At first Granny began looking about at the players. She began in a half whisper asking me abrupt, jerky questions. Who was that man and who was this woman ? She was particularly delighted by a young man at the end of the table who was playing for very high stakes, putting down thousands, and had, as people whisp)ered around, already won as much as forty thousand francs, which lay before him in heaps of gold and banknotes. He was pale; his eyes glittered and his hands were shaking; he was staking i.ow without counting, by handfuls, and yet he kept on winning and winning, kept raking in the money. The attendants hung about him solicitously, set a chair for him, cleared a place roxmd him that he might have more room, that he might not be crowded—all this in expectation of a liberal tip. Some players, after they have won, tip the attendants without counting a handful of coins in their joy. A Pole had already established himself at his side, and was deferentially but continually whispering to him, probably telling him what to stake on, advising and directing his play—of course, he, too, expecting a tip later on! But the player scarcely looked at him. He staked at random and kept winning. He evidently did not know what he was doing.
Granny watched him for some minutes.
"Tell him," Granny said suddenly, growing excited and giving me a poke, "tell him to give it up, to take his money quickly and go away. He'll lose it all directly, he'll lose it all!" she urged, almost breathless with agitation. "Where's Potapitch? Send Potapitch to him. Come, tell him, tell him," she went on, poking me. "Where is Potapitch? Sortez! SortezJ" —she began herself shouting to the young man.
I bent.down to her and whispered resolutely that she must not shout like this here, that even talking aloud was forbidden,
because it hindered counting and that we should be turned out directly.
"How vexatious! The man's lost I I suppose it's his own doing. ... I can't look at him, it quite upsets me. What a doltT" and Granny made haste to turn in another direction.
On the left, on the other side of the table, there was conspicuous among the players a young lady, and beside her a sort of dwarf. Who this dwarf was, eind whether he was a relation or brought by her for the sake of effect, I don't know. I had noticed the lady before; she made her appearance at the gambUng table every day, at one o'clock in the afternoon, and went away exactly at two; she always played for an hour. She was already known, and a chair was set for her at once. She took out of her pocket some gold, some thousand-franc notes, and began staking quietly, coolly, prudently, making pencil notes on a bit of paper of the numbers about which the chances grouped themselves, and trying to work out a sjretem. She staked considerable sums. She used to win every day—one, two, or at the most three thousand francs—^not more, and instantly went away. Granny scrutinised her for a long time.
"Well, that one won't lose! That one there won't lose! Of what class is she? Do you know? Who is she?"
"She must be a Frenchwoman, of a certain class, you know," I whispered.
"Ah, one can tell the bird by its flight. One can see she has a sharp claw. Explain to me now what every turn means and how one has to bet I"
I explained as far as I could to Granny all the various points on which one could stake: rouge et now, pair et impmr, manque et passe, and finally the various subtleties in the S3^tem of the numbers. Grajiny listened attentively, remembered, asked questions, eind began to master it. One could point to examples of every kind, so that she very quickly and readily picked up a great deal.
"But what about zero?. You see that croupier, the curly-headed one, the chief one, showed z6ro just now? And why did he scoop up everything that was on the table? Such a heap, he took it all for himself. What is the meaning of it?"
"Z^ro, Granny, means that the bank wins all. If the little ball falls on z^ro, everything on the table goes to the bank. It is true you can stake your money so as to keep it, but the bank pays nothing."
"You don't say so! And shall I get nothing?"
"No, Granny, if before this you had staked on z6ro you would have got thirty-five times what you staked."
"W^atl thirty-five times, and does it often turn up? Why don't they stake on it, the fools."
"There are thirty-six chances against it. Granny."
"What nonsense. Potapitch! Potapitch! Stay, I've money with me—^here." She took out of her pocket a tightly packed purse, and picked out of it a friedrich d'or. "Stake it on the z^ro at once."
"Granny, zero has only just turned up," I said; "so now it won't turn up for a long time. You will lose a great deal; wait a Uttle, anjrway."
"Oh, nonsense; put it down!"
"As you please, but it may not turn up again tiU the evening. You may go on staking thousands; it has happened."
"Oh, nonsense, nonsense. If you are afraid of the wolf you shouldn't go into the forest. What? Have I lost? Stake again!"
A second friedrich d'or was lost: she staked a third. Granny could scarcely sit still in her seat. She stared with feverish eyes at the Uttle boll dancing on the spokes of the turning wheel. She lost a third, too. Granny was beside herself, she could not sit stiE, she even thumped on the table with her fist when the croupier announced "trente-six" instead of the z6ro she was expecting.
"There, look at it," said Granny angrily; "isn't that cursed little z^ro coming soon? As sure as I'm alive, I'll sit here till zdro does come! It's that cursed curly-headed croupier's doing; he'll never let it come! Alexey Ivanovitch, stake two gold pieces at once! Staking as much as you do, even if zero does come you'll get nothing by it."
"Granny!"
"Stake, stake! it is not your money."
I staked two friedrichs d'or. The ball flew about the wheel for a long time, at last it began dancing about the spokes. Granny was nmnb with excitement, and squeezed my fingers, and dl at once—
"Zero!" boomed the croupier.
"You see, you see!"—Graimy turned to me quickly, beaming and delighted. "I told you so. The Lord Himself put it into my head to stake those two gold pieces! Well, how much do I get now? Why don't they give it me? Potapitch, Marfa, where are they? Where have all our people got to? Potapitch, Potapitch!"
"Granny, afterwards," I whispered; "Potapitch is at the door, they won't let him in. Look, Granny, they are giving you the money, take iti" ,A heavy roll of printed blue notes, worth fifty friedrichs d'or, was thrust towards Granny and twenty friedrich d'or were counted out to her. I scooped it all up in a shovel and handed it to Granny.
"Ftdtes le jew, messieurs! Ftdtes le jeu. messieurs! Rien ne va plus!" called the croupier, inviting the public to stake, and preparing to turn the wheel.
"Heavens 1 we are too late. They're just going to turn it. Put it down, put it down!" Granny urged me in a flurry. "Don't dawdle, make haste 1" She was beside herself and poked me with all her might.
"What am I to stake it on. Granny?"
"On zero, on z6ro! On z6ro again! Stake as much as possible! How much have we got altogether? Seventy friedrichs d'or. There's no need to spare it. Stake twenty friedrichs d'or at once."
"Think what you are doing, Granny! sometimes it does not turn up for two hundred times running I I assure you, you may go on staking your whole fortune."
"Oh, nonsense, nonsense! Put it down! How your tongue does wag! I know what I'm about." Graimy was positively quivering with excitement.
"By the regulations it's not allowed to stake more than twelve roubles on z^ro at once. Granny; here I have staked that."
"Why is it not allowed? Aren't you lying? Monsieur! Monsieur!"—she nudged the croupier, who was sitting near her on the left, and was about to set tiie wheel turning. "Comhien zero? Douze? Douze?"
I immediately interpreted the question in French.
"Old, madame," tiie croupier confirmed politely; "as the winnings from no single stake must exceed four thousand florins by the regulations," he added in explanation.
"Well, there's no help for it, stake twelve."
"Le jeu est fait," cried the croupier. The wheel rotated, and thirty turned up. She had lost.
"Again, again, again! Stake again!" cried Granny. I no longer resisted, and, shrugging my shoulders, staked another twelve friedrichs d'or. The wheel turned a long time. Granny was simply quivering as she watched the wheel. "Can she really imagine that z6ro will win again?" I thought, looking at
her with wonder. Her face was beaming with a firm conviction of winning, an unhesitating expectation that in another minute they would shout z6ro. The ball jumped into the cage.
"Z6rol" cried the croupier.
"What! I!" Granny turned to me with intense triumph.
I was a gambler myself, I felt that at the moment my arms and legs were trembhng, there was a throbbing in my head. Of course, this was a rare chance that z6ro should have come up three times in some dozen turns; but there was nothing particularly wonderful about it. I had myself seen z6ro turn up three times runnmg two days before, and a gambler who had been zealously noting down the lucky numbers, observed aloud that, only the day before, zero had turned up only once in twenty-four hours.
Granny's wirmings were counted out to her with particular attention and deference as she had won such a large sum. She received four hundred and twenty friedrichs d'or, that is, four thousand florins and seventy friedrichs d'or. She was given twenty friedrichs d'or in gold, and four thousand florins in banknotes.
This time Greinny did not call Potapitch; she had other preoccupations. She did not even babble or quiver outwardly 1 She was, if one may so express it, quivering inwardly. She was entirely concentrated on something, absorbed in one aim.
"Alexey Ivanovitch, he said that one could only stake four thousand florins at once, didn't he? Come, take it, stake the whole four thousand on the red," Granny commanded.
It was useless to protest; the wheel began rotating.
"Rouge/' the croupier proclaimed.
Again she had won four thousand florins, making eight in all.
"Give me four, and stake four again on red," Granny conmianded.
Again I staked four thousand.
"Rouge," the croupier pronounced again.
"Twelve thousand altogether! Give it me all here. Pour the gold here into the purse and put away the notes. That's enough 1 Home I Wheel my chair out."
CHAPTER XI
THE chair was wheeled to the door at the other end of the room. Granny was radiant. All our party immediately thronged round her with congratulations. However eccentric Granny's behaviour might be, her triumph covered a multitude of sins, and the General was no longer afraid of compromising himself in public by his relationship with such a strange woman. With a condescending and familiarly good-humoured smile, as though humouring a child, he congratulated Granny. He was, however, evidently impressed, like all the other spectators. People talked all round and pointed at Graimy. Many passed by to get a closer view of her! Mr. Astley was talking of her aside, with two English acquaintances. Some majestic ladies gazed at her with majestic amazement, as though at a marvel . . . De Grieux positively showered congratulatioiis and smiles upon her.
"Qti/e^ victoirei!" he said.
"Mais, Madame, c'etait du feu," Mile. Blanche commented, with an ingratiating smile.
"Yes, I just went and won twelve thousand florins! Twelve, indeed; what about the gold? With the gold it makes almost thirteen. What is that in oiu: money? Will it be six thousand?"
I explained that it made more than seven, and in the present state of exchange might even amount to eight.
"Well, that's something worth having, eight thousand! And you stay here, you noodles, cind do nothing! Potapitch, Marfa, did you see?"
"My goodness! how did you do it. Ma'am? Eight thousand!" exclaimed Marfa, wriggling.
"There! there's five gold pieces for you, here!"
Potapitch and Marfa flew to kiss her hand.
"And give the porters, too, a friedrich d'or each. Give it them in gold, Alexey Ivanovitch. Why is that flunkey bowing and the other one too? Are they congratulating me? Give them a friedrich d'or too."
"Madame la princesse ... mm pamrre expatrii . . . mdhmr contmuel. . . les princes russes sont si ginireux ..." A person with moustaches and an obsequious smile, in a threadbare coat and gay-coloured waistcoat, came cringing about Granny's chair, waving his hat in his hand.
"Give him a friedrich d'or too. ... No, give him two; that's
enough, or there will be no end to them. Lift me up and carry me out. Praskovya"—she turned to Polina Alexandrovna— "I'll buy you a dress to-morrow, and I'll buy MUe. . . . what's her name, MUe. Blanche, isn't it? I'll buy her a dress too. Translate that to her, Praskovya 1"
"Merd, Madame." MUe. Blanche made a grateful curtsey while she exchanged an ironical smile with De Grieux and the General. The General was rather embarrassed and was greatly relieved when we reached the avenue.
"Fedosya—^won't Fedosya be surprised," said Granny, thinking of the General's nurse. "I must make her a present of a dress. Hey, Alexey Ivanovitch, Alexey Ivanovitch, give this to the poor man."
A man in rags, with bent back, passed us on the road, and looked at us.
"And perhaps he is not a poor man, but a rogue. Granny."
"Give him a gulden, give it him!"
I went up to Sie man and gave it him. He looked at me in wild amazement, but took the gulden, however. He smelt of spirits.
"And you, Alexey Ivanovitch. Have you not tried your luck yet?"
"No, Granny."
"But your eyes were burning, I saw them."
"I shall try. Granny, I certainly shaU later."
"And stake on zlro strsiight away. You will see! How much have you in hand?"
"Only twenty friedrichs d'or. Granny."
"That's not much. I will give you fifty friedrichs d'or. I will lend it if you like. Here, take this roll—^but don't you expect anything, all the same, my good man, I am not going to give you anything," she said, suddenly addressing the General.
The latter winced, but he said nothing. De Grieux frowned.
"Qua diable, c'est wne terrible vieille!" he muttered to the General through his teeth.
"A beggar, a beggar, another beggar!" cried Granny. "Give him a gulden, too, Alexey Ivanovitch."
This time it was a grey-headed old man with a wooden leg, in a long-skirted blue coat and with a long stick in his hand. He looked like an old soldier. But when I held out a gulden to him he stepped back and looked at me angrily.
"Was ist's der Teufel," he shouted, following up with a dozen oaths.
"Oh, he's a fool," cried Granny, dismissing hkn with a wave of her hand. "Go on I I'm hungry! Now we'll have dinner directly; then I'll rest a little, and back here again."
"You want to play again, Granny 1" I cried.
"What do you expect? That you should all sit here and sulk while I watch you?"
"Mais, maSame —" De Grieux drew near— '-les chau^s peuvent tourner, une seule m "Vous perdrez ahsohtment," chirped Mile. Blanche. "But what is it to do with all of you? I shouldn't lose your money, but my own! And where is that Mr. Astley?" she asked me. "He stayed in the Casino, Granny." "I'm sorry, he's such a nice man." On reaching home Granny met the oher-kellner on the stairs, called him and began bragging of her winnings; then she sent for Fedosya, made her a present of three friedrichs d'or and ordered dinner to be served. Fedosya and Marfa hovered over her at dinner. "I watched you, ma'am," Marfa cackled, "and said to Potapitch, 'What does our lady want to do?' And the money on the table—saints alive! the money 1 I haven't seen so much money in the whole of my Ufe, and all round were gentlefolk— nothing but gentlefolk sitting. 'And wherever do all these gentlefolk come from, Potapitch?' said I. May our Lady Herself help her, I thought. I was praying for you, ma'am, and my heart was simply sinking, simply sinking; I was all of a tremble. Lord help her, I thought, and here the Lord has sent you luck. I've been trembling ever since, ma'am. I'm all of a tremble now." "Alexey Ivanovitch, after dinner, at four o'clock, get ready and we'll go. Now good-bye for a time; don't forget to send for a doctor for me. I must drink the waters, too. Go, or maybe you'll forget." As I left Granny I was in a sort of stupor. I tried to imagine what would happen now to all our people and what turn things would take. I saw clearly that they (especially the General) had not yet succeeded in recovering from the first shock. The fact of Granny's arrival instead of the telegram which they were expecting from hour to hour to announce her death (and consequently the inheritance of her fortune) had so completely shattered the whole fabric of their plans and intentions that Granny's further exploits at roulette threw them into positive bewilderment and a sort of stupefaction seemed to have come over all of them. Meanwhile this second fact was almost more important than the first; for though Granny had repeated twice that she would not give the General any money, yet, who knows?—^there was no need to give up all hope yet. De Grieux, who was involved in all the General's affairs, had not lost hope. I am convinced that Mile. Blanche, also much involved in the General's affairs (I should think so: to marry a General and with a considerable fortune!), would not ha^^ given up hope, and would have tried aU her fascinating arts upon Granny—^in contrast with the proud and incomprehensible Polina, who did not know how to curry favour with anyone. But now, now that Granny had had such success at roulette, now that Granny's personality had shown itself so clearly and so typically (a refractory and imperious old lady, et tmnbde en mfmnce), now, perhaps, all was lost. Why, she was as pleased as a child, so pleased that she would go on tiU she was ruined and had lost everj^thing. Heavens! I thought (and, God forgive me, with a malignant laugh), why, every friedrich d'or Granny staked just now must have been a fresh sore in the General's heart, must have maddened De Grieux and infuriated Mile, de Cominges, who saw the cup slipping from her lips. Another fact: even in her triumph and joy of winning, when Granny was giving money away to everyone, and taking every passer-by for a beggar, even then she had let fall to the General, "I'm not going to give you anything, though!" That meant that she had fastened upon that idea, was sticking to it, had made up her mind about it. There was danger! danger! All these reflections were revolving in my mind as I mounted the front stairs from Granny's apartments to my garret in the very top storey. All this interested me strongly. Though, of course, I could before have divined the strongest leading motives prompting the actors before me, yet I did not know for certain all the m37steries and intrigues of tiie drama. Polina had never been fully open with me. Though it did happen at times that she revealed her feelings to me, yet I noticed that almost always after such confidences she would make fim of all she had said, or would try to obscure the matter and put it in a different light. Oh, she had hidden a great deal! In any case, I foresaw that the denouement of this mysterious and constrained position was at hand. One more shock—and everjrthing would be ended and revealed. About my fortunes, which were also involved in aU this, I scarcely troubled. I was in a strange mood: I had only twenty friedrichs d'or in my pocket; I was in a foreign land without a job or means of livelihood, withxmt hope, without prospects, and—I did not trouble my head about it! If it had not been for the thought of Polina, I should have abandoned myself to the comic interest of the approaching catastrophe, and would have been shouting with laughter. But I was troubled about Polina; her fate was being decided, I divined that; but I regret to say that it was not altogether her fate that troubled me. I wanted to fathom her secrets; I wanted her to come to me and say: "I love you," and if not that, if that was senseless insanity, then . . . well, what was there to care about? Did I know what I wanted? I was like one demented: all I wanted was to be near her, in the halo of her glory, in her radiance, always, for ever, all my life. I knew nothing morel And could I leave her? In their passage on the third storey I felt as though something nudged me. I turned roimd and, twenty paces or more from me, I saw coming out of a door, Polina. She seemed waiting: and as soon as she saw me beckoned to me. "Polina Alexandrovna ..." "Hush!" she said. "Imagine," I whispered to her, "I felt as though someone had nudged me just now; I looked round—^you! It seems as though there were a sort of electricity from youl" "Take this letter," PoUna articulated anxiotisly with a frown, probably not hearing what I had said, "and give it into Mr. Astley's own hands at once. Make haste, I Ijeg you. There is no need of an answer. He will ..." She did not finish. "Mr. Astley?" I repeated in surprise. But Polina had already disappeared behind the door. "Aha, so they are in correspondence!" I ran at once, of course, to Mr. Astley; first to his hotel, where I did not find him, then to the Casino, where I hurried through all the rooms: and at last, as I was returning home in vexation, almost in despair, I met him by chance, witti a party of Englishmen and Englishwomen on horseback. I beckoned to him, stopped him and gave him the letter: we had not time even to exchange a glance. But I suspect that Mr. Astley purposely gave rein to his horse. Was I tortured by jealousy? An5:way, I was in an utterly shattered condition. I did not even want to find out what th^ were writing to one another about. And so he was trasted by her I "Her friend, her friend," I thought, "and that is clear (and when has he had time to become her friend?), but is there love in the case? Of course not," common-sense whispered to me. But common-sense alone counts for little in such cases; anyway, this, too, had to be cleared up. Things were growing unpleasantly complicated. Before I had time to go into the hotel, first the porter and then the ober-keUner. coming out of his room, informed me that I was wanted, that I had been asked for, three times they had sent to ask: where was I?—^that I was asked to go as quickly as possible to the General's rooms. I was in the most disagreeable frame of mind. In the General's room I found, besides the General himself, De Grieux and Mile. Blanche—alone, without her mother. The mother was evidently an official one, only used for show. But when it came to real bimness she acted for herself. And probably the woman knew little of her so-called daughter's affairs. They were, however, consulting warmly about something, and the doors of the study were actually locked—^which had never happened before. Coming to the door, I heard loud voices—De Grieux's insolent and malignant voice, Blanche's shrill fury, and the General's pitiful tones, evidently defending himself about something. Upon my enfrance they all, as it were, pulled themselves up and restrained themselves. De Grieux smoothed his hair and forced a smile into his angry face—^that horrid official French smile which I so detest. The crushed and desperate General tried to assume an air of dignity, but it was a mechanical effort. Only Mile. Blanche's countenjince, blazing with anger, scarcely changed. She only ceased speaking while she fixed her eyes upon me in impatient expectation. I may mention that hitherto she had freated me with extraordinary casualness, had even refused to respond to my bows, and had simply declined to see me. "Alexey Ivanovitch," the General began in a soft and mollifying tone; "allow me to tell you that it is strange, exceedingly strange ... in fact, yoixr conduct in regard to me and my family ... in fact, it is exceedingly strange ..." "Eh! ce m'esi pas ga," De Grieux interposed, with vexation and contempt. (There's no doubt he was the leading spirit.) "Mem cher monsiew, twire cher general se trompe, in taking up this tone" (I franslate the rest of his speech in Russian), "but he meant to say . . . that is to warn you, or rather to beg you most earnestly not to ruin him—^yes, indeed, not to ruin him I I make use of that expression." "But how, how?" I interrapted. "Why, you are undertaking to be the guide (or how shall I express it?) of this old woman, cette pcmvre terrible vieill&"r-De Grieux himself hesitated—"but you know she'll lose everything; she will gamble away her whole fortune! You know yourself, you have seen yourself, how she plays I If she begins to lose; she will never leave off, from obstinacy, from anger, and will lose everything, she will gamble away everything, and in such cases one can never regain one's losses and then . . . then . . ." "And then," the General put in, "then you will ruin the whole family! I and my family are her heirs, she has no nearer relations. I tell you openly: my affairs are in a bad way, a very bad way. You know my position to some extent ... If she loses a considerable sum or even (Lord help us!) her whole fortune, what will become of me, of my children!" (The General looked round at De Grieux.) "Of me." (He looked round at Mile. Blanche, who turned away from him with contempt.) "Alexey Ivanovitch, save us, save us! . . ." "But how. General, how, how can I? . . . What influence have I in the matter?" "Refuse, refuse, give her up! . . ." "Then someone else will turn up," I said. "Ce n'est pas ga, ce n'est pas ga," De Grieux interrupted again, "qtte dmbie! No, don't desert her, laoit at least advise her, dissuade her, draw her away . . . don't let her play too much, distract her in some way." "But how can I do that? If you would undertake the task yourself, M. de Grieux," I added, as naively as I could. Here I caught a rapid, fiery, questioning glance from Mile. Blanche at M. de Grieux. And in De Grieux's own face there was something peculiar, something he could not himself disguise. "The point is, she won't accept me now!" De Grieux cried, with a wave of his hand. "If only . . . later on . . ." De Grieux looked rapidly and meaningly at Mile. Blanche. "0, mon che>r M. Alexis, soyez si hon." Mile. Blanche herself took a step towards me with a most fascinating smile, she seized me by both hands and pressed them warmly. Damn it all! That diabolical face knew how to change completely in one moment. At that instant her face was so imploring, so sweet, it was such a child-like and even mischievous smile; at the end of the phrase she gave me such a sly wink, unseen by all the rest; she meant to do for me completely, and it was successfully done; only it was horribly coarse. Then the General leapt up, positively leapt up. "Alexey Ivanovitch, forgive me for beginning as I did just now. I did not mean that at all. ... I beg you, I beseech you, I bow down before you in Russian style—^you alone, you alone can save us. Mile, de Cominges and I implore you—^you understand, you understand, of course." He besought me, indicating Mile. Blanche with his eyes. He was a very pitiful figure. At that instant there came three subdued and respectful knocks at the door; it was opened—^the corridor attendant was knocking and a few steps behind him stood Potapitch. They came with messages from Granny; they were charged to find and bring me at once. "She is angry," Potapitch informed me. "But it is only half-past three." "She could not get to sleep; she kept tossing about, and then at last she got up, sent for her chair and for you. She's at the front door now." "Quelle megere," cried De Grieux. I did, in fact, find Granny on the steps, out of all patience at my not being there. She could not wait till four o'clock. "Come," she cried, and we set off again to roulette. CHAPTER XII GRANNY was in an impatient and irritable mood; it was evident that roulette had made a deep impression on her mind. She took no notice of anything else and was altogether absent-minded. For instance, she asked me no questions on the road as she had done before. Seeing a luxurious carriage whirling by, she was on the point of raising her hand and asking: W[iat is it? Whose is it?—but I believe she did not hear what I answered: her absorption was continually interrupted by abrupt and impatient gesticulations. When I pointed out to her Baron and Baroness Burmerhelm, who were approaching the Casino, she looked absent-mindedly at them and said, quite indifferently, "Ah!" and, turning round quickly to Potapitch and Marfa, who were walking behind her, snapped out to them— "Why are you hanging upon us? We can't take you every time! Go home! You and I are enough," she added, when they had hurriedly turned and gone home. They were akeady expecting Granny at the Casino. They immediately made room for her in the same place, next to the croupier. I fancy that these croupiers, who are always so strictiy decorous and appear to be ordinary officials who are absolutely indifferent as to whether the bank wins or loses, are by no means so unconcerned at the bank's losses and, of course, receive instructions for attracting players and for augmenting the profits—for which they doubtless receive prizes and bonuses. They looked upon Granny, anyway, as their prey. Then just what we had expected happened. This was how it was. Granny pounced at once on z&ro and immediately ordered me to stake twelve friedrichs d'or. She staked once, twice, three times—zero never turned up. "Put it down! Put it down!" Granny nudged me, impatiently. I obeyed. "How many times have we staked?" she asked at last, grinding her teeth with impatience. "I have staked twelve times, Granny. I have put down a hundred and forty-four friedrichs d'or. I tell you. Granny, very likely till evening ..." "Hold your tongue!" Granny interrupted. "Stake on z6ro, and stake at once a thousand gulden on red. Here, take the note." Red won, and zero failed once more; a thousand gulden was gained. "You see, you see!" whispered Granny, "we have gained almost all that we have lost. Stake again on z6ro; we'll stake ten times more and then give it up." But the fifth time Granny was thoroughly sick of it. "The devil take that filthy z^ro. Come, stake the whole four thousand gulden on the red," she commanded jne. "Granny! it wiU be so much; why, what if red does not turn up!" I besought her; but Granny almost beat me. (Indeed, she nudged me so violently that she might almost be said to have attacked me.) There was no help for it. I staked on red the whole four thousand won that morning. The wheel turned. Granny sat calmly and proudly erect, never doubting that she would certainly win. "Zdro!" boomed the croupier. At first Granny did not understand, but when she saw the croupier scoop up her four thousand gulden, together with everything on the table, and learned that z6ro, which had not turned up for so long and on which we had staked in vain almost two hundred friedrichs d'or, had, as though to spite her, turned up just as Granny was abusing it, she groaned and flung up her hands in view of the whole hall. People around actually laughed. "Holy saints! The cursed thing has turned upl" Granny wailed, "the hateful, hateful thing! That's your doing! It's all your doing"—she pounced upon me furiously, pushing me. "It was you persuaded me." "Granny, I talked sense to you; how can I answer for chance?" "I'll chance you," she whispered angrily. "Go away." "Good-bye, Granny." I turned to go away. "Alexey Ivanovitch, Alexey Ivanovitchl stop. Where are you off to? Come, what's the matter, what's the matter? Ach, he's in a rage! Stupid, come, stay, stay; come, don't be angry; I am a fool myself I Come, tell me what are we to do now!" "I won't undertake to tell you, Granny, because you will blame me. Play for yourself, tell me and I'll put down the stakes." "Well, weUl Come, stake another four thousand gulden on red! Here, take my pocket-book." She took it out of her pocket and gave it me. "Come, make haste and take it, there's twenty thousand roubles sterling in it." "Granny," I mmmured, "such stakes ..." "As sure as I am alive, I'll win it back. . . . Stake." We staked and lost. "Stake, stake the whole eight!" "You can't. Granny, four is the highest stake! . . ." "WeU, stake four!" This time we won. Granny cheered up. "You see, you see," she nudged me; "stake four again!" She stciked—she lost; then we lost again and again. "Granny, the whole twelve thousand is gone," I told her. "I see it's all gone," she answered with the calm of fury, if I may so express it. "I see, my good friend, I see," she muttered, with a fixed, as it were, absent-minded stare. "Ech, as sure I am aUve, stake another four thousand gulden!" "But there's no money. Granny; there are some of our Russian five per cents and some bills of exchange of some sort, but no money." "And in the purse?" "There's some small change. Granny." "Are there any money-changers here? I was told one could change any of our notes," Granny inquired resolutely. "Oh, as much as you like, but what you'll lose on the exchange . . . would horrify a Jew!" "NonsenseI I'll win it aU back. Take me! Call those blockheads!" I wheeled away the chair; the porters appeared and we went out of the Casino. "Make haste, make haste, make haste," Granny commanded. "Show us the way, Alexey Ivanovitch, and take us the nearest . . . Is it far?" "Two steps. Granny." But at the turning from the square into the avenue we were met by our whole party: the General, De Grieux, Mile. Blanche and her mamma. Polina Alexandrovna was not with them, nor Mr. Astley either. "Well! Don't stop us!" cried Granny. "Well, what do you want? I have no time to spare for you now!" I walked behind; De Grieux ran up to me. "She's lost all she gained this morning and twelve thousand gulden as well. We are going to change some five per cents," I whispered to him quickly. De Grieux stamped and ran to tell the General. We went on wheeling Granny. "Stop, stop!" the General whispered to me frantically. "You try stopping her," I whispered. "Auntie!" said the General, approaching, "Auntie ... we are just ... we are just . . ."his voice quivered and failed him, "hiring a horse and driving into the country ... a most exquisite view . . . the peak . . . We were coming to invite you." "Oh, bother you and your peak." Granny waved him off irritably. "There are trees there ... we will have tea . . ." the General went on, utterly desperate. "NcM(s boirons du hit, sur I'herbe fraiche." added De Grieux, with ferocious fury. Dm lait, de I'herbe frdche, that is the Paris bourgeois notion of the ideally idyllic; that is, as we all know, his conception of natwe et la verite! "Oh, go on with you and your milk! Lap it up yourself; it gives me the bellyache. And why do you pester me?" cried Granny. "I tell you I've no time to waste." "It's here, Granny," I said; "it's here!" We had reached the house where the bank was. I went in to change the notes; Granny was left waiting at the entrance; De Grieux, the General and Blanche stood apart waiting, not knowing what to do. Granny looked wrathfully at them, and they walked away in the direction of the Casino. They offered me such ruinous terms that I did not accept them, and went back to Granny for instructions. "Ah, the brigands!" she cried, flinging up her hands. "Well, never mind! Change it," she cried resolutely; "stay, call the banker out to me!" "One of the clerks. Granny, do you mean?" "Yes, a clerk, it's aU the same. Ach, the brigands!" The clerk consented to come when he learned that it was an invalid and aged countess, unable to come in, who was asking for him. Granny spent a long time loudly and angrily reproaching him for swindling her, and haggled with him in a mixture of Russian, French and German, while I came to the rescue in translating. The grave clerk listened to us in silence and shook his head. He looked at Granny with an intent stare that was hardly respectful; at last he began smiling. "Well, get along with you," cried Granny. "Choke yourself with the money! Change it with him, AJexey Ivanovitch; there's no time to waste, or we would go elsewhere. . . ." "The clerk says that other banks give even less." I don't remember the sums exactly, but the banker's charges were terrible. I received close upon twelve thousand florins in gold and notes, took the account and carried it to Granny. "Well, well, well, it's no use counting it," she said, with a wave of her hand. "Make haste, make haste, make haste!" "I'll never stake again on that damned z6ro nor on the red either," she pronounced, as she was wheeled up to the Casino. This time I did my very utmost to impress upon her the necessity of staking smaller sums, trying to persuade her that with the change of luck she would always be able to increase her stake. But she was so impatient that, though she agreed at first, it was impossible to restrain her when the play had begun; as soon as she had won a stake of ten, of twenty friedrichs d'ors "There, you see, there, you see,' she would begin nudging me; "there, you see, we've won; if only we had staked four thousand instead of ten, we should have won four thousand, but, as it is, what's the good? It's all your doing, all your doing 1" And, vexed as I felt, watching her play, I made up my mind at last to keep quiet and to give no more advice. Suddenly De Grieux skipped up. The other two were close by; I noticed Mile. Blanche standing on one side with her mother, exchanging amenities with the Prince. The General was obviously out of favour, almost banished. Blanche would not even look at him, though he was doing his utmost to cajole her! The poor Genered! He flushed and grew pale by turns, trembled and could not even follow Granny's play. Blanche and the Prince finally went away; the General ran after them. "Madame, ma,dame," De Grieux whispered in a honeyed voice to Granny, squeezing his way close up to her ear. "Madame, such stakes do not answer. . . . No, no, it's impossible . . ."he said, in broken Russian. "No!" "How, then? Come, show me!" said Granny, turning to him. De Grieux babbled something rapidly in French, began excitedly advising, said she must wait for a chance, began reckoning some numbers. . . . Granny did not understand a word. He kept turning to me, for me to translate; tapped the table with his fingers, pointed; finally took a pencil, and was about to reckon something on paper. At last Granny lost patience. "Come, get away, get away! You keep talkmg nonsense! 'Madame, madame,' he doesn't understand it himself; go away." "Mais, madame," De Grieux murmured, and he began once more showing and explaining. "Well, stake once as he says," Granny said to me; "let us see: perhaps it really will answer." All De Grieux wanted was to dissuade her from staking large sums; he suggested that she should stake on numbers, either individually or collectively. I staked as he directed, a friediich d'or on each of the odd numbers in the first twelve and five friedrichs d'or respectively on the groups of numbers from twelve to eighteen and from eighteen to twenty-four, staking in all sixteen friedrichs d'or. The wheel turned. "Z6ro," cried the croupier. We had lost everything. "You blockhead 1" cried Granny, addressing De Grieux. "You scoundrelly Frenchman! So this is how he advises, the monster. Go away, go away! He knows nothing about it and comes fussing round!" Fearfully offended, De Grieux shrugged his shoulders, looked contemptuously at Graimy, and walked away. He felt ashamed of having interfered; he had been in too great a hurry. An hour later, in spite of all our efforts, we had lost everything. "Home," cried Granny. She did not utter a single word till we got into the avenue. In the avenue and approaching the hotel she began to break into exclamations: "What a fool! What a silly fool! You're an old fool, you are!" As soon as we got to her apartments— "Tea!" cried Grarmy. "Ajid pack up at once! We are going!" "Where does your honour mean to go?" Marfa was begiiming. "What has it to do with you? Mind your own business! Potapitch, pack up everything: all the luggage. We are going back to Moscow. I have thrown away fifteen thousand roubles!" "Fifteen thousand, madame! My God!" Potapitch cried, flinging up his hands with deep feeling, probably meaning to humour her. "Come, come, you fool! He is beginning to whimper! Hold your tongue! Pack up! The biU, make haste, make haste!" "The next train goes at half-past nine. Granny," I said, to check her furore. "And what is it now?" "Half-past seven." "How annoying! Well, it doesn't matter! Alexey Ivano-vitch, I haven't a farthing. Here are two more notes. Run there and change these for me too. Or I have nothing for the journey." I set off. Returning to the hotel half an hour later, I found our whole party at Granny's. Learning that Granny was going off to Moscow, they seemed to be even more upset than by her losses. Even though her going might save her property, what was to become of the General? Who would pay De Grieux? Mile. Blanche would, of course, decline to wait for Granny to die and would certainly now make up to the Prince or to somebody else. They were all standing before Granny, trying to console her and persuade her. Again Polina was not there. Granny was shouting at them furiously. "Let me alone, you devils! What business is it of yours? Why does that goat's-beard come forcing himself upon me?" she cried at De Grieux; "and you, my fine bird?" she cried, addressing Mile. Blanche, "what are you after?" "Diantre!" whispered Mile. Blanche, with an angry flash of her eyes, but suddenly she burst out laughing and went out of the room. "Elle vivra cewt ans!" she called to the Genend, as she went out of the door. "Ah, so you are reckoning on my death?" Granny yelled to the General. "Get away! Turn them all out, Alexey Ivano-vitch! What business is it of yours? I've fooled away my own money, not yours!" Tlje General shrugged his shoulders, bowed and went out. De Grieux followed Mm. "Call Praskovya," Granny told Marfa. Five minutes later Marfa returned with Polina. All this time Polina had been sitting in her own room with the children, and I fancy had purposely made up her mind not to go out all day. Her face was serious, sad and anxious. "Praskovya," began Granny, "is it true, as I learned by accident just now, that that fool, your stepfather, means to marry that silly feather-head of a Frenchwoman—an actress is she, or something worse? Tell me, is it true?" "I don't know anything about it for certain. Granny," answered Polina, "but from the words of Mile. Blanche herself, who does not feel it necessary to conceal anything, I conclude . . ." "Enough," Granny broke in vigorously, "I understand! I always reckoned that he was capable of it and I have always thought him a most foolish and feather-headed man. He thinks no end of himself, because he is a General (he was promoted from a Colonel on retiring), and he gives himself airs. I know, my good girl, how you kept sending telegram after telegram to Moscow, to ask if your old Granny would soon be laid out. They were on the look-out for my money; without money that nasty hussy, what's her name—de Cominges—wouldn't take him for her footman, especially with his false teeth. She has a lot of money herself, they say, lends at interest, has made a lot. I am not blaming you, Praskovya, it wasn't you who sent the telegrams; and I don't want to remember the past, either. I know you've got a bad temper—a wasp! You can sting to hurt; but I'm sorry for you because I was fond of your mother, Katerina. Well, you throw up everjTthing here and come with me. You've nowhere to go, you know; and it's not fitting for you to be with them now. Stop!" cried Granny, as Polina was about to speak; "I've not finished. I ask nothing of you. As you know, I have in Moscow a palace; you can have a whole storey to yourself and not come and see me for weeks at a time ii my temper does not suit youl Well, will you or not?" "Let me ask you first: do you really mean to set off at once?" "Do you suppose I'm joking, my good girl! I've said I'm going and I'm going. I've wasted fifteen thousand roubles today over your damned roulette. Five years ago I promised to rebuild a wooden church with stone on my estate near Moscow, and instead of that I've thrown away my money here. Now, my girl, I'm going home to build the ehurch." "And the waters. Granny? You came to drink the waters?" "Bother you and the waters, too. Don't irritate me, Praskovya; are you doing it on purpose? TeU me, will you come or not?" "I thank you very, very much," Polina began, with feeling, "for the home you offer me. You have guessed my position to some extent. I am so grateful to you that I shall perhaps come to you soon; but now there are reasons . . . important reasons . . . and I can't decide at once, on the spur of the moment. If you were staying only a fortnight . . ." "You mean you won't?" "I mean I can't. Besides, in any case I can't leave my brother and sister, as ... as ... as it may actually happen that they may be left abandoned, so ... if you would take me with the children. Granny, I certainly would come, and, believe me, I would repay you for it!" she added warmly; "but without the children I can't come. Granny." "Well, don't whimper" (Polina had no intention of whimpering—^indeed, I had never seen her cry). "Some place will be foimd for the chickens, my henhouse is big enough. Besides, it is time they were at school. Well, so you are not coming now! Well, Praskovya, mind! I wished for your good, but I know why you won't come! I know all about it, Praskovya. That Frenchman will bring you no good." Polina flushed crimson. I positively shuddered. (Everyone knows cdl about it. I am the only one to know nothing!) "Come, come, don't frown. I am not going to say anything more. Only take care no harm comes of it, understand. You are a clever wench; I shall be sorry for you. Well, that's enough. I should not like to look on you as on the others 1 Go along, good-bye!" "I'll come to see you off," said Polina. "There's no need, don't you interfere; I am sick of you all." Polina was kissing Granny's hand, but the latter pulled it away and kissed her on the cheek. As she passed me, Polina looked at me quickly and immediately turned away her eyes. "Well, good-bye to you, too, Alexey Ivanovitch, there's only an hour before tiie train starts, and I think you must be tired out with me. Here, take these fifty pieces of gold." "I thank you very much. Granny; I'm ashamed . . ." "Come, come!" cried Graimy, but so vigorously and angrily that I dared say no more and took it. "When you are running about Moscow without a job come to me: I will give you some introductions. Now, get along with you!" I went to my room and lay down on my bed. I lay there for half an hour on my back, with my hands clasped behind my head. The catastrophe had come at last, I had something to think about. I made up my mind to talk earnestly to Polina. The nasty Frenchman! So it was true then! But what could there be at the bottom of it? Polina and De Grieux! Heavens! what a pair! It was all simply incredible. I suddenly jumped up, beside myself, to look for Mr. Astley, and at aU costs to make him speak out. No doubt in this matter, too, he knew more than I did. Mr. Astley? He was another riddle to me! But suddenly there was a tap at my door. I looked up. It was Potapitch. "Alexey Ivanovitch, you are wanted to come to my lady!" "What's the matter? Is she setting off? The train does not start for twenty minutes." "She's uneasy, she can't sit still. 'Make haste, make haste!' she says, meaning to fetch you, sir. For Christ's sake, don't delay." I ran downstairs at once. Granny was being wheeled ovrt. into the passage, her pocket-book was in her hand. "Alexey Ivanovitch, go on ahead; we're coining," "Where, Granny?" "As sure as I'm aiive, I'll win it back. Come, march, don't ask questions I Does the play go on there till midnight?" I was thunderstruck. I thought a moment, but at once made up my mind. "Do as you please, Antonida Vassilyevna, I'm not coming." "What's that for? What now? Have you all eaten too many pancakes, or what?" "Do as you please, I should blame myself for it afterwards; I won't. I won't take part in it or look on at it; spare me, Antonida Vassilyevna. Here are your fifty friedrichs d'or back; good-bye!" And, laying the fifty friedrichs d'or on the Uttle table near which Graimy's chair was standing, I bowed and went out. "What nonsense!" Granny shouted after me. "Don't come if you don't want to, I can find the way by myself! Potapitch, come with me! Come, hft me up, carry me!" I did not find Mr. Astley and returned home. It was late, after midnight, when I learned from Potapitch how Granny's day ended. She lost all that I had changed for her that evening —^that is, in Russian money, another ten thousand roubles. The little Pole, to whom she had given two friedrichs d'or the day before, had attached himself to her and had directed her play the whole time. At first, before the Pole came, she had made Potapitch put down the stakes, but soon she dismissed him; it was at that moment the Pole turned up. As ill-luck would have it, he understood Russian and babbled away in a mixture of three languages, so that they understood each other after a fashion. Granny abused him mercilessly the whole time; and though he incessantly "laid himself at his lady's feet," "yet he couldn't be compared with you, Alexey Ivanovitch," said Potapitch. "She treated you Mke a gemiieman, while the other—I saw it with my own eyes, God strike me dead—stole her money oflE the table. She caught him at it herself twice. She did give it to him with all sorts of names, sir, even pulled his hair once, upon my word she did, so that folks were laughing round about. She's lost everything, sir, everything, all you changed for her; we brought her back here—she only asked for a drink of water, crossed herself and went to bed. She's worn out, to be sure; she fell asleep at once. God send her heavenly dreams. Ochl these foreign parts!" Potapitch wound up. "I said it would lead to no good. If only we could soon be back in Moscow! We'd everything we wanted at home in Moscow: a garden, flowers such as you don't have here, fragrance, the apples are swelUng, plenty of room everywhere. No, we had to come abroad. Oh, oh, oh , . ." CHAPTER XIII NOW almost a whole month has passed since I touched these notes of mine, which were begun under the influence of confused but intense impressions. The catastrophe which I felt to be approaching has actually come, but in a form a hundred times more violent and startling than I had expected. It has aU been something strange, grotesque and even tragic— at least for me. Several things have happ>ened to me that were almost miraculous; that is, at least, how I look upon them to this day—^though from another point of view, particularly in the whirl of events in which I was involved at that time, they were only somewhat out of the confunon. But what is most marvellous to me is my own attitude to all these events. To this day I cannot understand myself, and it has all floated by like a dream—even my passion—it was violent and sincere, but . . . what has become of it now? It is true that sometimes the thought flashes through my brain: "Wasn't I out of my mind then, and wasn't I all that time somewhere in a madhouse and perhaps I'm there now, so that was all my fancy and still is my fancy . . ." I put my notes together and read them over. (Who knows—perhaps to convince myself that I did not write them in a madhouse.) Now I am entirely alone. Autumn is coming on and the leaves are turning yellow. I'm still in this dismal little town (oh, how dismal the httle German towns are!), and instead of considering what to do next, I go on living under the influence of the sensations I have just passed toough, under the influence of memories still fresh, under the influence of the whirl of events which caught me up and flung me aside again. At times I fancy that I am still caught up in that whirlwind, that that storm is still raging, canying me along with it, and again I lose sight of all order and measure and I whirl round and round again. . . . However, I may, perhaps, leave off whirling and settle down in a way if, so far as I can, I put clearly before my mind all the incidents of the past month. I feel drawn to my pen again. Besides, I have sometimes nothing at all to do in the evenings. I am so hard up for something to do that, odd as it seems, 1 even take from the scurvy lending library here the novels of Paul de Kock (in a German translation), though I can't endure them; yet I read them and wonder at myself. It is as though I were afraid of breaking the spell of the recent past by a serious book or any serious occupation. It is as though that grotesque dream, with all the impressions left by it, was so precious to me that I am afraid to let anj^thing new touch upon it for fear it should all vanish in smoke. Is it all so precious to me? Yes, of course it is precious. Perhaps I shall remember it for forty years . . . And so I take up my writing again. I can give a brief account of it to some extent now: the impressions are not at all the same. In the first place, to finish with Granny. The following day she lost everything. It was what was bound to happen. When once anyone is started upon that road, it is Uke a man in a sledge fl5ang down a snow mountain more and more swiftly. She played all day till eight o'clock in the evening; I was not present and only know what happened from what I was told. Potapitch was in attendance on her at the Casino all day. Several Poles in succession guided Granny's operations in the course of the day. She began by dismissing the Pole whose hair she had pulled the day before and taking on another, but he turned out almost worse. After dismissing the second, and accepting again the first, who had never le'ft her side, but had been squeezing himself in behind her chair and continually poking his head in during the whole period of his disgrace, she sank at last into complete despair. The second Pole also refused to move away; one stationed himself on her right and the other on her left. They were abusing one another the whole time and quarrelling over the stakes and the game, calling each other "Imdak" and other Polish civilities, making it up again, putting down money recklessly and playing at random. When they quarrelled they put the money down regardless of each other—one, for instance, on the red and the other on the black. It ended in their completely bewildering and overwhelming Granny, so that at Icist, almost in tears, she appealed to the old croupier, begging him to protect her and to send them away. They were, in fact, immediately turned out in spite of their outcries and protests; they both shouted out at once and tried to prove that Granny owed them something, that she had deceived them about something and had treated them basely and dishonourably. The luckless Potapitch told me all this the same evening almost with tears, and complained that they stuffed their pockets with money, that he himself had seen them shamele^y steal and continually thrust the money in their pockets. One, for instance, would beg five friedrichis d'or for his trouble and begin putting them down on the spot side by side with Granny's stakes. Graimy won, but the man shouted that his stake was the winning one and that Granny's had lost. When they were dismissed Potapitch came forward and said that their pockets were full of gold. Granny at once bade the croupier to look into it and, in spite of the outcries of the Poles (they cackled like two cocks caught in the hand), the police came forward and their pockets were immediately emptied for Granny's benefit. Granny enjoyed unmistakable prestige among the croupiers and the whole staff of the Casino all that day, until she had lost everything. By degrees her fame spread all over the town. All the visitors at the watering-place, of all nations, small and great, streamed to look on at "wne vieiMe combesse russe tombee en enfance", who had already lost "some miUions". But Granny gained very, very littie by being rescued from the two Poles. They were at once replaced by a third, who spoke perfectly pure Russian and was dressed like a gentieman, though be did look like a flunkey with a huge moustache and a sense of his own importance. He, too, "laid himself at his lady's feet and kissied them," but behaved haughtily to those about him, was despotic over the play; in fact, immediately behaved hke Granny's master rather than her servant. Every minute, at every turn in the game, he turned to her and swore with awful oaths that he was himself a "pern of good position", and that he wouldn't take a kopeck of Granny's money. He repeated this oath so many times that Granny was completely intimidated. But as this pan certainly seemed at first to improve her luck. Granny was not willing to abandon him on her own account. An hour later the two Poles who had been turned out of the Casino turned up behind Granny's chair again, and again proffered their services if only to run errands for her. Potapitch swore that the "pan of good position" winked at them and even put something in their hands. As Granny had no dinner and could not leave her chair, one of the Poles certainly was of use: he ran off at once to the dining-room of the Casino and brought her a cup of broth and afterwards some tea. They both ran about, however. But towards the end of the day, when it became evident to everyone that she would stake her last banknote, there were behind her chair as many as six Poles who had never been seen or heard of before. When Granny was playing her Isist coin, they not only ceased to obey her, but took no notice of her whatever, squeezed their way up to the table in front of her, snatched the money themselves, put down the stakes and made their own play, shouted and quarrelled, talked to the "pan of good position" as to one of themselves, while the "pan of good position" himself seemed almost oblivious of Granny's existence. Even when Graimy, after losing everything, was returning after eight o'clock to the hotel, three or four Poles ran at the side of her bath-chair, still unable to bring themselves to leave her; they kept shouting at the top of their voices, declaring in a hurried gabble that Granny had cheated them in some way and must give them something. They followed her in this way right up to the hotel, from which they were at last driven away with blows. By Potapitch's reckoning Granny had lost in all ninety thousand roubles that day, apart from what she had lost the day before. All her notes, her exchequer bonds, all the shares she had with her, she had changed, one after another. I marvelled how she could have stood those seven or eight hours sitting there in her chair and scarcely leaving the table, but Potapitch told me that three or four times she had begun winning considerably; and, carried on by fresh hope, she could not tear herself away. But gamblers know how a man can sit for almost twenty-four hours at cards, without looking to right or to left. Meanwhile, very critical events were taking place all that day at the hotel. In the morning, before eleven o'clock, when Granny was still at home, our people—that is, the General and De Grieux—^made up their minds to take the final step. Learning that Granny had given up all idea of setting off, but was going back to the Casino, they went in full conclave (all but Polina) to talk things over with her finally and even openly. The General, trembling and with a sinking heart in view of the awful possibilities for himself, overdid it. After spending half an hour in prayers and entreaties and making a clean gi D breast of everything—that is, of all his debts and even his passion for Mile. Blanche (he quite lost his head), the General suddenly adopted a nienacing tone and even began shouting and stamping at Granny; cried that she was disgracing their name, had become a scandal to the whole town, and finally . . . finally: "You are shaming the Russian name," cried the General, and he told her that the pohce would be called in I Granny finally drove him from her with a stick (an actual stick). The General and De Grieux consulted once or twice that morning, and the question that agitated them was whether it were not possible in some way to bring in the police, on the plea that an imfortunate but venerable old lady, sinking into her dotage, was gambling away her whole fortune, and so on; whether, in fact, it would be possible to put her under any sort of supervision or restraint. . . . But De Grieux only shrugged his shoulders and laughed in the General's face, as the latter pranced up and down his study talking excitedly. Finally, De Grieux went off with a wave of his hand. In the evening we heard that he had left the hotel altogether, after having been in very earnest and mysterious confabulatioii with Mile. Blanche. As for Mile. Blanche, she had taken her measures early in the morning: she threw the General over completely and would not even admit him to her presence. When the General ran to the Casino in search of her sind met her arm-in-arm with the Prince, neither she nor Madame de Cominges deigned to notice him. The Prince did not bow to him either. Mile Blanche spent that whole day hard at woik upon the Prince, trying to force from him a definite declaration. But alas! she was cruelly deceived in her reckoningi This little catastrophe took place in the evening. It suddeiJy came out that he was as poor as a church mouse, and, what is more, was himself reckoning on borrowing from her on an lOU to try his luck at roulette. Blanche turned him out indignantly and locked herself up in her room. On the morning of that day I went to Mr. Astley—or, to be more exact, I went in search of Mr. Astley, but could find him nowhere. He was not at home, or in the park, or in the Casino. He was not dining at his hotel that day. It was past four o'clock when I suddenly saw him walking from the railway station towards the H6tel d'Angleterre. He was in a hurry and was very much preoccupied, though it was hard to trace any anxiety or any perturbation whatever in his face. He held out his hand to me cordially, with his habitual exclamation: "Ahl" but without stopping walked on with rather a rapid step. I attached myself to him, but he managed to answer me in such a way that I did not succeed in even asking him about an3^thing. Moreover, I felt, for some reason, ashamed to begin speaking of PoUna; he did not ask a word about her. I told him about Granny. He listened attentively and seriously and shrugged his shoulders. "She will gamble away everything," I observed. "Oh, yes," he answered; "she went in to play just as I was going away, and afterwards I learnt for a fact that she had lost ever57fliing. If there were time I would look in at the Casino, for it is curious." "Where have you been?" I cried, wondering that I had not asked before. "I've been in Frankfort." "On business?" "Yes, on business." Well, what more was there for me to ask? I did, however, continue walking beside him, but he suddenly turned into the Hotel des Quatre Saisons, nodded to me and vanished. As I walked home I gradually realised that if I had talked to him for a couple of hours I should have learnt absolutely nothing, because. . . I had nothing to ask him! Yes, that was so, of course! I could not possibly foimulate my question. AH that day Polina spent walking with the children and their nurse in the park, or sitting at home. She had for a long time past avoided the General, and scarcely spoke to him about anything—about anything serious, at any rate. I had noticed that for a long time past. But knowing what a position the General was in to-day, I imagined that he could hardly pass her over— that is, there could not but be an important conversation about family affairs between them. When, however, I returned to the hotel, after my conversation with Mr. Astley, I met Polina with the children. There was an expression of the most unruffled calm on her face, as though she alone had remained untouched by the family tempest. She nodded in response to my bow. I returned home feeling quite malignant. I had, of course, avoided seeing her and had seen nothing of her since the incident with the Burmerhelms. There was some affectation and pose in this; but as time went on, I felt more and more genuinely indignant. Even if she did not care for me in the least, she should not, I thought, have trampled on my feelings like that and have received my declarations so contemptuously. She knew that I really loved her; she admitted me, she allowed me to speak like that! It is true that it had begun rather strangely. Some time before, long ago, in fact, two months before, I began to notice that she wanted to make me her friend, her confidant, and indeed was in a way testing me. But somehow this did not come off then; instead of that there remained the strange relations that existed between us; that is how it was I began to speak to her like that. But if my love repelled her, why did she not directly forbid me to speak of it? She did not forbid me; indeed she sometimes provoked me to talk of it and . . . and, of course, she did this for fun. I know for certain. I noticed it unmistakably—^it was agreeable to her to Usten and to work me up to a state of misery, to woimd me by some display of the utmost contempt and disregard. And, of course, she knew that I could not exist without her. It was three days since the affair with the Baron and I coidd not endure our separation any longer. When I met her just now near the Casino, my heart throbbed so that I turned pale. But she could not get on without me, either! She needed me and— surely, surely not as a buffoon, a clown? She had a secret—^that was clear! Her conversation with Granny had stabbed my heart. Why, I had urged her a thousand times to be open with me, and she knew 5iat I was ready to give my life for her. But she had alwaj^ put me off, almost with contempt, or had asked of me, instead of the sacrifice of my Ufe, such pranks as the one with the Baron I Was not that enough to make one indignant? Could that Frenchman be all the world to her? And Mr. Astley? But at that point the position became utterly incomprehensible—and meanwhile, my God I what agonies I went through. On getting home, in an access of fury I snatched up my pen and scribbled the following letter to her: "Polina Alexandrovna, I see clearly that the denotement is at hand which will affect you also. I repeat for the last time: do you need my life or not? If I can be of use in any way whatever, dispose of me as you think fit, and I will meanwhile remain in my room and not go out at all. If you need me, write to me or send for me." I sealed up this note and sent it off by the corridor attendant, instructing him to give it into her hands. I expected no answer, but three minutes later the attendant returned with the message that "she sent her greetings". It was past six when I was summoned to the General. He was in his study, dressed as though he were on the point of going out. His hat and coat were lying on the sofa. It seemed to me as I went in that he was standing in the middle of the room with his legs wide apart and his head hanging, talking aloud to himself. But as soon as he saw me, he ru^ed at me almost crying out, so that I involuntarily stepped back and was almost running away, but he seized me by both hands and drew me to the sofa; sat down on the sofa himself, made me sit down in an armchair just opposite himself, and, keeping tight hold of my hand, with trembling lips and with tears suddenly glistening on his eyelashes, began speaking in an imploring voice. "Alexey Ivanovitch, save, save me, spare me." It was a long while before I could understand. He kept talking and talking and talking, continually repeating, "Spare me, spare me!" At last I guessed that he expected something in the way of advice from me; or rather, abandoned by all in his misery and anxiety, he had thought of me and had sent for me, simply to talk and talk and taBc to me. He was mad, or at any rate utterly distraught. He clasped his hands and was on the point of dropping on his knees before me to implore me (what do you suppose?) to go at once to Mile. Blanche and to beseech, to urge her to return to him and marry him. "Upon my word. General," I cried; "why, Mile. Blanche is perhaps scarcely aware of my existence. What can I do?" But it was vain to protest; he didn't imderstand what was said to him. He fell to talking about Granny, too, but with terrible incoherence; he was still harping on the idea of sending for the poUce. "Among us, among us," he began, suddenly boiling over with indignation; "among us, in a well-ordered state, in fact, where there is a Government in control of things, such old women would have been put under guardianship at once! Yes, my dear sir, yes," he went on, suddenly dropping into a scolding tone, jumping up from his chair and pacing about the room; "you may not be aware of the fact, honoured sir," he said, addressing some imaginary "honoured sir" in the comer, "so let me tell you . . . yes . . . among us such old women are kept in order, kept in order; yes, indeed. . . . Oh, damn it all!" And he flung himself on the sofa again, and a minute later, almost sobbing, gasping for breath, hastened to tell me that Mile. Blanche would not marry him because Granny had come instead of the telegram, and that now it was clear he would not come into the inheritance. He imagined that I knew nothing of this till then. I began to speak of De Grieux; he waved his hand: "He has gone awayl Everj^ing of mine he has in pawn; I'm stripped of everything! That money you brought . . . that money—I don't know how much there is, I thmk seven hundred francs are left and that's enough, that's all and what's to come—I don't know, I don't know! . . ." "How will you pay your hotel bill?" I cried in alarm; "and . . . afterwards what will you do?" He looked at me pensively, but I fancy he did not understand and perhaps did not hear what I said. I tried to speak of Polina Alexandrovna, of the children; he hurriedly answered: "Yes! yes!" but at once feU to talking of the Prince again, sa5dng tiiat Blanche would go away with him now and "then . . . then, what am I to do, Alexey Ivanovitch?" he asked, addressing me suddenly. "I vow, by God! I don't know what to do; tell me, isn't this ingratitude? Isn't this ingratitude?" Finally he dissolved into floods of tears. There was no doing anything with such a man; it would be dangerous to leave him alone, too—something might happen to him. I got rid of him somehow, but let nurse know she must look in upon him pretty frequently, and also spoke to the corridor attendant, a very sensible fellow; he, too, promised me to keep an eye on the General. I had hardly left the General when Potapitch came to summon me to Granny. It was eight o'clock and she had only just come back from the Casino after losing everj^thing. I went to her; the old lady was sitting in an armchair, utterly worn out and evidently ill. Marfa was giving her a cup of tea and almost forcing her to drink it. And Graimy's tone and voice were utterly dianged. "Good-day, Alexey Ivanovitch, my good sir," she said, bending her head slowly, and with dignity; "excuse me for troubling you once more, you must excuse an old woman. 1 have left everything behind there, my friend, nearly a hundred thousand roubles. You did well not to come with me yesterday. Now I have no money, not a farthing. I don't want to delay a moment, at half-past nine I'm setting off. I have sent to that Englishman of yours—^what's his name, Astley—I want to ask him to lend me three thousand francs for a week. So you must persuade him not to take it amiss and refuse. I am still fairly well off, my friend. I have still three villages and two houses. And there is still some money. I didn't bring it all with me. I tell you this that he may not feel any doubts . . . Ah, here he isl One can see he is a nice man." Mr. Astley had hastened to come at Granny's first summons. With no hesitation and without wasting words he promptly counted out three thousand francs for an lOU which Granny signed. When this business was settled he made haste to take his leave and go away. "And now you can go, too, Alexey Ivanovitch. I have oiJy a Httie over an hour left. I want to he down: my bones ache. Don't be hard on an old fool like me. Henceforward I won't blame yoimg people for being flighty, and it would be a sin for me now to blame that luckless fellow, your General, either. I won't give him any money, though, as he wants me to, because —to my thinking he is utterly silly; only, old fool as I am, I've no more sense than he. Verily God seeks out and punishes pride, even in old age. Well, good-bye. Marfa, lift me up!" I wanted to see Granny off, however. What's more, I was in a state of suspense; I kept expecting that in another minute something would happen. I could not sit quietly in my room. I went out into the corridor, even for a moment went for a saunter along the avenue. My letter to her had been clear and decisive and the present catastrophe was, of course, a final one. I heard in the hotel that De Grieux had left. If she rejected me as a friend, j>erhap)s she would not reject me as a servant. I was necessary to her, I was of use to her, if only to run her errands, it was boimd to be so! When the train was due to start I ran to the station and saw Granny into the train. Her whole party were together, in a special reserved compartment. "Thank you, my good friend, for your disinterested sympathy," she said, at parting from me; "and tell Praskovya, in reference to what we were discussing yesterday, I shall expect her." I went home. Passing the General's rooms I met the old nurse and inquired after the General. "Oh, he's all right, sir," she answered me dolefully. I went in, however, but stood still in positive amazement. MUe. Blanche and the General were both laughing heartily. Madame de Cominges was sitting on the sofa dose by. The General was evidently beside himself with delight. He was murmuring incoherently and going ofE into prolonged fits of nervous laughter, during which his face was puckered with innumerable wrinkles and his eyes disappeared from sight. Afterwards I learnt from Blanche herself that, having dismissed the Prince and having heard how the General was weeping, she had taken it into her head to comfort him by going to see him for a minute. But the poor General did not know that at that time his fate was decided, and that Mile. Blanche had already packed to set off for Paris by the first train next morning. Stopping in the doorway of the General's study, I changed my mind and went away unnoticed. Going up to my own room and opening the door, I suddenly noticed a figure in the half-darkness sittiag on a chair in the comer by the window. She did not get up when I went in. I went up quickly, looked, and—^my heart stood still: it was PoUna. CHAPTER XIV I POSITIVELY cried out aloud. "What is it? What is it?" she asked me strangely. She was pale cind looked gloomy. "You ask what is it? You? Here in my room!" "li 1 come, then I come tdtoigether. That's my way. You'll see that directly; light the candle." I lighted a candle. She got up, went up to the table, and put before me an open letter. "Read it," she ordered me. "It's—^it's De Grieux's handwriting," I cried, taking the letter. My hands trembled and the hues danced before my eyes. I have forgotten the exact wording of the letter, but here is the main drift of it, if not the actual words. "Mademoiselle," wrote De Grieux, "an unfortunate circumstance compels me to go away at once. You have, no doubt, observed that I have purposely avoided a final explanation with you until such time as the whole position might he cleared up. The arrival of your old relation {de la vieiUe dame) and her absurd behaviour have put sin end to my doubts. The unsettled state of my own affairs forbids me to cherish further the SAAreet hopes which I permitted myself to indulge for some time. I regret the past, but I trust that you will not detect in my behaviour anything unworthy of a gentleman and an honest man (genMhomme et hormete homme). Having lost almost all my money in loems to your stepfather, I find myself compelled to make tiie utmost use of what is left to me; I have already sent word to my friend in Petersburg to arrange at once for the sale of the estates he has mortgaged to me; knowing, however, that your frivolous stepfather has squandered your private fortune I have determined to forgive him fifty thousand francs, and I am returning him part of my claims on his property equivalent to that sum, so that you are now put in a position to regain all you have lost by demanding the property from him by legal process. I hope. Mademoiselle, that in the present position of affairs my action will be very advantageous to you. I hope, too, that by this action I am fully performing the duty of a man and a gentleman. Rest assured that your memory is imprinted upon my heart for ever." "Well, that's all clear," I said, turning to Polina; "surely you coiJd have expected nothing else," I added, with indignation. "I expected nothing," she answered, with apparent composure, though there was a tremor in her voice; "I had made up my mind long ago; I read his mind and knew what he was thinking. He thought that I was trying—^that I should insist ..." (She broke off without finishing her sentence, bit her lips emd was silent.) "I purposely doubled my scorn towards him," she began again. "I waited to see what was coming from him. If a telegram had come telling of the inheritance I'd have flung him the money borrowed from that idiot, my stepfather, and would have sent him about his business. He has been hateful to me for ages and ages. Oh! he was not the same man! a thousand times over, I tell you, he was different 1 but now, now . . . Oh, with what happiness I could fling that fifty thousand in his nasty face and spit and stamp ..." "But the security, the lOU for that fifty thousand, is in the General's hands. Take it and return it to De Grieux." "Oh, that's not the same thing, that's not the same thing ..." "Yes, that's true, it's not the same thing. Besides, what is the General capable of now? And Granny!" I cried suddenly. Polina looked at me, as it were absent-mindedly and impatiently. ^^ "Why Granny?" asked Polina, with vexation. "I can't go to her . . . And I don't want to ask anyone's pardon," she added irritably. "What's to be done!" I cried, "and how, oh, how could you love De Grieux! Oh, the scoundrel, the scoundrel! If you like I will kill him in a duel 1 Where is he now?" "He's at Frankfurt, and will be there three days." "One word from you and I'll set off to-morrow by the first train," I said, with stupid enthusiasm. She laughed. "Why, he'll say, maybe: 'Give me back the fifty thousand francs first.' Besides, what should you fight him for? . . . What nonsense it is!" "But where, where is one to get that fifty thousand francs?" I repeated, grinding my teeth as though it had been possible to pick them up from the floor. "I say—Mr. Astley," I suggested, turning to her with a strange idea dawning upon me. Her eyes flashed. "What, do you mean to say you yoturself want me to turn from you to that Englishman!" she said, looking in my face with a searching glance and smiling bitterly. For the first time in her life she addressed me in the second person singular. I beUeve she was giddy with emotion at the moment, and all at once she sat down on the sofa as though she were exhausted. It was as though I had been struck by a flash of Ughtning.. I stood up and could not believe my eyes, could not believe my ears! Why, then she loved me! She had come to me and not to Mr. Astley! She, she, a yoimg girl, had come to my room in a hotel, so she had utterly compromised herself by her own act, and I, I was standing before her and still did not understand. One wild idea flashed through my mind. "Polina, give me only one hour. Stay here only one hour and . . . I'U come back. That's . . . that's essential! You shall see! Be here, be here!" And I ran out of the room, not responding to her amazed and questioning look; she called something after me but I did not turn back. Sometimes the wildest idea, the most apparently impossible thought, takes possession of one's mind so strongly that one accepts it at last as something substantial . . . more than that, if the idea is associated with a strong passionate desire, then sometimes one will accept it at last as something fated, inevit- able, predestined—as something bound to be, and bound to happen. Perhaps there is something else in it, some combination of presentiments, some extraordinary efiort of will, self-poisoning by one's own fancy—or something else—I don't know what, but on that evening (which I shall never in my life forget) something marvellous happened to me. Though it is quite justified by the laws of arithmetic, nevertheless it is a marvel to me to this day. And why, why had that conviction so long before taken such firm and deep root in my mind? J had certainly thought about it—I repeat—^not as a chance among others which might or might not come to pass, but as something which was absolutely bound to happen! It was a quarter-past ten. I went into the Casino with a confident expectation and at the same time with an excitement I had never experienced before. There were still a good many people in the gambling hall, though not half as many as in the morning. Between ten and eleven there are still to be found in the gambling halls the genuine desperate gamblers for whom nothing exists at a spa but roulette, who have come for that alone, who scarcely notice what is going on around them and take no interest in anything during the whole season, but play from morning till night and would be ready perhaps to play all night till dawn, too, if it were possible, ^d they always disperse with annoyance when at twelve o'clock the roulette hall is closed. And when the senior croupier announces, just before midnight: "Les trois derniers ccHfps, messieurs," they are ready to stake on those last three strokes all they have in their pockets—and do, in fact, lose most at that time. I went up to the very table where Granny had sat that day. It was not crowded, and so I soon took my place at the table standing. Exactly before me was the word "Passe" scrawled on the green cloth. "Passe" is the series of numbers from nineteen inclusive to thirty-six. The first series of numbers from one to eighteen inclusive is called "Manque"; but what was that to me? I was not calculating, I had not even heard what had been the winning niunber last, and I did not ask about it when I began to play—as every player of any prudence would do. I pulled out all my twenty friedrichs d'or and staked them on "passe", the word which lay before me. "Vingt deux," cried the croupier. lOI I had won and a^n staked all, including my winnings. "Trente et un," cried the croupier. I had won again. I had in all eighty friedrichs d'or. I staked the whole of that sum on the twelve middle numbers (my winnings would be three to one, but the chances were two to one against me.) The wheel rotated and stopped at twenty-four. I was passed three rolls each of fifty friedrichs d'or in paper and ten gold coins; I had now two hundred friedrichs d'or. I was cis though in delirium and I moved the whole heap of gold to red—and suddenly thought better of it. And for the only time that whole evening, all the time I was playing, I felt chilled with terror and a shudder made my arms and legs tremble. I felt with horror and instantly realised what losing would mean for me now! My whole life was at stake. "Rouge," cried the croupier, and I drew a breath; fiery pins and needles were tingling all over my body. I was paid in bank-notes. It came to four thousand florins and eighty friedrichs d'or (I could still keep count at that stage). Then, I remember, I staked two thousand florins on the twelve middle numbers, and lost: I staked my gold, the eighty friedrichs d'or, and lost. I was seized with fury: I snatched up the two thousand florins I had left and staked them on the first twelve numbers—^haphazard, at random, without thinking ! There was, however, an instant of suspense, like, perhaps, the feeling experienced by Madame Blandiard when she flew from a balloon in Paris to the earth. "Quatrel" cried the croupier. Now with my stake I had six thousand florins. I looked triimiphant already. I was afraid of nothing—^nothing, and staked four thousand florins on black. Nine people followed my example and staked on black. The croupiers exchanged glances and said something to one another. People were talking all round in suspense. Black won. I don't remember my wiimings after, nor what I staked on. I only remember as though in a dream that I won, I believe, sixteen thousand florins; suddenly three unlucky turns took twelve thousand from it; then I staked the last four thousand on "passe" (but I scarcely felt anything as I did so; I simply waited in a mechanical, senseless way)—and again I won; then I won four times running. I only remember that I gathered up money in thousands; I remember, too, that the middle twelve won most often and I kept to it. It turned up with a sort of regularity, certainly three or four times in succession, then it did not turn up twice running and then it followed three or four times in succession. Such astonishing regulajity is sometimes met with in streaks, and that is what throws inveterate gamblers who calculate with a pencil in their hands out of their reckoning. And what horrible ironies of fate happen sometimes in such cases! I beUeve not more than half an hour had passed since I came into the room, when suddenly the croupier informed me that I had won thirty thousand florins, and as the bank did not meet claims for a larger sum at one time the roulette would be closed tiU next morning. I snatched up aU my gold, dropped it into my pockets, snatched up all my notes, and at once went into, the other room where there was another roulette table; the whole crowd streamed after me; there at once a place was cleared for me and I fell to staking again haphazard without reckoning. I don't understand what saved me! At times, however, a glimmer of prudence began to dawn upon my mind. I clung to certain numbers and combinations, but soon abandoned them and staked almost unconsciously. I must have been very absent-minded; I remember the croupiers several times corrected me. I made several gross mistakes. My temples were soaked with sweat and my hands were shaking. The Poles ran up, too, with offers of theij services, but I listened to no one. My luck was unbroken! Suddenly there were sounds of loud talk and laughter, and everyone cried "Bravo, bravo!" some even clapped their hands. Here, too, I collected thirty thousand florins, and the bank closed till next day. "Go away, go away," a voice whispered on my right. It was a Frankfurt Jew; he was standing beside me all the time, and I believe sometimes helped me in my play. "For goodhess' sake go," another voice whispered in my left ear. I took a hurried glance. It was a lady about thirty, very soberly and quietly dressed, with a tired, pale, sickly face which yet bore traces of having once been beautiful. At that moment I was stuffing my pockets with the notes, which I crumpled up anyhow, and gathering up the gold that lay on the table. Snatching up the last roll of notes, I succeeded in putting it into the pale lady's hands quite without attracting notice; I had an intense desire to do so at the time, and I remember her pale slim fingers pressed my hand warmly in token of gratitude. All that took place in one instant. Having collected quickly all my winnings I went quickly to the trente et quarante. Trente et quarante is frequented by the aristocratic public. Unlike roulette, it is a game of cards. Here the bank will pay up to a hundred thousand thalers at once. The largest stake is here also four thousand florins. I knew nothing of the game, and scarcely knew how to bet on it, except the red and the black, upon which one can bet in this game too. And I stuck to red and black. The whole Casino crowded round. I don't remember whether I once thought of Polina all this time. I was experiencing an overwhelming enjoyment in scooping up • and taking away the notes which grew up in a heap before me. It seemed as though fate were urging me on. This time, as luck would have it, a circumstance occurred which, however, is fairly frequent in the game. Chance favours red, for instance, ten or even fifteen times in succession. I had heard two days before that in the previous week red had turned up twenty-two times in succession; it was something which had never been remembered in roulette, and it was talked of with amazement. Everyone, of course, abandoned red at once, and after the tenth time, for instance, scarcely anyone dared to stake on it. But none of the experienced players staked on black either. The experienced gambler knows what is mccint hy this "freak of chance". It would mean that after red had won sixteen times, at the seventeenth time the luck would infallibly fall on black. Novices at play rush to this conclusion in crowds, double and treble their stakes, and lose terribly. But, noticing that red had turned up seven times running, by strange perversity I staked on it. I am convinced that vanity was half responsible for it; I wanted to impress the spectators by taking a mad risk, and—oh, the strange sensation—I remember distinctiy that, quite apart from the promptings of vanity, I was possessed by an intense craving for risk. Perhaps passing through so many sensations my soul was not satisfied but only irritated by them and craved still more sensation—and stronger and stronger ones—^till utterly exhausted. And, truly I am not lying, if the regulations had allowed me to stake fifty thousand florins at once, I should certainly have staked them. People around shouted that it was madness— that red had won fourteen times already I "Monsieur a gagni dijd cent mille florins," I heard a voice say near me. I suddenly came to myself. What? I had won during that evening a hundred thousand florins! And what more did I want? I fell on my banknotes, crumpled them up in my pockets without counting them, scooped up all my gold, all my rolls of notes, and ran out of the Casino. Everyone was laughing as I went through the room, looking at my bulging pockets and at the way I staggered under the weight of gold. I think it weighed over twenty poimds. Several hands were held out to me; I gave it away in handfuls as I snatched it up. Two Jews stopped me at the outer door. "You are bold—ryou are very bold," they said to me, "but be sure to go away to-morrow as soon as possible, or else you will lose it all—you wiU lose it aU . . ." I didn't listen to them. The avenue was so dark that I could not see my hand before my face. It was half a mile to the hotel. I had never been afraid of thieves or robbers even as a small boy; I did not think of them now either. I don't remember what I thought of on the road; I had no thoughts. I was only aware of an immense enjojmient—success, victory, power— I don't know how to express it. Polina's image hovered before my mind too; I remembered her and was conscious I was going to her; I should be with her in a moment, should be telling her and showing her . . . But I hardly remembered what she had said to me earUer, and why I had gone, and all the sensations I had felt, not more than an hour and a half before, seemed to me something long past, transformed, grown old—something of which we ^ould say no more because everything now would begin anew. Almost at the end of the avenue a sudden panic came upon me. What if I were robbed and murdered at this instant? At every step my panic grew greater. I almost ran. Suddenly, at the end of the avenue there was the glare of our hotel with its many windows lighted up— thai± God, home! I ran up to my storey and rapidly opened the door. Polina was there, sitting on the sofa with her arms crossed, with .a lighted candle before her. She looked at me with amazement, and no doubt at that moment I must have looked rather strange. I stood before her and began flinging down all my piles of money on the table. CHAPTER XV I REMEMBER she fixed a very intent look on my face, but without even moving from her seat or changing her position. "I've won two hundred thousand francs!" I cried, as I flung down the last roll of notes. The huge bundles of notes and piles of gold filled up the whole table; I could not take my eyes off it. At moments I completely forgot Polina. At one moment I began arranging the heap of banknotes, folding them up together, at the next I began undoing the rolls of gold and heaping them up in one pile; then I abandoned it all and strode rapidly up and down the room, lost in thought, then went up to the table, counting the money again. Suddenly, as though coming to myself, I ran to the door and locked it with two turns of the key. Then I stood pondering before my Uttle portmanteau. "Shall I put it in the portmanteau till to-morrow?" I said, suddenly remembering Polina and turning towards her. She was still sitting in the same place without stirring, but watching me attentively. Her expression was somehow strange; I did not like that expression. I am not mistaken if I say that there was hatred in it. I went up to her quickly. "Polina, here are twenty-five thousand florins—that's fifty thousand francs—^more, in fact. Take it, throw it in his face to-morrow." She did not answer me. "If you like I will take you away early in the morning. Shall I?" She suddenly burst out laughing. She laughed for a long time. I looked at her with wonder and a mortified feeling. That laugh was very much like sarcastic laughter at my expense, which had always been so frequent at the times of my most passionate declarations. At last she ceased laughing and frowned; she looked at me sternly from under her brows. "I won't take your money," she declared contemptuously. "How? What's this?" I cried. "Polina, why?" "I won't take money for nothing." "I offer it you as a friend; I offer you my life." She looked at me with a long, penetrating look, as though she would pierce me through with it. "You give too much," she said, with a laugh; "De Grieux's mistress is not worth fifty thousand francs." "Polina, how can you talk to me hke that!" I cried, reproachfully. "Am I a De Grieux?" "I hate you 1 Yes . . . yes! . . . I love you no more than De Grieux," she cried, her eyes suddenly flashing. Then she suddenly covered her face with her hands and went into hysterics. I rushed to her. I realised that something had happened to her while I was away. She seemed quite out of her mind. "Buy me! Do you want to? Do you want to? For fifty thousand francs, like De Grieux?" broke from her with convulsive sobs. I held her in my arms, kissed her hands, her feet, fell on my knees before her. Her hysterics passed off. She put both hands on my shoulders, and looked at me intently; she seemed trying to read something in my face. She Ustened to me, but evidently did not heeir what I was saymg, to her. Some doubt and anxiety betrayed itself in her face. I was anxious about her; it seemed to me that her brain was giving way. Then she began softly drawing me to her; a trustful smile began stra5/ing over her face; but she suddenly pushed me away, and again fell to scanning me with a darkened look. Suddenly she feU to embracing me. "You love me, you love me, don't you?" she said. "Why, you . . . why, you . . . wanted to fight the Baron for my sake!" And suddenly she burst out laughing—as though she had recalled something sweet and funny. She cried and laughed all at once. Well, what was I to do? I was in a fever myself. I remember she began sajdng something to me—^but I could scarcely understand anj^thing. It was a sort of delirium—a sort of babble-^as though she wanted to tell me something as rapidly as possible—a delirium which was interrupted from time to time with the merriest laughter, which at last frightened me. "No, no; you are sweet, sweet," she repeated. "You are my faithful one!" And again she put her hand on my shoulders, again she looked at me and repeated, "You love me . . . love me . . . will love me?" I could not take my eyes off her; I had never seen her before in such a mood of love and tenderness; it is true this, of course, was delirium, but , . . noticing my passionate expression, she suddenly began smiling slyly; apropos of nothing she began suddenly talking of Mr. Astley. She talked incessantly of Mr. Astley, however (she talked of him particularly when she had been trjdng to tell me of something that evening), but what she meant exactly I could not quite grasp; she seemed to be actually laughing at him. She repeated continually that he was waiting and that, did I know, he was certainly standing under the window? "Yes, yes, under the window; come, open it: look out: look out: he certainly is here!" She pushed me to the window, but as soon as I made a movement to go she went off into p>eals of laughter and I remained with her, and she fell to embracing me. "Shall we go away? shall we go away to-morrow?" The question suddenly came into her mind imeasily. "Well ..." (and she sank into thought). "Well, shall we overtake Granny; what do you think? I think we might overtake her at Berlin. What do you think she will say when she sees us? And Mr. Astley? . . . Well, he won't leap off the Schlangenberg—^what do you think?" (She burst out laughing.) "Come, listen, do you know where he is going next summer? He wants to go to the North Pole for scientific investigations, and he has adced me to go with him, ha-ha-ha I He says that we Russians can do nothing without Europeans and are incapable of anything. . . . But he is good-natured, too! Do you know he makes excuses for the General? He says that Blanche . . . that passion—oh, I don't know, I don't know," she repeated, as though she didn't know what she was talldng about. "They are poor—^how sorry I am for them, and Gnumy . . . Come, listen, listen, how could you kill De Grieux? And did you really imagine you could kill him? Oh, silly fellow! Can you really thiiik I would let you fight with De Grieux? Why, you did not even kill the Baron," she added, suddenly laughmg. "Oh, how funny you were then with the Baron. I looked at you both from the seat; and how unwiUing you were to go then, when I sent you. How I laughed then, how I laughed," she added, laughing. And suddenly she kissed and embraced me again. Again she pressed her face to mine passionately and tenderly. I heard nothing and thought of nothing more. My head was in a whirl . . . I think it was about seven o'clock in the morning when I woke up. The sun was shining into the room. Polina was sitting beside me and looking about her strangely, as though she were waiving from some darkness and trying to collect her thoughts. She, too, had only just woken up and was gazing, at the table and the money. My head ached and was heavy. I tried to take Polina by tiie hand: she pushed me away and jumped up from the sofa. The dawning day was overcast. Rain had fallen before sunrise. She went to the window, she opened it, put out her head and shoulders and with her face in her hands and her elbows on the window-sill, stayed for three minutes looking out without turning to me or hearing what I said to her. I wondered with dread what would happen now and how it would end. All at once she got up from the window, went up to the table and, looking at me with infinite hatred, with lips trembling with anger, she said to me: "Well, give me my fifty thousand francs now!" "Polina, again, again?" I was beginning. "Or have you changed your mind? Ha-ha-ha! Perhaps you regret it now." Twenty-five thousand florins, counted out the evening before, were lying on the table; I took the money and gave it to her. "It's mine now, isn't it? That's so, isn't it? Isn't it?" she asked me, spitefully holding the money in her hand. "Yes, it was always yours," I answered. "WeU, there are your fifty thousand francs for you I" With a swing of her arm she flung the money at me. It hit me a stinging blow in the face and the coins flew all over the table. After doing this Polina ran out of the room. I know that at that njoment she was certainly not in her right mind, though I don't understand such temporary insanity. It is true that she is still ill, even now, a month later. What was the cause of her condition, and, above all, of this whim? Was it wounded pride? Despair at having brought herself to come to me? Had I shown any sign of priding myself on my happiness, and did I, like De Grieux, want to get rid of her by giving her fifty thousand francs? But that was not so; I know Siat, on my conscience. I believe that her vanity was partly responsible; her vanity prompted her to distrust and insult me, although all that, perhaps, was not clear, even to herself. In that case, of course, I was punished for De Grieux and was made responsible, though I was not much to blame. It is true that all this was almost only dehrium; it is true, too, that I knew she was in delirium and , . . did not take that fact into consideration; perhaps she cannot forgive me for that now. Yes, but that is now; but then, then? Why, she was not in such a delirium and so ill then as to be utterly obhvious of what she was doing; when she came to me with De Grieux's letter she knew what she was doing. I made haste to thrust all my notes and my heap of gold into the bed, covered it over and went out ten minutes after Polina. I made sure she would run home, and I thought I would slip into them on the sly, and in the hall ask the nurse how the young lady was. What was my astonishment when I learnt from nurse, whom I met on the stairs, that Polina had not yet returned home and that nurse was coming to me for her. "She only just left my room about ten minutes ago; where can she have gone?" Nurse looked at me reproachfully. And meanwhile it had caused a regular scandal, which by now was all over the hotel. In the porter's room and at the ober-kellner's it was whispered that Fraiilein had run out of the hotel in the rain at six o'clock in the morning in the direction of the H6tel d'Angleteire. From what they said and hinted, I noticed that they all knew already that she had spent the night in my room. However, stories were being told of the whole family: it had become known all through the hotel that the General had gone out of his mind and was crying. The story was that Granny was his mother, who had come expressly from Russia to prevent her son's marriage with Mile, de Cominges, and was going to cut him out of her will if he disobeyed her, and, as he certainly would disobey her, the Countess had purposely thrown away all her money at roulette before his eyes, so that he should get nothing. "Diese Russen!" repeated the ober-kellner, shaking his head indignantly. The others laughed. The ober-kellne>r was making out his bill. My winning was known about already. Karl, my corridor attendant, was the first to congratulate me. But I had no thought for any of them. 1 rushed to the H6tel d'Angleterre. It was early; Mr. Astley was seeing no one; learning that it was I, he came out into the corridor to me and stopped before me, turning his pewtery eyes upon me in silence, waiting to hear what I.should say. I inquired about Polina. "She is ill," answered Mr. Astley, looking at me as fixedly as before. no "Then she really is with you?" "Yes, she is." "Then, what do you ... do you mean to keep her?" "Yes." "Mr. Astley, it will make a scandal; it's impossible. Besides, she is quite ill; perhaps you don't see it?" "Oh, yes, I notice it, and I've just told you she is ill. If she had not been ill she would not have spent the night with you." "Then you know that?" "Yes, I know it. She came here yesterday and I would have taken her to a relation of mine, but as she was ill, she made a mistake and went to you." "Fancy that! Well, I congratulate you, Mr. Astley. By the way, you've given me an idea: weren't you standing all night under our window? Miss Polina was making me open the window and look out all night to see whether you were standing under the window; she kept laughing about it." "Really? No, I didn't stand under the window; but I was waiting in the corridor and walking round." "But she must be looked after, Mr. Astley." "Oh, yes, I've sent for the doctor, smd, if she dies, you will answer to me for her death." I was amazed. "Upon my word, Mr. Astley, what do you want?" "And is it true liat you won two hundred thousand thalers yesterday?" "Only a hundred thouscind florins." "Weil, do you see, you had better go off to Paris this morning!" "What for?" "All Russians who have money go to Paris," Mr. Astley explained, in a tone of voice as though he had read this in a book. "What could I do now in Paris, in the summer? I love her, Mr. Astley, you know it yourself." "Really? I am convinced you don't. If you remain here you will certainly lose all you have won and you will have nothing left to go to Paris with. But, good-bye, I am perfectly certain you will go to Paris to-day." "Vety well, good-bye, only I shan't go to Paris. Think, Mr. Astley, what will be happening here? The General . . . and now this adventure with Miss Polina—why, that will be all over the town." "Yes, all over the town; I believe the General is not thinking about that: he has no thoughts to spare for that. Besides, Miss Polina has a perfect right to live where she likes. In regard to that family, one may say quite correctly that the family no longer exists." I walked away laughing at this Englishman's strange conviction that I was going to Paris. "He wants to shoot me in a duel, though," I thought, "if Mile. Polina dies—what a complication 1" I swear I was sorry for Polina, but, strange to say, from the very moment when I reached the gambling tables the previous evening and began winning a pile of money, my love had retreated, so to speak, into the background. I say this now; but at the time I did not reaHse all this clearly. Can I really be a gambler? Can I really . . . have loved Polina so , strangely? No, I love her to this day. God is my witness! , And then, when I left Mr. Astley and went home, I was * genuinely miserable and blaming myself. But ... at this point a very strange and silly thing happened to me. I was hurrying to see the General, when suddenly, not far from his rooms, a door was opened and someone called me. It was Madame la veuve Cominges, and she called me at the bidding of Mile. Blanche. I went in to see Mile. Blanche. They had a small suite of apartments, consisting of two rooms. I could hear Mile. Blanche laugh and call out from the bedroom. She was getting up. "A, c'est ltd! Viens done, bete! Is it true, que tu as gagne une montagne d'or et d'atrgent? J'aimerais mieux Vor." "Yes, I did win," I answered, laughing. "How much?" "A hundred thousand florins." "Bihi, comme tu es bete. Why, come in here. I can't hear anything. Nous ferans bombcmce, n'est ce pas?" I went in to her. She was lying under a pink satin quilt, above which her robust, swarthy, wonderfully swarthy, shoulders were visible, shoulders such as one only sees in one's dreams, covered to some extent by a batiste nightgown bordered with white lace which was wonderfully becoming to her dark skin. "Mon fits, as-tu dm coew?" she cried, seeing me, and burst out laughing. She laughed very good-humouredly, and sometimes quite genuinely. "Tout autre," I began, paraphrasing Comeille. "Here you see, vots-ki," she began babbling; "to begin with, find my stockings, help me to put them on; and then, si tu n'es pas trop bete, je te prends d, Paris. You know I am just going." "Just going?" "In half an hour." All her things were indeed packed. All her portmanteaux and things were ready. Coffee had been served some time before. "Eh bient, if you like, Ut verras Paris. Dis dcmc qu'est ce que c'est qu'tm outchitel? Tu ettds bien bete, qtumd tu etcds outchitel. Where are my stockings? Put them on for me!" She thrust out some positively fascinating feet, little dark-skinned feet, not in the least misshapen, as feet that look so small in shoes always are. I laughed and began drawing her silk stockings on for her. Meanwhile Mile. Blanche sat up in bed, pratthng away. "Eh bien, que feras-tu, si je te prends avec? To begin with, I want fifty thousand francs. You'll give them to me at Frankfurt. Nous allons a Paris: there we'll play together: et je te jerai voir des etoiles en plein jour. You will see women such as you have never seen before. Listen ..." "Wait a minute—if I give you fifty thousand francs, what will be left for me?" "Et cent cunqumde mille francs, you have forgotten: and what's more, I consent to live with you a month, two months: qiie scns-je! In those two months we shall certainly get through tiiat hundred and fifty thousand francs, you see, je suis botme enfant, and I tell you beforehand, mais tu verras des etoiles." "What! all in two months!" "Why! does that horrify you? Ah, vil esclave! But, do you know? one month of such a life is worth your whole existence. One month— et apres le deluge! Mais tu ne peux comprendre; va! Go along, go along, you are not worth it! Aie, que fads tu?" At that moment I was putting a stocking on the other leg, but could not resist kissing it. She pulled it away and began hitting me on the head with the tip of her foot. At last, she turned me out altogether. "Et bien! nwn outchitel, je f attends, si tu veux; I am starting in a quarter of an hour!" she called after me. On returning home I felt as though my head were going round. Well, it was not my fault that Mile. Polina had thrown the whole pile of money in my face, and had even yesterday preferred Mr. Astley to me. Some of the banknotes that had been scattered about were still lying on the floor; I picked them up. At that moment the door opened and the ober-keU^ter himself made his appearance (he had never deigned to look into my room before) with a suggestion that I might like to move downstairs to a magnificent suite of apartments which had just been vacated by Count V. I stood still and thought a little. "My bill—I am just leaving, in ten minutes," I cried. "If it's to be Paris, let it be Paris," I thought to myself; "it seems it was fated at my birth!" A quarter of an hour later we were actually sitting in a reserved compartment. Mile. Blanche, Madame la veuve Cominges and I. Mile. Blanche, looking at me, laughed till she was almost hysterical. Madame de Cominges followed suit; I cannot say that I felt cheerful. My life had broken in two, but since the previous day I had grown used to staking everything on a card. Perhaps it is reaJly the truth that my sudden wealth was too much for me and had turned my head. Peut-etre, je ne demmidcds pas mieux. It seemed to me for a time— but only for a time, the scenes were shifted. "But in a month I shall be here, and then . . . and then we will try our strength, Mr. Astley!" No, as I recall it now, I was awfully sad then, though I did laugh as loudly as that idiot, Blanche. "But what is the matter with you? How silly you are! Oh! how silly you are!" Blanche kept exclaiming, interrupting her laughter to scold me in earnest. "Oh well, oh well, we'U spend your two hundred thousand francs: but in exchange mcds t seras heweux comme im petit foi; I will tie your cravat myself and introduce you to Hortense. And when we have spent all our money, you will come back here cind break the Ixmk again. What did the Jews tell you? The great thing is— boldness, and you have it, and you will bring me money to Paris more than once again. Qunmt a moi, je veux cmqwmte miUe francs de rentes 06 aHws . . ." "And the General?" I asked her. "Why, the General, as you know, comes to see me every day with a bouquet. This time I purposely asked him to get me some very rare flowers. The poor fellow will come back and will find the bird has flown. He'll fly after us, you will see. Ha-ha-ha! I shall be awfully pleased to see him. He'll be of use to me in Paris; Mr. Astley will pay his bill here. . . ." And so that was the way in which I went to Paris. CHAPTER XVI WHAT shall I say about Paris? It was madness, of course, and foolery. I only spent a little over three weeks in Paris, and by the end of that time my hundred thousand francs was finished. I speak only of a hundred thousand. The other hundred thousand I gave to Mile. Blanche in hard cash—^fifty thousand at Frankfurt and three days later in Paris I gave her an lOU for another fifty thousand francs, though a week later she exchanged this for cash from me. "Et les cent miU& frimes, qui nous restent, tu les tnamgeras av0c moi, man ouichitel." She always called me an outchitel, i.e., a tutor. It is difficult to imagine anything in the world meaner, stingier and more niggardly than the class of creaures to which MUe. Blanche belonged. But that was in the spending of her own money. As regards my hundred thousand francs, she openly informed me, later on, that she needed them to establish herself in Paris, "as now I am going to settle in decent style once for all, and now no one shall turn me aside for a long time; at least, that is my plan," she added. I hardly saw that hundred thousand, however; she kept the money the whole time, and in my purse, into which she looked every day, there was never more than a hundred francs, and always less and less. "What do you want money for?" she would say, sometimes, in the simplest way, and I did not dispute with her. But she furnished and decorated her flat very nicely with that money, and afterwards, when she took me to her new abode, as she showed me the rooms, she said: "You see what care and taste can do even with the scantiest means." These "scanty means" amounted to fifty thousand francs, however. With the second fifty thousand she provided herself with a carriage and horses. Moreover, we gave two balls, that is, two evening parties at which were present Hortense, Lizette and Cleopatra, women remarkable in very many respects and even quite good-looking. At those two evenings I had to play the very foolish part of host, to receive and entertain the stupidest rich tradesmen, incredibly ignorant and shameless, various army lieutenants and miserable little authors and journalistic insects, who appeared in the most fashionable swallow-tails and straw-coloured gloves, and displayed a vanity and affectation whose proportions were beyond anything conceivable in Petersburg—and that is saying a great deal. Many of them thought fit to jeer at me; but I got drunk with champagne and lolled at full length in a back room. To me it was all loathsome to the last degree. "C'esi im outchiDel," Blanche kept saying about me, "ii a gagnd deux ceni milh francs. Without me he wouldn't have known how to spend it. And afterwards he will be an ot^chitel again; don't you know of a place for one? we ought to do something for him." I had recourse to champagne very often, because I was often sad and dreadfully bored. I lived in the most bourgeois, in the most mercenary surroundings in which every sowi was reckoned and accounted for. Blanche disliked me for the first fortnight: I noticed that; it is true, she dressed me like a dandy, and tied my cravat for me every day, but in her soul she genuinely despised me. I did not pay the slightest attention to that. Bored and dispirited, I used to go usually to the Chateau de Fleurs, where regularly every evening I got drunk and practised the cancan (which they dance so disgustingly there), and acquired in the end a kind of celebrity. At last Blanche gauged my true character. She had for some reason conceived tiie idea that I should spend all the time we were together walking after her with a pencil and paper in my hand, and should always be reckoning how much she had spent, how much she had stolen, how much she would spend and how much more she would steal. And she was, of course, convinced that we should have a regular battle over every ten-franc piece. She had an answer in readiness for every attack that she anticipated from me; but when she found I did not attack her, she could not at first refrain from defending herself, unprovoked. Sometimes she would begin with great heat, but seeing that I remained silent as a rule, l5^ng on a sofa gazing at the ceiling— at last, she was surprised. At first she thought I was simply stupid, "ttn omtcMtcL", and merely cut short her explanations, probably thinking to herself: "\VTiy, he's a fool. There's no need to lay it on for him, since he doesn't understand." She would go away but come back again ten minutes later (this happened at a time when she was spending most ferociously, spending on a scale quite out of proportion to our means: she had, for instance, got rid of the horses first bought and bought another pair for sixteen thousand francs). "Well, so you are not cross, bibi?" she said, coming up to me. "N—n—n—no I You weary mel" I said, removing her hands from me, but this seemed to her so curious that she immediately sat down beside me. "You see, I only decided to pay so much because they could be sold later on if need be. They can be sold again for twenty thousand francs." "No doubt, no doubt; they are splendid horses, and you have a fine turn-out now; it suits you; well, that's enough." "Then you are not cross?" "Why should I be? You are sensible to provide yourself with things that are necessary to you. All that will be of use to you afterwards. I see that it is quite necessary for you to estabUsh yourself in such a style; otherwise you will never save up your miUion. Our hundred thousand francs is only a beginning; a drop in the ocean." Blanche had expected from me anj^thing but such reflections (instead of outcries and reproaches). She seemed to drop from the clouds. "So that's what you are like! Mais tu as Vesprit pow com-prendre. Sais-tu, man gargon, though you are an outcMtel you ought to have been bom a prince. So you don't grudge the money's going so quickly?" "Bother the money! the quicker the better!" "Mais sais-tw . . . mais dis done, are you rich? Mais sais-tu. you really despise money too much. Qu'est ce que tu feras cupres, dis dionc?" "Apres, I shall go to Homburg and win another hundred thousand francs." "Old, om, c'est ga, c'esi magnifique! And I know you will certainly win it and bring it here. Dis done, why you will make me reaUy love you. Eh hien, I will love you all the time for being like that, and won't once be unfaithful to you. You see, I have not loved you all this time, parceque je croyais que tu n'etais qu'um outchitel [quelque chose comnne wn luquais, n'est-ce pas?), but I have been faithful to you aU the same, parceque je suis bonne fille." "Come, you are Ij^ing! How about Albert, that swarthy-faced little officer; do you suppose I didn't see last time?" "Oh, oh, mais tu es . . ." "Come, you are \yya%, you are lying; why, do you suppose I should be angry? Why, it's no matter; il faut que la jetmesse se passe. And there's no need for you to send him away if you had him before me and are fond of him. Only don't give him money, do you hear?" "So you are not angry about it? Mods tu es tm vrai phih-sophe, scds-tu? Un vrcd philosophe!" she cried enthusiastically. "Eh hiem! je fmmertd, je t'aimerai — tu verras, tu seras comiemi!" And from that time she really did seem to be attached to me, to be really affectionate; and so our last ten days passed. The "stars" promised me I did not see. But in some respects she really did keep her word. What is more, she introduced me to Hortense, who really was a remarkable woman in her own way, and in our circle was called Therese philosophe . . . However, there is no need to enlarge upon that; all that might make a separate story, in a different tone, which I do not want to introduce into this story. The fact is, I longed above everything for this episode to be over. But our himdred thousand francs lasted, as I have mentioned already, almost a month— at which I was genuinely surprised; eighty thousand of that, at least, Blanche spent on things for herself, and we lived on no more than twenty thousand francs—and yet it was enough. Blanche, who was in the end almost open with me (or, at any rate, did not lie to me about some things), declared tint, anyway, the debts she had been obliged to make would not fall upon me: "I have never given you bills or lOUs to sign," she said, "because I was sorry for you; but any other girl would have certainly done it and got you into prison. You see, you see how I loved you and how good I am I Think of what that devil of a wedding alone is going to cost me 1" We really were going to have a wedding. It took place at the very end of my month, and it may be assumed that the last remains of my hundred thousand francs went upon it; that was how the thing ended; that is, my month ended with that, and after it I received my formal dismissal. This was how it happened: a week after our arrival in Paris the General suddenly turned up. He came straight to Blanche, and from his first call almost Uved with us. He had a lodging of his own, it is true. Blanche received him J057fully, with shrieks of laughter, and even flew to embrace him; as things had turned out, she was unwilling to let him go: and he had to follow her about everywhere, on the boulevards, and to the theatres, and to call on her acquaintances, and to take her for drives. The General was still of use for such purposes; he was of rather imposing and decorous appearance—he was above the average in height, with dyed whiskers and moustaches (he had once served in the Cuirassiers); he was still presentable-looking, though his face was puffy. His manners were superb; he looked well in evening dress. In Paris he began wearing his decorations. The promenade on the boulevard with a man like this was not only possible, but advaniageous. The good-natured and senseless General was immensely delighted with all this; he had not reckoned upon it at all when he came to see us on arriving in Paris. He had come, then, almost trembling with terror; he was afraid that Blanche would make an uproar and order him to be turned out; and so he was highly delighted at the changed aspect of the position, and spent the whole month in a sort of senseless rapture: and he was in the same state when I left him. I learnt that on the morning of our sudden departure from Roulettenburg he had some sort of a fit. He had fallen insensible, and had been cill that week almost like a madman, talking incessantly. He was being nursed and doctored, but he suddenly threw up everything, got into the train and flew off to Paris. Of course, Blanche's reception was the best cure for him; but the traces of his illness remained long after, in spate of his joy and his enthusiastic condition. He was utterly incapable of reflection or even of carrying on a conversation on any serious subject; when any such topic was brought forward, he confined himself to nodding his head and ejaculating, "H'm!" at every word. He often laughed, but it was a nervous, sickly laugh, as though he were giggling; another time he would sit for hours looking as black as night, knitting his bushy brows. Of many things he had no recollection whatever; he had become absent-minded to an unseemly degree, and had acquired the habit of talking to himself. Blanche was the only person who could rouse him; and, indeed, his attacks of gloom and 4epression, when he hid himself in a comer, meant nothing but that he hadn't seen Blanche for a long time, or that Blanche had gone off somewhere without taking him, or had not been nice to him before going. At the same time he could not say what he wanted, and did not know why he was depressed and miserable. After sitting for two or three hours (I noticed this on two or three occasions when Blanche had gone out for the whole day, probably to see Albert), he would suddenly begin to look about him in a nervous fluster, to stare round, to recollect himself, and seem to be looking for something; but seeing no one and not remembering the question he meant to ask, he sank into forgetfulness again till Blanche reappeared, gay, frisky, gorgeously dressed, with her ringing laugh; she would run up to him, beging teasing him, and even kissing him—a Tig favour which she did not often, however, bestow upon him. Once the General was so delighted to see her that he even burst into tears—rl really marvelled at him. From the very first, Blanche began to plead his cause before me. Indeed, she waxed eloquent in his behalf; reminded me that she had betrayed the General for my sake, that she was almost engaged to him, had given him her word; that he had abandoned his family on her account, and, lastly, that I had been in his service and ought to remember that, and that I ought to be ashamed ... I said nothing while she rattled away at a terrific pax:e. At last I laughed: and with that the matter ended, that is, at first, she thought I was a fool: and at last came to the conclusion that I was a very nice and accommodating man. In fact, I had the good fortune to win in the end the complete approval of that excellent young woman. (Blanche really was, though, a very good-natured girl—^in her own way, of course; I had not such a high opinion of her at first.) "You're a kind and clever man," ^e used to say to me towards the end, "and . . . and . . . it's only a pity you are such a fool! You never, never, save anjrthingl" "Un vrcd russe, im caknouk!" Several times she sent me to take the General for a walk about the streets, exactly as she might send her lapdog out with her footman. I took him, however, to the theatre, and to the Bal-Mabille, and to the restaurants. Blanche gave me the money for this, though the General had some of his own, and he was very fond of taking out his pocket-book before people. But I had almost to use force to prevent him from buying a brooch for seven hundred francs, by which he was fascinated in the Palais Ro37al and of which he wanted, at all costs, to make Blanche a present. But what was a brooch of seven hundred frsincs to her? The General hadn't more than a thousand francs altogether. I could never find out where he had got that money from. I imagine it was from Mr. Astley, especially as the latter had paid their bill at the hotel. As for the General's attitude to me all this time, I believe that he did not even guess at my relations with Blanche. Though he had heard vaguely that I had won a fortune, yet he probably supposed that I was with Blemche in the capacity of a private secretary or even a servant. Anyway, he always, as before, spoke to be condescendingly, auliioritatively, and even sometimes fell to scolding me. One morning he amused Blanche and me unmensely at breakfast. He was not at all ready to take offence, but suddenly he was huffy with me—why?—I don't know to this day. No doubt he did not know himself. In fact, he made a speech without a beginning or an end, a bdtcms-rompus, shouted that I was an impudent boy, that he would give me a lesson . . . that he would let me know it . . . and so on. But no one could make out anjrthing from it. Blanche went off into peals of laughter. At last he was somehow appeased and taken outfor a walk. I noticed sometimes, however, that he grew sad, that he was regretting someone and something, he was missing something in spite of Blanche's presence. On two such occasions he began tafliing to me of himself, but could not express himself clearly, alluded to his times in the army, to his deceased wife, to his family affairs, to his property. He would stumble upon some phrase—and was delighted with it and would repeat it a hundred times a day, thdugh perhaps it expressed neither his feelings nor his thoughts. I tried to talk to him about his children: but he turned off the subject with incoherent babble, and passed hurriedly to another topic: "Yes, yes, my children, you are right, my children!" Only once he grew sentimental —we were with him at the theatre: ' "Those unhappy children 1'' he began suddenly. "Yes, sir, those un—happy clmdren 1" And several times afterwards that evening he repeated the same words: "unhappy children 1" Once, when I began to speak of Polina, he flew into a frenzy. "She's an ungrateful girl," he cried. "She's wicked and ungrateful! She has disgraced her family. If there were laws here I would make her mind her p's and q's. Yes, indeed, yes, indeed!" As for De Grieux, he could not bear even to hear his name: "He has been the ruin of me," he would say, "he has robbed me, he has destroyed me! He has been my nightmare for the last two years! He has haunted my dreams for whole months I It's, it's, it's . . . Oh, never speak to me of him!" I saw there was an understanding between them, but, as usual, I said nothing. Blanche announced the news to me first—^it was just a week before we parted: "II a du chance," she babbled. "Granny really is ill this time, and certainly will die. Mr. Astley has sent a telegram. You must admit that the General is her heir, anjnvay, and even if he were not, he would not interfere with me in an5^thing. In the first place, he has his pension, and in the second place, he will live in a back room and will be perfectly happy. I shall be 'Madame le G6n6rale'. I shall get into a good set" (Blanche was continually dreaming of this), "in the end I shall be a Russian landowner, j'tmrai im chateau, des mmtjiks, et puis j'awrai topjours mo "Well, what if he begins to be jealous, begins to insist ... on goodness knows what^—do you understand?" "Oh, no, now, non, non! How dare he! I have taken precautions, you needn't be afraid. I have even naade him sign some lOUs for Albert. The least thing—and he will be arrested; and he won't dare!" "Well, marry him . . ." The marriage was celebrated without any great p>omp; it was a quiet family affair. Albert was invited and a few other intimate friends. Hortense, Cleopatra and company were studiously excluded. The bridegroom was extremely interested in his position. Blanche herself tied his cravat with her own hands, and pomaded his head: and in his swallow-tailed coat with his white tie he looked tres ommne il faut. "II est pomiamt ires comme il ftmt," Blanche herself observed to me, coming out of the General's room, as though the idea that the General was tres comme U fmd was a surprise even to her. Though I assisted at the whole affair as an idle spectator, yet I took so little interest in the details that I have to a great extent forgotten the course of events. I only remember that Blanche turned out not to be called "de Cominges", and her mamma not to be Ja veutue "Cominges", but "du Placet". Why they had been both "de Cominges" till then, I don't know. But the General remained very much pleased with that, and "du Placet" pleased him, in fact, better than "de Cominges". On the morning of the wedding, fully dressed for the part, he kept walking to and fro in the drawing-room, repeating to himself with a grave and important air, "Mile. Blanche du Placet! Blanche du Placet, du Placet! . . . and his countenance beamed with a certain complacency. At church, before the moire, and at the wedding breakfast at home, he was not oniy^^jByful but proud. There was a change in both of them. Blanche, too, had an air of peculiar dignity. "I shall have to behave myself quite differently now," she said to me, perfectly seriously: "mads vois-tu, I never thought of one very horrid thing: I even fancy, to this day, I can't learn my surname. Zagoryansky, Zagozj^nsky, Madame la Wn^rale de Sago—Sago, ces diables de noms russes, enfin madame h gdndrale a quartwze consomnis! Comme c'est agreaible, n'est-ce pas?" At last we parted, and Blanche, that silly Blanche, positively shed tears when she said good-bye to me. "Tu itais bon enfani," she said, whimpering. "Je te croyais bite et tu en anms I'dr. but it suits you." And, pressing my hand at parting, she suddenly cried, "Attends!" rushed to her boudoir and, two minutes later, brought me a banknote for two thousand francs. That I should never have believed possible I "It may be of use to you. You may be a very learned owbchitei, but you are an awfully stupid man. I am not going to give you more than two thousand, for you'll lose it gambling, anjnvay. Well, good-bye 1 Noiis serons Umjcmrs bon amis, and if you win, be sure to come to me ageiin, 0t ti* seras hemrewc!" I had five hundred francs left of my own. I had besides a splendid watch that cost a thousand francs, some diamond studs, and so on, so that I could go on a good time longer without anxiety. I am sta3dng in this little town on purpose to collect myself, and, above all, I am waiting for Mr. Astley. I have learnt for a fact that he will pass through the town and stay here for twenty-four hours on business. I shall find out about everything: and then—^then I shall go straight to Homburg. I am not going to Roulettenburg; not till next year anyway. They say it is a bad omen to try your luck twice running at the same tables; and Homburg is the real place for play. CHAPTER XVII IT is a year and eight months since I looked at these notes, and only now in sadness and dejection it has occurred to me to read them through. So I stopped then at my going to Homburg. My God! With what a light heart, comparatively speaking, I wrote those last lines! Though not with a light heart exactly, but with a sort of self-confidence, with undaunted hopes I Had I any doubt of m5^self ? And now more than a year and a half has passed, and I am, to my own mind, far worse than a beggar 1 Yes, what is being a beggar? A beggar is nothing! I have simply ruined myself! However, there is nothing I can compare myself with, and there is no need to give myself a moral lecture! Nothing could be stupider than moral reflections at this date! Oh, self-satisfied people, with what proud satisfaction these prattlers prepare to deliver their lectures! If only they knew how thoroughly I understand the loathsomeness of my present position, they would not be able to bring their tongues to reprimand me. Why, what, what can they tell me that I do not know? And is that the point? The point is t hat^oa£.tanurf the wheel, and all will be changedTand those very moralists will be the first (I am convinced of that) to come up to congratulate me with friendly jests. And they will not all turn away from me as they do now. But, hang them all I What am I now? Zero. What may I be to-morrow ? To-morrow I may rise from the dead and begin to live again 1 There are stiU the makings of a man in me. I did, in fact, go to Homburg then, but . . . afterwards I went to Roulettenburg again, and to Spa. I have even been in Baden, where I went as valet to the councillor Gintse, a scoundrel, who was my master here. Yes, I was a lackey for five whole months! I got a place immediately after coming out of prison. (I was sent to prison in Roulettenburg for a debt I made here.) Someone, I don't know who, paid my debt—who was it? Was it Mr. Astley? Pohna? I don't know, but the debt was paid; two hundred thalers in all, and I was set free. What could I do? I entered the service of this Gintse. He is a young man and frivolous, he Uked to be idle, and I could read and write in three languages. At first I went into his service as a sort of secretary at tiiirty guldens a month; but I ended by becoming a regular valet: he had not the means to keep a secretary; and he lowered my wages; I had nowhere to go, 1 remained—and in that way became a lackey by my own doing. I had not enough to eat or to drink in his service, but on the other hand, in five months I saved up seventy gulden. One evening in Baden, however, I aimounced to him that I intended parting from him; the same evening I went to roulette. Oh, how my heart beat! No, it was not money that I wanted. All tbat I wanted then was that next day all these Gintses, all these ober-kelhters, all these magnificent Baden ladies—that they might be all talking about me, repeating my story, wondering at me, admiring me, praising me, and doing homage to my new success. All these are childish dreams and desires, but . . . who knows, perhaps I should meet Polina again, too, I should tell her, and she would see that I was above all these stupid ups and downs of fate. . . . Oh, it was not money that was dear to me I I knew I should fling it away to some Blanche again and should drive in Paris again for three weeks with a pair of my own horses, costing sixteen thousand francs. I know for certain that I am not mean; I beUeve that I am not even a spendthrift— and yet with what a tremor, with what a thrill at my heart, I hear the croupier's cry: trente et tm. rouge, impair et passe. or: quaire, noir, pair et manqi*e! With what avidity I look at the gambling table on which louis d'or, friedrichs d'or and thalers lie scattered: on the piles of gold when they are scattered from the croupier's shovel like glowing embers, or at the piles of silver a yard high that lie round the wheel. Even on my way to the gambling hall, as soon as I hear, two rooms away, the clink of the scattered money I cdmost go into convulsions. Ohl that evening, when I took my seventy gulden to tlie gambling table, was remarkable too. I began witti ten gulden, staking them again on passe. I have a prejudice ia favour of passe. I lost. I had sixty gulden left in silver money; I thought a little and chose zero. I began staking five gulden at a time on zero; at the third turn the wheel stopped at zero; I almost died of joy when I received one hundred and seventy-five gulden; I had not been so delighted when I won a hundred thousand gulden. I immediately staked a hundred gulden on roi4>ge —^it won; the two hundred on rowg-e —it won; the whole of the four hundred on n-oir —^it won; the whole eight hundred on manque —^it won; altogether with what I had before it made one thousand seven hundred gulden—and that in less than five minutes! Yes, at moments like that one forgets all one's former failures 1 Why, I had gained this by risking more than life itself, I dared to risk it, and—there I was again, a man among men. I took a room at the hotel, locked myself in and sat till three o'clock coimting over my money. In the morning I woke up, no longer a lackey. I determined the same day to go to Hom-burg: I had not been a lackey or been in prison Qiere. Half an hour before my train left, I set off to stake on two hazards, no more, and lost fifteen hundred florins. Yet I went to Hom-burg all the same, and I have been here for a month. . . . I am living, of course, in continual anxiety. I play for the tiniest stakes, and I keep waiting for something, calculating, standing for whole days at the gambling table and watching the play; I even dream of playing—but I feel that in all this, I have, as it were, grown stiff and wooden, as though I had sunk into a muddy swamp. I gather this from my feeling when I met Mr. Astiey. We had not seen each other since that time, and we met by accident. This was how it happened: I was walking in the gardens and reckoning that now I was almost without money, but that I had fifty gulden—and that I had, moreover, three days before paid all I owed at the hotel. And so it was possible for me to go once more to roulette—^if I were to win an}rthing, I might be able to go on playing; if I lost I should have to get a lackey's place again, if I did not come across Russians in want of a tutor. Absorbed in these thoughts, I went my daily walk, across the park and the forest in the adjoining prindpaJity. Sometimes I used to walk Uke this for four hours at a time, and go back to Homburg hungry and tired. I had scarcely gone out of the gardens in the park, when suddenly J saw on one of the seats Mr. Astley. He saw me before I saw him, and called to me. I sat down beside him. Detecting in him a certain dignity of manner, I instantly moderated my delight; though I was awfully delighted to see him. "And so you are here! I thought I should meet you," he said to me. "Don't trouble yourself to tell me your story; I know, I know all about it; I know every detail of your life during this last year and eight months." "Bah! What a watch you keep on your old friends!" 1 answered. "It is very creditable in you not to forget. . . . Stay, though, you have given me an idea. Wcisn't it you bought me out of prison at Roulettenburg where I was imprisoned for debt for two hundred gulden? Some unknown person paid it for me." "No, oh no; it was not I who bought you out when you were ill prison at Roulettenburg for a debt of two hundred gulden. But I knew that you were imprisoned for a debt of two hundred gulden." "Then you know who did pay my debt?" "Oh, no, I can't say that I know who bought you out." "Strange; I don't know any of our Russians; besides, the Russians here, I imagine, would not do it; at home in Russia the orthodox may buy out other orthodox Christians. I thought it must have been some eccentric Englishman who did it as a freak." Mr. Astley listened to me with some surprise. 1 believe he had expected to find me dejected and crushed. "I am very glad, however, to find that you have quite maintained your independence of spirit and even your cheerfuhiess," he pronounced, with a rather disagreeable air. "That is, you are chafing inwardly with vexation at my not being crushed and humiliated," I said, laughing. He did not at once understand, but when he imderstood, he smiled. "I like your observations: I recognise in those words my clever, enttiusiastic and, at the same time, cynical old friend; only Russians can combine in themselves so many opposites at the same time. It is true, a man likes to see even his best friend humiliated; a great part of friendship rests on humiliation. But in the present case I assure you that I am genuinely glad that you are not dejected. Tell me, do you intend to give up gambling?" "Oh, damn! I shall give it up at once as soon as I . . ." "As soon as you have won back what you have lost! Just what I thought; you needn't say any more—I know—^you have spoken unawares, and so you have spoken the truth. Tell me, l^ve you any occupation except gambUng?" "No, none. . . ." He began cross-examining me. I knew nothing. I scarcely looked into the newspapers, and had literally not opened a single book all that time. ""' ■'"""You've grown rusty," he observed. "You have not only given up life, all your interests, private and public, the duties lof a man and a citizen, your friends (and you really had friends) , i —^you have not only given up your objects, such as they were, all but gambling—^you have even given up your memories. I remember you at an intense and ardent moment of your life; but I am sure you have forgotten all the best feelings you had then; your dreams, your most genuine desires now do not rise i above pair, impmr, rouge, noir, the twelve middle numbers, 'and so on, I am sure!" "Enough, Mr. Astley, please, please don't remind me," 1 cried with vexation, almost with anger, "let me tell you, I've forgotten absolutely nothing; but I've only for a time put everything out of my mind, even my memories, until I can make a radical improvement in my circvunstances; then . . . then you will see, I shall rise again from the dead!" "You will be here still in ten years' time," he said. "I bet you I shall remind you of this on this very seat, if I'm alive." "Well, that's enough," I interrupted impatiently; "and to prove to you that I am not so forgetful of the past, let me ask: where is Miss Polina now? If it was not you who got me out of prison, it must have been her doing. I have had no news of her of any sort since that time." "No, oh no, I don't believe she did buy you out. She's in Switzerland now, and you'll do me a great favour if you leave off asking about Miss Polina," he said resolutely, and even with some anger. "That means that she has wounded you very much!" I laughed with displeasure. "Miss Polina is of all people deserving of resp>ect the very best, but I repeat—you will do me a great favour if you cease questioning me concerning Miss Polina. You never knew her: and her name on your lips I regard as an insult to my moral feelings." "You don't say so! you are wrong, however; besides, what have I to talk to you about except that, tell me that? Why, all our memories reaUy amount to that! Don't be uneasy, though; I don't want to know your private secret affairs. ... I am only, interested, so to say, in Miss Polina's external afiaiis. That you could tell me in a couple of words." "Certainly, on condition that with those two words all is over. Miss Polina was ill for a long time; she's ill even now. For some time she stayed with my mother and sister in the north of England. Six months ago, her grandmother—^you remember that madwoman?—died and left her, personally, a fortune of seven thousand pounds. At the present time Miss Polina is travelling with tiie family of my married sister. Her little brother and sister, too, were provided for by their grandmother's will, and are at school in London. The General, her stepfather, died a month ago in Paris of a stroke. Mile. Blanche treated him well, but succeeded in getting possession of all he received from the grandmother. ... I believe that's all." "And De Grieux? Is not he travelling in Switzerland, too?" "No, De Grieux is not travelling in Switzerland: and I don't know where De Grieux is; besides, once for all, I wam you to avoid such insinuations and ungentlemanly coupUng of names, or you will certainly have to answer for it to me." "What! in spite of our friendly relations in the past?" "Yes, in spite of our friendly relations in the past." "I beg a thousand pardons, Mr. Astley. But allow me, though: there is nothing insulting or ungentlemanly about it; I am not blaming Miss Polina for an5^ing. Besides—a Frenchman and a Russian yovmg lady, speaking generally—it's a combination, Mr. Astley, which is beyond your or my explaining or fully comprehending." "If you will not mention the name of De Grieux in company with another name, I should like you to explain what you mean by the expression of 'the Frenchman and the Russian young lady'. What do you mean by that 'combination'? Why the Frenchman exactly and why the Russian yovmg lady?" "You see you are interested. But that's a long story, Mr. Astley. You need to understand many things first. But it is an important question, however absurd it may seem at first sight, lie Frenchman, -Mr. Astley, is the product of a finished beautiful tradition. You, as a Briton, may not agree with this; I, as a Russian, do not either, from envy maybe; but our young ladies may be of a different opinion. You may think Racine artificial, affected and perfumed; probably you won't even read him. I, too, think him artificial, affected and perfumed—from one point of view even absurd; but he is charming, Mr. Astley, and, what is more, he is a great poet, whether we like it or not. The national type of Frenchman, or, rather, of Parisian, had been moulded into elegant forms while we were still bears. The Revolution inherited &e traditions of the aristocracy. Now even the vulgarest Frenchman has manners, modes of address, expressions and even thoughts, of perfectly elegant form, though his own initiative, his own soul and heart, have had no part in the creation of that form; it has all come to him through inheritance. Well, Mr. Astley, I must inform you now that there is not a creature on the eajfii more confiding, and more candid than a good, clean and not too sophisticated Russian girl. De Grieux, appearing in a peculiar role, masquerading, can conquer her heart with extraordinary ease; he has elegance of form, Mr. Astley, and the young lady takes this form for his individual soul, as the natural form of his soul and his heart, and not as an external garment, which has come to him by inheritance. Though it will greatly displease you, I must tell you that Englishmen are for the most part awkward and inelegant, and Russians are rather quick to detect beauty, and are eager for it. But to detect beauty of soul and originality of character needs incomparably more independence and freedom than is to be found in our women, above all in our yoimg ladies—and of course ever so much more experience. Miss Polina—^forgive me, the word is spoken and one can't take it back—needs a long, long time to bring herself to prefer you to the scoundrel De Grieux. She thinks highly of you, becomes your friend, opens all her heart to you; but yet the hateful scoundrel, the base and petty money-grubber, De Grieux, will still dominate her heart. Mere obstinacy and vanity, so to say, will maintain his supremacy, because at one time this De Grieux appeared to her with the halo of an elegant marquis, a disillusioned liberal, who is supposed to have ruined himself to help her family and her frivolous stepfather. All these shams have been discovered later on. But the fact that they have been discovered makes no difference: an}nvay, what she