The Long Dark Tea-Time Of The Soul

Chapter 22

At exactly the moment that the telephone rang, the door to Kate's sitting-room opened. The Thunder God attempted to stomp in through it, but in fact he wafted. He had clearly soaked himself very thoroughly in the stuff Kate had thrown into the bath, then redressed, and torn up a nightgown of Kate's to bind his forearm with. He casually tossed a handful of softened oak shards away into the corner of the room. Kate decided for the moment to ignore both the deliberate provocations and the telephone. The former she could deal with and the latter she had a machine for dealing with.

“I've been reading about you,” she challenged the Thunder God. “Where's your beard?”

He took the book, a one volume encyclopaedia, from her hands and glanced at it before tossing it aside contemptuously.

“Ha,” he said, “I shaved it off. When I was in Wales.” He scowled at the memory.

“What were you doing in Wales for heaven's sake?”

“Counting the stones,” he said with a shrug, and went to stare out of the window.

There was a huge, moping anxiety in his bearing. It suddenly occurred to Kate with a spasm of something not entinely unlike fear, that sometimes when people got like that, it was because they had picked up their mood from the weather. With a Thunder God it presumably worked the other way round. The sky outside certainly had a restless and disgruntled look.

Her reactions suddenly started to become very confused.

“Excuse me if this sounds like a stupid question,” said Kate, “but I'm a little at sea here. I'm not used to spending the evening with someone who's got a whole day named after them. What stones were you counting in Wales?”

“All of them,” said Thor in a low growl. “All of them between this size...” he held the tip of his forefinger and thumb about a quarter of an inch apart, “...and this size.” He held his two hands about a yard apart, and then put them down again.

Kate stared at him blankly.

“Well... how many were there?” she asked. It seemed only polite to ask.

He rounded on her angrily.

“Count them yourself if you want to know!” he shouted. “What's the point in my spending years and years and years counting them, so that I'm the only person who knows, and who will ever know, if I just go and tell somebody else? Well?”

He turned back to the window.

“Anyway,” he said, “I've been worried about it. I think I may have lost count somewhere in Mid-Glamorgan. But I'm not,” he shouted, “going to do it again!”

“Well, why on earth would you do such an extraordinary thing in the first place?”

“It was a burden placed on me by my father. A punishment. A penance.” He glowered.

“Your father?” said Kate. “Do you mean Odin?”

“The All-Father,” said Thor. “Father of the Gods of Asgard.”

“And you're saying he's alive?”

Thor turned to look at her as if she was stupid.

“We are immortals,” he said, simply.

Downstairs, Neil chose that moment to conclude his thunderous performance on the bass, and the house seemed to sing in its aftermath with an eerie silence.

“Immortals are what you wanted,” said Thor in a low, quiet voice. “Immortals are what you got. It is a little hard on us. You wanted us to be for ever, so we are for ever. Then you forget about us. But still we are for ever. Now at last, many are dead, many dying,” he then added in a quiet voice, “but it takes a special effort.”

“I can't even begin to understand what you're talking about,” said Kate, “you say that I, we — ”

“You can begin to understand,” said Thor, angrily, “which is why I have come to you. Do you know that most people hardly see me? Hardly notice me at all? It is not that we are hidden. We are here. We move among you. My people. Your gods. You gave birth to us. You made us be what you would not dare to be yourselves. Yet you will not acknowledge us. If I walk along one of your streets in this... world you have made for yourselves without us, then barely an eye will once flicker in my direction.”

“Is this when you're wearing the helmet?”

“Especially when I'm wearing the helmet!”

“Well — ”

“You make fun of me!” roared Thor.

“You make it very easy for a girl,” said Kate. “I don't know what — ”

Suddenly the room seemed to quake and then to catch its breath. All of Kate's insides wobbled violently and then held very still. In the sudden horrible silence, a blue china table lamp slowly toppled off the table, hit the floor, and crawled off to a dark corner of the room where it sat in a worried little defensive huddle.

Kate stared at it and tried to be calm about it. She felt as if cold, soft jelly was trickling down her skin.

“Did you do that?” she said shakily.

Thor was looking livid and confused. He muttered, “Do not make me angry with you. You were very lucky.” He looked away.

“What are you saying?”

“I'm saying that I wish you to come with me.”

“What? What about that?” She pointed at the small befuddled kitten under the table which had so recently and so confusingly been a blue china table lamp.

“There's nothing I can do for it.”

Kate was suddenly so tired and confused and frightened that she found she was nearly in tears. She stood biting her lip and trying to be as angry as she could.

“Oh yeah?” she said. “I thought you were meant to be a god. I hope you haven't got into my home under false pretences, I...” She stumbled to a halt, and then resumed in a different tone of voice.

“Do you mean,” she said, in a small voice, “that you have been here, in the world, all this time?”

“Here, and in Asgard,” said Thor.

“Asgard,” said Kate. “The home of the gods?”

Thor was silent. It was a grim silence that seemed to be full of something that bothered him deeply.

“Where is Asgard?” demanded Kate.

Again Thor did not speak. He was a man of very few words and enormously long pauses. When at last he did answer, it wasn't at all clear whether he had been thinking all that time or just standing there.

“Asgard is also here,” he said. “All worlds are here.”

He drew out from under his furs his great hammer and studied its head deeply and with an odd curiosity, as if something about it was very puzzling. Kate wondered where she found such a gesture familiar from. She found that it instinctively made her want to duck. She stepped back very slightly and was watchful.

When he looked up again, there was an altogether new focus and energy in his eyes, as if he was gathering himself up to hurl himself at something.

“Tonight I must be in Asgard,” he said. “I must confront my father Odin in the great hall of Valhalla and bring him to account for what he has done.”

“You mean, for making you count Welsh pebbles?”

“No!” said Thor. “For making the Welsh pebbles not worth counting!”

Kate shook her head in exasperation. “I simply don't know what to make of you at all,” she said. “I think I'm just too tired. Come back tomorrow. Explain it all in the morning.”

“No,” said Thor. “You must see Asgard yourself, and then you will understand. You must see it tonight.” He gripped her by the arm.

“I don't want to go to Asgard,” she insisted. “I don't go to mythical places with strange men. You go. Call me up and tell me how it went in the morning. Give him hell about the pebbles.”

She wrested her arm from his grip. It was very, very clear to her that she only did this with his permission.

“Now please, go, and let me sleep!” She glared at him.

At that moment the house seemed to erupt as Neil launched into a thumping bass rendition of Siegfried's Rheinfahrt from Act 1 of Götterdämmerung, just to prove it could be done. The walls shook, the windows rattled. From under the table the sound of the table lamp mewing pathetically could just be heard.

Kate tried to maintain her furious glare, but it simply couldn't be kept up for very long in the circumstances.

“OK,” she said at last, “how do we get to this place?”

“There are as many ways as there are tiny pieces.”

“I beg your pardon?”

“Tiny things.” He held up his thumb and forefinger again to indicate something very small. “Molecules,” he added, seeming to be uncomfortable with the word. “But first let us leave here.”

“Will I need a coat in Asgard?”

“As you wish.”

“Well, I'll take one anyway. Wait a minute.”

She decided that the best way to deal with the astonishing rigmarole which currently constituted her life was to be businesslike about it. She found her coat, brushed her hair, left a new message on her telephone answering machine and put a saucer of milk firmly under the table.

“Right,” she said, and led the way out of the flat, locking it carefully after them, and making shushing noises as they passed Neil's door. For all the uproar he was currently making he was almost certainly listening out for the slightest sound, and would be out in a moment if he heard them going by to complain about the Coca-Cola machine, the lateness of the hour, man's inhumanity to man, the weather, the noise, and the colour of Kate's coat, which was a shade of blue that Neil for some reason disapproved of most particularly. They stole past successfully and closed the front door behind them with the merest click.