cowardice hated by, 44, 51, 81

Cristina criticized by, 236–37

disappointment in his father, 50–51, 54

dream therapy with, 221–22

on giving away the red shoes, 10

God denied by, 26–27

at in-laws’ golden anniversary, 88, 89

name taken by, 158

Rebbe pushed on Alejandro by, 11

Santiago shop of, 38, 39–40

scabs peeled by, 18–19

on scratching Gadfly’s back, 8

small penis of, 44–46

Stalin mimicked by, 14

stamp collecting by, 18

teaching author to conquer pain,

16–18

toys denied by, 12

worms emptied on bed of, 81–82

Jodorowsky, Raquel (sister), 50, 53–60,

'57, 80, 208

Jodorowsky, Sara (mother), 29

Alejandro’s long hair loved by, 27

author’s letter to, 210–11

childhood of, 37

corset set free, 166–68

Jaime’s discipline supported by, 28, 81

not a virgin at marriage, 52

at parents’ golden anniversary, 88

red shoes bought by, 9

seen dying in dream, 208

sleeping with hand on Jaime’s penis, 45

socks mended by, 28

violin obtained by, 40–41

worms emptied on bed of, 81–82

Jodorowsky, Teo (son), 172, 208

Jodorowsky, Teresa (grandmother), 207

Joos, Kurt (choreographer), 137

Jung, Carl, 212

Kath center, 259–60, 267

Landru, Bernadette (wife), 206–7, 361

Lefevre, Marie, 239–40

Lemaire, Catherine, 368

Lettuce Clown, 147

Lihn, Enrique (poet friend), 115

author’s first meeting with, 114, 116

carnival inspired by, 168

dance recital suggested by, 140

poetic acts with, 117–26

seen in dream, 208

lions, 3, 4, 146, 201–2, 267

lucid dreaming

accepting and receiving in, 229–30

author’s method, 201

author’s study of dreams, 200–201

becoming his own therapist, 221–23

bird man parallels with, 223–25

caring for others, 223

decision to change the dreamer, 220

first experience, 199–200

initiatory phase, 202–5

lucid witnessing learned, 220–21, 231

Parra met in a dream, 242

power dreams, 230–31

power of touch in, 223, 224–25

in the realm of myths, 211–14

in the realm of the dead, 205–11

results match the dreamer, 219

seeing his inner god, 214–15, 218–20

shared therapeutic dreams, 235

timing and order of, 205

treating reality as a dream, 231–35

Lucsic, Yerca (dance instructor),

139–40

Luz (angel girlfriend), 110–12

machis, 282, 355, 356–58

magic

charlatans, 293–302

Cristina’s air sculpture, 237

Fu-Manchu makes him disappear,

31–32

Lefevre’s Tarot readings, 240

Molina and the magic mirror, 238–39

witchcraft objects of F. S., 269–70

See also psychomagic; shamanism

Maimonides (Talmud master), 284

Maitreya, dream encounter with,

212–13

Marceau, Marcel, 173–76, 178, 180

Martinez, Don Arnulfo (healer),

294–95

Mattei, Eduardo or Frater Maurus, 142

Moctezuma, Juan López (TV host),

186, 189

Moebius (comic artist), 364–66

Moishe (grandfather), 14, 21, 22, 23,

88, 89

Molina, Chico (polyglot and liar),

238–39

Morgan, the gringo, 24–26

Moses, 212–13, 230

names, significance of

Avenida Providencia, 116

changing one’s name, 158

Diego de Almagro plaza, 33–34

exalting one’s own name, 157–59

father-daughter incest and, 349

Jaime, 158

psychomagic for, 332, 335, 392

Tocopilla, 1–2, 219–20

Neruda, Pablo (poet), 87, 95, 124–25, 238

Opéra Panique cast, 209

Oth center, 260–61, 267

Pachita (folk magic healer), 270–91, 271

author healed by, 282–84

baldness cure of, 287–88

Brother respected more than, 275–76

charitable purpose of, 279–80

concerns about meeting, 269, 270–71

daughter Eugenia and Enrique,

291–93

death without obedience to, 280–81

dream visit from, 291

eye within triangle from, 273–74

first meeting with, 272–74

gift passed to Enrique, 291

money problems cured by, 288–89

operations by, 274–82

patients who want to die and, 285–87

psychomagic ideas from, 281, 289–91

touch of, 273, 287

unbelievable statements by, 278

Pacifier Clown, 147, 148, 149, 152

Parra, Nicanor, 95, 96, 100–101, 102,

240–42

paternal great grand-parents, 13

Path center, 261, 267

phantom limbs, 368–70

Piripipí Clown, 147, 150–53

poetic acts, 117–27

carnival inspired, 168–69

clown shoes, 146

corrections to errors, 123–24

criminal acts and, 140

defined, 117, 122–23

errors in, 121–22

haiku illustrating, 123

before leaving Santiago, 125–27

with Lihn, 117–26

for Neruda, 124–25

Sara’s corset set free, 166–68

Stella as the impetus for, 97

at studio parties, 113–14

poetry

author’s, 42, 46–47, 91, 107, 384

Chile permeated by, 86–88

discovery of, 41–42

Ejo Takata’s, 304–5

haiku illustrating poetic acts, 123

Parra’s anti-poems, 95

read for Pachita, 274

Stella’s, 99

unity attained with Chilean, 73–74

Prince (Chinese singer), 135–36

Prullansky, Alejandro (grandfather),

27, 65

psychogenealogy, 310–11

psychomagic

basis in the subconscious, 333

beginnings of, 180, 182

changing Mexico, 346–47

charlatan’s methods vs., 316,

319–20

clients unable participate in, 350–54

courses taught in, 333

decision to induce acts, 312

defensive mechanisms and, 351–54

for depression, 344–45, 386

for divorced women, 332

dramatizations to heal a family,

311–13

examples of acts, 385–92

for fears and anxieties, 334, 336

for female frigidity, 334

for finding a lover, 330–31

ideas from Pachita, 281, 289–91

imitating desired qualities, 344

individuality of treatments, 319–20

for invasive mother, 329–30

Mystical Cabaret, 327

for names, 332, 335, 392

need for parental love and, 349–50

for parental abuse/neglect, 331–34,

389–91

for perfectionism, 342–44

for physical illnesses, 324–26

for “possessed” persons, 334–35

psychogenealogy, 310–11

relieving guilt, 331, 341–42

requirements for, 312–14, 348–49

responsibility of, 320

role playing before parents, 327–28

roots in family tree, 305–10, 335–36

rules for advised acts, 327

for self-worth, 330, 340–41, 385–87,

391

sexual acts in, 322–24, 336–37

shifting images, 340–42

small acts prescribed for safety,

320–22

for social neuroses, 345–46

with son Axel Cristóbal, 328–29

for suppressed feelings, 332

time saved by, 348

touching a woman’s chest, 314–16

undoing predictions, 337–40

unexpected synchronicities in,

316–19

See also psychoshamanism

psychomagical correspondence, 393–402

chewing on hair, 397–98

getting past prostitution, 399–400

giving partial fulfillment, 397

lesbian attraction to mother, 398–99

letter to absent parent, 400–401

the lost color red, 395–96

milk bath for the eyes, 396

sexual invalid, 401–2

stealing to heal the heart, 393–94

symbolic conversation, 394–95

psychoshamanism, 377

for boy in coma, 362–64

bypassing defenses and fears, 380–81

defenses and the need for, 351–54

examples of, 372–80

healer’s state during, 380

imagination in, 382, 384

magical setting for, 371

for Moebius, 364–66

operating in another’s name, 370–71

operating on the phantom body, 371–72

power of the “now” in, 380, 381–82

superstition eliminated from, 370

for woman abused by priest, 358–59

See also initiatory massage;

psychomagic

puppets

changes due to, 93–95

of family members, 93, 94

learning to make, 92–93

making after Stella, 110

of Nicanor Parra, 96

of Racz, 111–12

Roncal’s dance, 138–39

show of Lorca play, 125

TEUCH puppet theater, 140–42

TEUC puppet theater, 153

Racz, André (painter), 111–12

Rebbe, 11–12, 20–21, 37, 50, 60–62,

plate 11

Rialland, Chantal (writer), 335–36

Rogelio, Don (Rabid Healer), 299–300

Roncal, Virginia (dancer), 138–39

Sabina, María, 235, 266

Said, Don Carlos (healer), 300–302

Santiago de Chile (pantomime), 245

shamanism

Castaneda’s, 262–65

charlatans, 293–302

Ichazo’s, 252–62

machis, 282, 355, 356–58

move to psychoshamanism from,

358–59

Pachita’s folk magic healing, 269–93

superstition needed for, 289

See also magic; psychoshamanism

Soledad (healer), 297–99

Takata, Ejo, 196–98, 215, 247–51, 249

Tarot

decision to charge for readings, 303–5

Lefevre’s deck, 240

meaning of Tocopilla and, 1–2

Strength image stolen from library, 3

theater

with Alejandro Flores, 153–60

art of theatrical advice, 194–95

awareness due to, 136–37

circus clown stint, 146–53

civil holiness, 143–45

dance performances seen, 137–39

dispensing with actors, audience, and

building, 180, 182

dissatisfaction with realism, 160–61

effectiveness vs. perfection, 154, 156, 157

ephemeral panics, 182–94

firefighter’s burial and, 130–33, 132

with Marceau, 175–76, 178, 180

mime, 162, 165, 175–80, 244

performers in Tocopilla, 128–30

seizure witnessed and, 133–34

singing Chinese Prince and, 134–36

studying emotions, 161

study with Decroux, 173–75

teaching, 161–62

TEUCH puppet theater, 140–42

TEUC puppet theater, 153

Tocopilla, plate 3

childhood house, 5

cultural richness in, 30

meaning of, 1–2, 219–20

performers visiting, 128–30

Toño, Don (healer), 297

Topor, 164, 189, 208

trickery, sacred, 239, 280

Troika, 262–63, 265

Trumbley, Valérie (wife), 179, 303

Uthoff, Ernst (dancer), 138

Varin, Stella Díaz (poet), 96–109

“Viper, The” (poem), 95, 100–101

youth in Santiago

address book tossed, 125, 171–72, 208

ambivalence about leaving, 165

body felt as an alien, 63–64

body seen as an enemy, 76–77

bullied at school, 46, 48–49

burning of family house, 165–68

at Cereceda sisters’ home, 89–93

chased by thieves/cops, 78–79

cleaning banknotes, 42–43

concepts redefined, 116–17

conquering space and time, 66–69

dance instructor murdered, 139–40

dead beggar and vomiting, 35

de-virginizing Consuelo, 144–45

the dog brings a stone, 169–70

earthquake, 43–44

entry into world of poetry, 89–91

family seen as a trap, 37, 60

family strictures thrown off, 81, 83–85

father’s small penis seen, 44–46

field trip from school, 35–37

first meeting with Lihn, 114, 116

forgiveness with his family, 93–94

high jump competition, 47–48

humiliated as a Jew, 46–47

imagination chosen as a path, 69–70

imaginative techniques conceived,

70–75

indicating shoplifters to Jaime, 39–40

leaving for Paris, 125–27, 171–72

Lefevre’s Tarot readings, 239–40

lime tree hacked with ax, 88–89

Luz as his angel, 110–12

magic mirror episode, 237–39

meditative concentration deepened, 77

meetings with Parra, 100–101,

240–42

one-tooth landlady, 34–35

Parra puppet made, 96

path found in blown book page, 66

photographs burned, 49, 50

poems written, 42, 46–47, 91, 107, 384

poetry discovered, 41–42

pride of the drunkards, 38–39

puppet making, 92–93, 96, 110

reasons for birth considered, 86

Rebbe on basic rights, 60–62

return to parents after Stella, 109–10

self reimagined, 64–66, 77–78,

79–80, 82–85

shame about penis, 36, 46

sister’s crotch visited at night, 80

spider contemplated, 75–76

with Stella Díaz Varin, 96–109

surrealism discovered, 85

taken out of school, 38

Teatro Mímico formed, 162, 165

violin coffin, 40–41

weight gain, 40

worms emptied on parents’ bed,

81–82

See also poetic acts; theater

Zaratustra performance, 179, 181