The Secrets of Pain

57

Early afternoon, Cornel found a slot for the Porsche on Corn Square in Leominster, and Jane followed him down the street and across to the Blue Note cafe bar. All period jazz and blues posters. Cellar-club darkness all day long, except it wasn’t in a cellar.

The wood where they’d parked was no more than four miles from the town and they’d come most of the way in silence, just one word stopping Jane from walking off to the bus station and never looking back.

The word was Savitch.

‘I thought everybody loved him in these parts.’ Cornel sugared his coffee. ‘Thought he was the village’s salvation. Brought the dump alive. Fairy godfather.’

‘Grim reaper’s closer.’

‘But then, I also thought you fancied me a little bit,’ Cornel said.

‘I have a boyfriend.’

Who, in a couple of hours, would be waiting for her in Hereford, under the clock in High Town. Actually, the last time she’d been in the Blue Note was with Eirion and they’d sat under a vintage Blind Lemon Jefferson poster, killing themselves laughing making up tasteless names for damaged old British blues singers, like Quadriplegic Cyril Hewlett and Morbidly-obese Dilwyn Lloyd-Williams. It was like a different lifetime, when she was young and free, and now she was thinking she might never get back to that.

‘I find it quite distressing, actually,’ Cornel said, ‘that you actually thought I might be planning to rape you.’

‘You were trying to take me upstairs the other night!’

‘Jane, I was legless… and you played along. We all thought you were up for it. Anybody would. They were taking bets on it, for-’

‘ Bets? ’

‘Men out on a jolly tend to get childish.’

‘Cockfighting’s a jolly, is it?’

‘There was no cockfight that night. And anyway, if you don’t enjoy a good cockfight you’re hardly going to be up for the rest of it.’

‘The rest of what?’

‘Don’t totally trust you yet, Jane. Would you really expect me to?’

Even though Cornel’s face looked grey and creased in the dimness, she realized for the first time that he actually wasn’t that much older than her. Maybe twenty-four? She felt a rush of determination. For some reason he was no longer a supporter of Savitch, and she needed to roll with that. She brought her coffee cup to her lips, then put it down again.

‘OK, I told you a bunch of lies. My grandad… I lied about that. My grandads, one lives abroad, I don’t hear from the other. Neither of them breed gamecocks, far as I know. I got all that from a mate I took the cock to and he told me how he thought it had died. I hate cruelty, OK?’

He sat looking at her with… not respect, obviously, but he was probably more comfortable with this admission. In Cornel’s world, women would always have to be a bit shocked at what men did.

Jane picked up the coffee cup again, took a long, slow sip, considering the evidence: he was no longer staying either at Savitch’s place or the Swan. No longer hanging out with his mates – maybe they’d gone back to London. But he’d stayed. On his own. And he wasn’t happy. Look at the mindless way he’d been driving, like he didn’t care if he crashed. He peered at her in the gloom.

‘So you think I’m going to tell you about the cockfights. And help you tie Ward Savitch into it.’

‘Somebody’s got to stop him, before he buys up the entire village.’

‘And you’d expose him how? Being as how Savitch is ring-fenced and lawyered to the gills.’

‘My boyfriend,’ Jane said. ‘He’s a journalist?’

‘Is he really.’

‘He can get the story out. All we need to know is where it’s happening, where he’s doing it.’

Cornel had started to laugh.

‘You don’t know me,’ Jane said. ‘I can do this.’

‘And you think I’m going to tell you what I know?’

‘You don’t have to be implicated. We don’t have to name you.’

A silence. Holding her hands together under the table.

‘Which paper’s your boyfriend work for, then?’

‘He freelances for the Sunday Times. You might’ve seen his name. Eirion Lewis?’

She was on safe ground here. A big fat paper, and nobody ever remembered reporters’ names, only columnists.

‘So what’s in it for me?’ Cornel said.

She didn’t know what to say.

‘Jane, you just don’t know who you’re messing with, do you? You just don’t fuck with these guys for the sake of a few bloody chickens and some flea-riddled badgers.’

‘Badgers?’

Jane stared at him.

‘Badgers are vermin,’ Cornel said. ‘They cause TB in cattle.’

‘That’s… debatable. You’re saying they go after badgers as well? With dogs? Where you dig out the badgers and set dogs on them, and the dogs and the badgers both get ripped to-’

‘Keep your voice down.’

‘Like hell I will!’

‘Not me, all right?’ Cornel looked up to where three women were sitting down, a couple of tables away. ‘Not me personally. I don’t like to get my hands dirty.’

‘You only don’t dig out badgers for hygiene reasons?’

‘ Shut up.’

‘But that’s something else Savitch organizes for bored rich bastards, right?’

‘Jane, drop it. You’re a kid. Go away. Have fun.’

‘Anybody,’ Jane said through her teeth, ‘ anybody who expects me to go away and have fun while this obscene shit-Just give me something on Savitch, Cornel. Why can’t you do that?’

A silence between them. You could hear everything, every gush and tinkle from behind the counter, every scrape of a chair leg. One of the three women at the next-but-one table was talking about how she’d only take some guy back if he promised to cut down on the booze.

‘You told anybody about this?’

‘No.’

Instinct saying lie, think about it later.

One of the women at the other table told the first woman she was making a big mistake because they never cut down on the booze, whatever they told you, unless some quack told them their lives were on the line.

Cornel said, ‘So you didn’t tell your mother, for instance?’

‘ God, no. Why would I? She’s in a difficult enough position, as vicar. Anybody gets the shit on Savitch, it’s better it’s me. I’m just a pagan.’

‘Yes,’ Cornel said. ‘They were laughing about that in the Ox.’

‘Yeah, well, they would, those morons.’

‘Some of them found it rather titillating.’

‘Yeah, Dean Wall. Moronic slob. Like I go out dancing naked. It’s just native religion. It’s my central interest. Ancient sites and stuff. Studied it for years.’

Cornel had his smartphone out, flicking through some stuff on the screen, then he handed it across.

‘What’s this, then?’

‘Huh?’

‘Look at it. If you know so much about paganism, tell me what this is.’

The picture blinked up at Jane, very clear in the dim light. You were looking down this weird kind of stone vault, like the crypt of a church with a fairly primitive plinth at the end. A tablet of stone with a carved face on it with like a Mohican haircut. Primitive, but not prehistoric, and definitely not Celtic.

‘Is it Roman?’

‘You tell me.’

‘Well, where is it?’

Cornel didn’t reply. Jane had another look. You could see stone blocks, like seating, stepped up from a closed-in area, like an arena. She’d seen arenas like this on the Net. Well, not exactly like this, but the same size, a small, closed-in area, impossible to escape from.

If you were poultry.

Holy shit.

‘Cornel…’

‘What?’

‘Is this where it happens? The cockfights?’

Thinking back to the Web sites she’d forced herself to read. It was starting to make sense. The sport which had apparently been introduced to Britain by the Roman invaders.

Was this some little purpose-built Roman arena, a cockfight colosseum?

‘You going to tell me where this is, Cornel?’

Cornel smiled.

‘Why should I?’

‘Then why are you showing me this?’

‘Just thought you might know what it is. Obviously you don’t know as much as you-’

Jane put the smartphone down again, looked Cornel in the eyes.

‘They do badger-baiting here too?’

You could just imagine that, the squeals, the yipping and the ripping in this claustrophobic vault, blood all over its walls

It had Savitch written all over it. The way he was always going on about reviving old traditions.

‘Cornel… please.’

‘Jane, I’m a stranger here. I don’t even know what the place is called. Guys who go there… what usually happens is they’re taken at night. Sometimes blindfolded.’

‘But you know where to find it?’

‘You’re asking me to take you?’

Jane read the car number plates over the bar again, right to left.

‘I’d keep you out of it. I’d just take some pictures on my phone, and that would be it.’

‘I hate to be boring.’ Cornel looked at her, and not just at her face. ‘But what’s in it for me?’

‘Cornel, I’ve got a boyfriend.’

‘And even if you hadn’t, you wouldn’t fancy me, would you?’

Jane said, ‘Please…?’