Vixen

20

The first shot took McDonald high in the shoulder. The second, a head shot, knocked him down. Ray Cross thought he’d killed him, hesitated, then stepped over the copper and ran for all he was worth. He couldn’t believe they were on to him so fast. The past 24 hours had been among the most shocking of his erratic life: having the money, successfully planting bombs, he should have been over the moon. Instead he was on the dark side of it.

It had begun with him acting purely on instinct, playing a hunch. Jimmy was heavy on his mind and it was the first time Jimmy had been on his own. In the flat by himself, he was bound to panic. So, despite the resolution to stay apart until the storm had passed, Ray went on over.

He had a key, which Angie didn’t know about. There were a lot of things he didn’t tell the Vixen. As soon as he opened the door, he knew it was bad. The smell of… what?… like singed leather or worse. He took a deep breath, said:

‘Jimmy, yo buddy, you okay? It’s Ray, where are you, pal?’

No answer.

The sitting room was in shadow and he pulled open the curtains, the light from the street illuminating the furniture. An empty bottle of champagne sat on the coffee table. Moet, the expensive one — as if Jimmy knew the frigging difference between that and cider. So, Angie had been around, the champers was like a signature.

This was bad.

Another smell, this one… weed. Jimmy liked a smoke. Silver paper on the floor pointed to the old nose candy: a real party all right. He nearly smiled at how he hadn’t been invited.

Ray walked slowly towards the bathroom, shoved the door open and gagged.

Fried fritters… that’s what he thought. Of all the mad, insane connections… What remained of Jimmy was burned to a cinder. Ray felt his stomach heave and then the vomit came gurgling up, like some minor Exorcist stunt. Flew like a projectile across the room. Sweat poured down his back and he felt his shirt drench in perspiration.

He heard a moaning and realised it was his own howl of anguish. Staggering out to the front room, he searched round, found a bottle of tequila — Jimmy always liked the odd ones — and tore off the cap, swallowed a huge gulp. Stay or up chuck, the ballet in his stomach raged. Then the Mexican took over and he felt the warmth begin to caress his guts. Took another large wallop and lit a cig, the trembling passing. He whispered:

‘Jimmy… Jesus… Jimmy… oh, God.’

Returned to the bathroom and approached the thing in the bath. Saw the electric fire near Jimmy’s feet. He could see how it went. Angie, dressed to kill — yeah, in the fuckme heels, short skirt — making Jimmy delirious with sex. Teasing, booze, dope and into the bath, coaxing. Jimmy would have jumped out of a window for her. Then setting up the fire, cooing:

‘We don’t want you cold, do we, pet?’

He could see her, standing over the bath, Jimmy gasping from desire and her touching the rim of the fire, then: SPLASH!

The ferocious crackling and twisting of the current as Jimmy was hot-wired. You ever got to ask Angie about it, she’d say:

‘Well, he went clean.’

His eyes lit on the box of Radox, half empty, a real Angie touch. He muttered:

‘Goodbye, buddy.’

Turned and got the hell out of there.

Went to Clapham, bought a gun. Just off the Common, a retired army guy, get you any hardware at short notice. He hadn’t been wild about the late-night roust, like Ray gave a fuck, and he said:

‘It’s a little short notice.’

Ray had met him in the nick, didn’t feel he had to explain and said:

‘I need something fast, you can do that or not?’

He did the all-important thing, he showed cash, a lot of it.

The guy could do it.

But was apologetic, said:

‘Thing is, like I said, short notice, all I got is some. 38s, that do you?’

Ray liked the. 38, it was handy; you could carry it without too much bulk and as he was familiar with it, he didn’t have to worry about dry firing. Lock and load. He asked:

‘Ammunition?’

Now the guy smiled, a rare sight. When a gun dealer does that, look behind you and often.

He asked:

‘Does a nigger like baseball caps?’

Ray gave a tight smile, nothing to do with humour but let the fuck know he’d heard that, like, a 1000 times and it was old then. He laid out a wedge and the guy went:

‘Uh huh…?’

Translation: more.

Ray laid out a few extra and the guy went out and got the piece and a box of ammo, put the goods in a McDonald’s bag. Seeing Ray’s look, he said:

‘I like to give them the business.’

Ray took the bag, said:

‘They can’t make coffee for shit.’

The guy was shaking his head, replied:

‘It’s not the coffee, it’s the ambience… take a mo’ in the Walworth Road branch late on a Friday night, you’ll get my drift.’

Ray hadn’t slept. Holding the weapon in his hand, he paced all night, remembering moments with Jimmy. A feeling of total disbelief vying with raw rage, he tried to focus on where Angie would hole up and realised he knew very little about her, save she was a cold bitch.

A stone killer and what’s more, she had half the money — half Jimmy’s money.

Smoking a chain of Dunhills, chugging Special Brews until he was demented. Time to time, he’d pick up the. 38, aim, shout obscenities. So it was when McDonald banged on the door. Ray, in a haze, opened and seeing the uniform, the gun was up and he was firing

What the fuck happened?

He stepped over the guy, ran for all he was worth.