THE NEW MACHIAVELLI

4

And into all these things with the manner of a trifling and casual

incident comes the figure of Isabel Rivers. My first impressions of

her were of a rather ugly and ungainly, extraordinarily interesting

schoolgirl with a beautiful quick flush under her warm brown skin,

who said and did amusing and surprising things. When first I saw

her she was riding a very old bicycle downhill with her feet on the

fork of the frame-it seemed to me to the public danger, but

afterwards I came to understand the quality of her nerve better-and

on the third occasion she was for her own private satisfaction

climbing a tree. On the intervening occasion we had what seems now

to have been a long sustained conversation about the political

situation and the books and papers I had written.

I wonder if it was.

What a delightful mixture of child and grave woman she was at that

time, and how little I reckoned on the part she would play in my

life! And since she has played that part, how impossible it is to

tell now of those early days! Since I wrote that opening paragraph

to this section my idle pen has been, as it were, playing by itself

and sketching faces on the blotting pad-one impish wizened visage

is oddly like little Bailey-and I have been thinking cheek on fist

amidst a limitless wealth of memories. She sits below me on the low

wall under the olive trees with our little child in her arms. She

is now the central fact in my life. It still seems a little

incredible that that should be so. She has destroyed me as a

politician, brought me to this belated rebeginning of life. When I

sit down and try to make her a girl again, I feel like the Arabian

fisherman who tried to put the genius back into the pot from which

it had spread gigantic across the skies…

I have a very clear vision of her rush downhill past our labouring

ascendant car-my colours fluttered from handle-bar and shoulder-

knot-and her waving hand and the sharp note of her voice. She

cried out something, I don't know what, some greeting.

"What a pretty girl!" said Margaret.

Parvill, the cheap photographer, that industrious organiser for whom

by way of repayment I got those magic letters, that knighthood of

the underlings, "J. P." was in the car with us and explained her to

us. "One of the best workers you have," he said…

And then after a toilsome troubled morning we came, rather cross

from the strain of sustained amiability, to Sir Graham Rivers'

house. It seemed all softness and quiet-I recall dead white

panelling and oval mirrors horizontally set and a marble fireplace

between white marble-blind Homer and marble-blind Virgil, very grave

and fine-and how Isabel came in to lunch in a shapeless thing like

a blue smock that made her bright quick-changing face seem yellow

under her cloud of black hair. Her step-sister was there, Miss

Gamer, to whom the house was to descend, a well-dressed lady of

thirty, amiably disavowing responsibility for Isabel in every phrase

and gesture. And there was a very pleasant doctor, an Oxford man,

who seemed on excellent terms with every one. It was manifest that

he was in the habit of sparring with the girl, but on this occasion

she wasn't sparring and refused to be teased into a display in spite

of the taunts of either him or her father. She was, they discovered

with rising eyebrows, shy. It seemed an opportunity too rare for

them to miss. They proclaimed her enthusiasm for me in a way that

brought a flush to her cheek and a look into her eye between appeal

and defiance. They declared she had read my books, which I thought

at the time was exaggeration, their dry political quality was so

distinctly not what one was accustomed to regard as schoolgirl

reading. Miss Gamer protested to protect her, "When once in a blue

moon Isabel is well-behaved…!"

Except for these attacks I do not remember much of the conversation

at table; it was, I know, discursive and concerned with the sort of

topographical and social and electioneering fact natural to such a

visit. Old Rivers struck me as a delightful person, modestly

unconscious of his doubly-earned V. C. and the plucky defence of

Kardin-Bergat that won his baronetcy. He was that excellent type,

the soldier radical, and we began that day a friendship that was

only ended by his death in the hunting-field three years later. He

interested Margaret into a disregard of my plate and the fact that I

had secured the illegal indulgence of Moselle. After lunch we went

for coffee into another low room, this time brown panelled and

looking through French windows on a red-walled garden, graceful even

in its winter desolation. And there the conversation suddenly

picked up and became good. It had fallen to a pause, and the

doctor, with an air of definitely throwing off a mask and wrecking

an established tranquillity, remarked: "Very probably you Liberals

will come in, though I'm not sure you'll come in so mightily as you

think, but what you do when you do come in passes my comprehension."

"There's good work sometimes," said Sir Graham, "in undoing."

"You can't govern a great empire by amending and repealing the Acts

of your predecessors," said the doctor.

There came that kind of pause that happens when a subject is

broached too big and difficult for the gathering. Margaret's blue

eyes regarded the speaker with quiet disapproval for a moment, and

then came to me in the not too confident hope that I would snub him

out of existence with some prompt rhetorical stroke. A voice spoke

out of the big arm-chair.

"We'll do things," said Isabel.

The doctor's eye lit with the joy of the fisherman who strikes his

fish at last. "What will you do?" he asked her.

"Every one knows we're a mixed lot," said Isabel.

"Poor old chaps like me!" interjected the general.

"But that's not a programme," said the doctor.

"But Mr. Remington has published a programme," said Isabel.

The doctor cocked half an eye at me.

"In some review," the girl went on. "After all, we're not going to

elect the whole Liberal party in the Kinghamstead Division. I'm a

Remington-ite!"

"But the programme," said the doctor, "the programme-"

"In front of Mr. Remington!"

"Scandal always comes home at last," said the doctor. "Let him hear

the worst."

"I'd like to hear," I said. "Electioneering shatters convictions

and enfeebles the mind."

"Not mine," said Isabel stoutly. "I mean-Well, anyhow I take it

Mr. Remington stands for constructing a civilised state out of this

muddle."

"THIS muddle," protested the doctor with an appeal of the eye to the

beautiful long room and the ordered garden outside the bright clean

windows.

"Well, THAT muddle, if you like! There's a slum within a mile of us

already. The dust and blacks get worse and worse, Sissie?"

"They do," agreed Miss Gamer.

"Mr. Remington stands for construction, order, education, discipline."

"And you?" said the doctor.

"I'm a good Remington-ite."

"Discipline!" said the doctor.

"Oh!" said Isabel. "At times one has to be-Napoleonic. They want

to libel me, Mr. Remington. A political worker can't always be in

time for meals, can she? At times one has to make-splendid cuts."

Miss Gamer said something indistinctly.

"Order, education, discipline," said Sir Graham. "Excellent things!

But I've a sort of memory-in my young days-we talked about

something called liberty."

"Liberty under the law," I said, with an unexpected approving murmur

from Margaret, and took up the defence. "The old Liberal definition

of liberty was a trifle uncritical. Privilege and legal

restrictions are not the only enemies of liberty. An uneducated,

underbred, and underfed propertyless man is a man who has lost the

possibility of liberty. There's no liberty worth a rap for him. A

man who is swimming hopelessly for life wants nothing but the

liberty to get out of the water; he'll give every other liberty for

it-until he gets out."

Sir Graham took me up and we fell into a discussion of the changing

qualities of Liberalism. It was a good give-and-take talk,

extraordinarily refreshing after the nonsense and crowding secondary

issues of the electioneering outside. We all contributed more or

less except Miss Gamer; Margaret followed with knitted brows and

occasional interjections. "People won't SEE that," for example, and

"It all seems so plain to me." The doctor showed himself clever but

unsubstantial and inconsistent. Isabel sat back with her black mop

of hair buried deep in the chair looking quickly from face to face.

Her colour came and went with her vivid intellectual excitement;

occasionally she would dart a word, usually a very apt word, like a

lizard's tongue into the discussion. I remember chiefly that a

chance illustration betrayed that she had read Bishop Burnet…

After that it was not surprising that Isabel should ask for a lift

in our car as far as the Lurky Committee Room, and that she should

offer me quite sound advice EN ROUTE upon the intellectual

temperament of the Lurky gasworkers.

On the third occasion that I saw Isabel she was, as I have said,

climbing a tree-and a very creditable tree-for her own private

satisfaction. It was a lapse from the high seriousness of politics,

and I perceived she felt that I might regard it as such and attach

too much importance to it. I had some difficulty in reassuring her.

And it's odd to note now-it has never occurred to me before-that

from that day to this I do not think I have ever reminded Isabel of

that encounter.

And after that memory she seems to be flickering about always in the

election, an inextinguishable flame; now she flew by on her bicycle,

now she dashed into committee rooms, now she appeared on doorsteps

in animated conversation with dubious voters; I took every chance I

could to talk to her-I had never met anything like her before in

the world, and she interested me immensely-and before the polling

day she and I had become, in the frankest simplicity, fast

friends…

That, I think, sets out very fairly the facts of our early

relationship. But it is hard to get it true, either in form or

texture, because of the bright, translucent, coloured, and

refracting memories that come between. One forgets not only the

tint and quality of thoughts and impressions through that

intervening haze, one forgets them altogether. I don't remember now

that I ever thought in those days of passionate love or the

possibility of such love between us. I may have done so again and

again. But I doubt it very strongly. I don't think I ever thought

of such aspects. I had no more sense of any danger between us,

seeing the years and things that separated us, than I could have had

if she had been an intelligent bright-eyed bird. Isabel came into

my life as a new sort of thing; she didn't join on at all to my

previous experiences of womanhood. They were not, as I have

laboured to explain, either very wide or very penetrating

experiences, on the whole, "strangled dinginess" expresses them, but

I do not believe they were narrower or shallower than those of many

other men of my class. I thought of women as pretty things and

beautiful things, pretty rather than beautiful, attractive and at

times disconcertingly attractive, often bright and witty, but,

because of the vast reservations that hid them from me, wanting,

subtly and inevitably wanting, in understanding. My idealisation of

Margaret had evaporated insensibly after our marriage. The shrine I

had made for her in my private thoughts stood at last undisguisedly

empty. But Isabel did not for a moment admit of either idealisation

or interested contempt. She opened a new sphere of womanhood to me.

With her steady amber-brown eyes, her unaffected interest in

impersonal things, her upstanding waistless blue body, her energy,

decision and courage, she seemed rather some new and infinitely

finer form of boyhood than a feminine creature, as I had come to

measure femininity. She was my perfect friend. Could I have

foreseen, had my world been more wisely planned, to this day we

might have been such friends.

She seemed at that time unconscious of sex, though she has told me

since how full she was of protesting curiosities and restrained

emotions. She spoke, as indeed she has always spoken, simply,

clearly, and vividly; schoolgirl slang mingled with words that

marked ample voracious reading, and she moved quickly with the free

directness of some graceful young animal. She took many of the easy

freedoms a man or a sister might have done with me. She would touch

my arm, lay a hand on my shoulder as I sat, adjust the lapel of a

breast-pocket as she talked to me. She says now she loved me always

from the beginning. I doubt if there was a suspicion of that in her

mind those days. I used to find her regarding me with the clearest,

steadiest gaze in the world, exactly like the gaze of some nice

healthy innocent animal in a forest, interested, inquiring,

speculative, but singularly untroubled…