История Одного Развода

Эпилог

1982. Зима.

Было 5 часов утра, когда они наконец-то подошли к дому номер 31 по улице Объединения. Поднялись на 5-й этаж. Он потихоньку чтобы не будить родителей открыл дверь своим ключом. В квартире было тихо. Он прикрыл дверь в коридоре и включил свет. Она тоже осторожно вошла. Потихоньку, стараясь не шуметь, разделись.

— Ну как ты себя чувствуешь? — шепотом спросил он, слегка обнимая ее за плечи.

— Ноги замерзли, — также шепотом ответила она, чуть прижавшись к нему.

— Что будем делать? — спросил он. — Горячий чай или в ванну ноги греть?

— Лучше в ванну, — сказала она.

Он набрал немного горячей воды.

— Отвернись, — попросила она. Он отвернулся. Она сняла джинсы, оставшись в одной длинной кофте. Осторожно вступила в ванну, придерживаясь за его плечо, присела на ее край, подстелив полотенце.

— Горячо, — тихо воскликнула она.

— Так и должно быть, — сказал он поворачиваясь. — Ноги скоро привыкнут. Ну а я на кухню. Что-нибудь там пока приготовлю. Может у отца коньяк еще найдется.

— Мне одной скучно будет, — улыбнулась она, слегка придержав его за руку. — Побудь со мной.

— Ну тогда подвинься, — улыбнулся он. — Мои ноги тоже замерзли.

Они долго и страстно целовались в ночной тишине спящего дома, лаская друг друга и не замечая что вода в ванне остывает..

А потом… она вдруг широко открыла свои большие глаза и посмотрела на него так что Олегу вдруг стало жарко.

— Подожди, — произнесла она несвойственным ей голосом и, привстав, повернулась к нему, положив руки ему на плечи.

Он непроизвольно прижал ее покрепче.

— Я люблю тебя Олежа, — говорила она.

— И я тебя, — отвечал он в сильном волнении.

— Я буду любить тебя вечно-вечно… — все также судорожно говорила она, чуть поднимая свою кофту. — Мне хорошо с тобой. Мы будем вместе всю жизнь… и никогда не надоедим друг другу… ведь правда?

— Конечно, — отвечал он, лаская ее обнаженное тело, и глаза его сами собой закрывались…

4 июля 2000 г. 05:10

Самолет неторопливо приготовился, разбежался, и, сначала низко-низко над землей, а потом забирая все выше и выше, быстро превратился в маленькую точку и исчез в спокойном и чистом солнечном небе…

Они улетели…

От Тэда

Hello My Love,

Thank you for your call! It was wonderful to hear you and talk with you! It is great to hear happiness in your voice!

I also wish that you were here with me to sleep on my shoulder. I love you very much!

I didn't tell you very well about my show on the phone. I guess there is not much to tell. The show is good. It has some parts which I think are not so good and mostly because of poor direction by Greg. The set is beautiful! There is music and dancing in the show which is very cool. Most of the costumes are good with only one or two being goofy. lol I am happy with my costume as the bad guy. I will get a picture of myself in costume so I can show you.

I am still thinking about our phone conversation this morning. I love you very much and I feel so very good with you! It has been a long time for us to be apart, my new wife. lol I want to share my love with you. I want to feel you close to me and to talk and laugh with you everyday!

I am glad that Sereja liked his graduation present. I am looking forward to seeing Sereja and Aluna again! I hope your mom is well. I want very much to learn pa-ruskie so I can talk with her!

I think August could be okay for a wedding, but only if you are okay with simple wedding. Weddings are expensive and take much planning. Also, during summer months many, many people marry, so churches and other facilities are often very busy. We can try to do all in August if you want. I like the idea to do this sooner and not later… but I also want that we can enjoy this wedding and not be stressed out about it. What do you think? It will be fun to plan this wedding together! da?*S*

I am very glad that you did all wisely and reserved tickets for the 3rd! I am disappointed that you will not see me in this play but I am very happy that you will be here soon and that you and the children will be here for your first 4th of July in the United States!

I will work now. I hope you will sleep well and that all will be good for you.

Love ya!!!!!!

Ted От Лены

Hello my Love! Thank you for the idea to write our love story. First time I didn't know what the language I should use: russian or english and decided to use both. But when I wrote I discovered all is on english. It is funny, but I can explain that. Perhaps my mind got used to think in english and I didn't feel trouble to express myself on this language.

First time when I met online one man from TN and he told me his story how he met russian gal in internet and now they want to marry, I thought: "Wow! Cool! It is so unusual!" But now two years later I know how many people found each other through internet, they opened each other and found their love. I saw many such couples in the american embassy. So internet is very popular place for meeting people from different countries. And now we are not unusual couple, but we went own way of understanding and learning each other to our Love.

The beginning of story…I got a computer few months ago in the summer of 1997 and first time I couldn't talk free in english. I could only asked people questions like what is your name, how old are you, where are you from? And to keep conversation sometimes I wrote some answers and questions on paper and used in need time. I was very excited of new opportunity to meet foreign people and I introduced, introduced with many different people. But this communication wasn't really interesting for me, because people I met were passive and they didn't interest my country, culture of Russia, of me…all conversations kept on my questions to them. I got simple answers from them and when I stopped to ask something the conversation became boring. Although they were glad to exchange with me e-mails, especially after geting my picture. Also there was such part of people who wanted to decide their sexy problems by talking durty sexy conversations. I understood fast it is not what I want to find in the communication with people, it is not interesting for me.

And in one day, it was 16 of November 1997, Sunday (for me) my friend Irina came to visit me and I showed her possibilities of internet and how it is cool. When she left me in the middle of day may be 3.00 p.m I decided to spend time in Yahoo chat because it was bored. And when I came online one guy began to introduce with me. It was Forest. I wrote as I did before simple information about him… Ted, 34y.o, Rochester, 180lbs, 5'8". It is funny but more later I saw he did same thing, he wrote short notes about women. I can understand him, because he as I had many contacts with women and it was useful don't mix people and don't be in silly situation…lol. When we began to talk with him I didn't like his profession video/producer/director. I knew people from art are not serious, not responsible, so I didn't expect from this meeting nothing interesting. We exchanged with him e-mails I got photo from him in same day, it was moment from show with Ted, Coralee and Ray. When I got pic I thought: "O, my god, again ugly fat guy with beard sent me pic"..lol and I asked Sergey to read note to this letter to know certainly who is who. I couldn't believe I got photo from handsome guy. I sent him my photo back. What Ted thought when he got my first picture we should ask him. Then we began to write each other every day. At first it was letters about our countries, about cultures and our families. It was letters of friends. I noticed Ted is very clever person and it is interesting with him, he can tell many interesting things and also he was interesting of me, of my world around me. He told me he was separated and wasn't ready to have new serious relationship, his heart was sick of last marriages. In this time he had enought women around him Terie (I noticed on pic of Thangiving he was in wedding ring, although he told me that decided to divorce with her.), Deb, Lori…and may be others which I don't know…lol

I also was married, but I didn't tell him about it because I was afraid he will not interest me… I was right. I felt very uncomfortable from this it was usual for me to tell untruth. I even didn't know why I wanted to introduce with people who live through ocean, so far from me. I understood might be I never will not see these people in my life. If for Ted was possible to find somebody from internet and to meet in real life in his country…for me it wasn't. I liked how many men told me how I am pretty and beautiful, but very fast I got used to that. Very fast we began to flirt with Ted and to write tender letters to each other. I wanted very much he began to like me as woman, that he saw in me not only good friend also wish woman. His letters were long and interesting. I spent a lot time of translation of them with dictionary and writing back. It was good, I studied many new words. In one moment I began to think may be he is woman?

Why his letters are so nice and interesting? It saw he was understanding me very good, he understood my soul. He was very patient with me in understanding me and explaining of meaning new words. There were letters, letters every day and I was very happy when I woke up and found the letter on computer from Ted. When we started to write tender letters I began to keep my letters from Oleg. It was already difficalt to explaine that it is only freind's letters. Then longer we had correspondence with Ted I began to understand he is close and dear person for me.

We never didn't have "durty" sexy conversations.I didn't want that, because I didn't want to spoil our relaionship. I felt Ted is very romantic person and for me it was very important to began new relationship from right and good things. I am sure if even one time we allowed yourself to do something bad it will come back to us as punishment. I wanted to be special person for him. I world like to know who I was for him in this time?

Before New Year 1998 he decided to call by phone me first time, of course it was very excited to hear his voice. It was great! He had pleasant quiet voice and tried to talk with me very slowly as teacher at school. But I didn't understand nothing, I forgot all english words and only laughed, and laughed. I was very surprised when Ted told me what he thought about that…lol. My english in this time was terrible. For me it was very great to hear man from the states so far.

I was smiling few days when I thought about this event, I wanted to tell about this everybody. I got a job this time and worked in the store. It was not interesting work, but I could have own money. In February I got first package from Ted, there were a book about Rochester, video and a doll for Alena. I was very pleasant with attention of Ted and was happy. When I looked book I was surprised how it is clean and nice there and in this moment I wanted to see all these nice places by own eyes. Also it was nice Ted wrote some sentences on russian and I thought how it was great if I truly could to visit Rochester. All was as on another planet. The video which Ted sent was good, but it was not good shooting of him. He seemed short small and not nice as I thought before. But to this time I knew what the person is he and I appreciated more his soul and mind than how he could look like. I knew it is very clever and talented, creative person.

We continued to write every day letters and I began to call him. It was good I had some money and could pay big phone bills. Sometimes I even didn't know what I want to say and what I want to hear from him, I wanted to hear his voice, to be close to him. I even didn't understand how I began to fell in love with him, how Ted became necessary thing in my life. I already couldn't live without communication with him. I was worry when I didn't get letters from him and asked God to send me e-mail.

I was working and sometimes it was fun how during my launch when I should to cook dinner for kids on the kitchen I was running between kitchen and told with Ted on computer. Few times we argued but very fast we found piece. I discovered I can't be angry with Ted long time, I felt bad and best way was piece. One time when we told with him in ICQ, Ted told me Deb came and she is here. I misunderstood him and thought they are together near computer and look at writing foolish russian girl. I was shocked. It was late night for me and I should turn off computer suddenly because Oleg came from bed and began to complain I still with computer so late. Yes, it was truth last time I began to prefer spend more time talking on computer with Ted than with him. Ted was in my heart. I felt very bad after this case and called to Ted few times to understand situation right.

I always felt Ted is very sexy man and very often I closed my eyes and imaged how we could making love with him. Before my sleeping my favorite thing was to think about Ted, to image what he is doing now, how he is looking. It made me smile on my face, I began to love him in my heart although I didn't understand this and didn't want to believe in it.

Close to the spring I began to think about visit him in the states. At first it was shocked idea for me, for my family but then with some time this idea wasn't new and I began to do real steps to do this day true. I got my foreign passport and started to keep money for tickets. I knew I will not be able to gather money for tickets, visa, living there. I told about this Ted and he promised to help me and to send invitation.

Summer went fast I got next package from Ted and sent him my video. I tried to be on video nice and sexy but now I am seeing how it was silly. Why people always want to be better than they are?..lol.

Ted's letters were so interesting and one day I printed almost all his letters and then I enjoyed reading of them. I understood he knows women very well and he has big experience, only I didn't know what.

In summer on my birthday I got beautiful red roses from Ted and it was a surprise for me. I was very happy! It sounds so great Ted sent flowers from the states! In same moment we told with Ted on computer and I told me how I am happy with his present. These flowers were long time and I didn't want through away when they died because they remind me about Ted.

After summer I began to think seriously about visit to Ted. He also had already strong wish to see me this time. I didn't know about all events in his life but later when I knew many things became to be understandable for me. I was jealous and after few conversations with him we decided he will not tell me about his women even I will ask him about this. And how I knew then he had many secrets from me. I don't know may be it was right, because if I knew truth I never came to visit him. I understood he is live person and can have some sexy relationships but even this thought was unpleasant for me, I don't know why I decided he should be only mine.

I wanted to visit new country but also I had strong wish to see Ted and I didn't know what I wanted more. I still continued to communicate with some people in interenet but after Ted they weren't interesting for me. I was disappointed in them very fast. Everybody wanted only to have more my pics or to have sexy conversations. I didn't want that and understood to have such conversation is more excited with man which you know and like. For me it was Ted. My Theodore Earl St.Mane! How often I pronounce this name!

Online I prefer him many men who wanted to talk with me, for me he was number 1. I got used to think about him every day, there wasn't any day when I didn't remember about him. I still was married and he became my second pleasant life, my virtual love. I understood we can't be together I have family, good family. I never didn't love my husband but he was good as father of my kids and we had good home. I lived without love but I had quiet good life. It was afraid to think what could happened if we will fall in love with Ted in real life. This thought bothered him also because we didn't see way to be together. We lived in different countries with different cultures and languages and so far from each other. I didn't know what I will find in the states if I will fly to the Ted. I was ready to be disappointed with him but I hoped we could be good friends if not lovers. But all our conversations were very close we will be lovers, we wanted each other although didn't see each other in real life. I remember Ted's expression: "What do you consider unpossible for our meeting in real life? Distance? Money? No…all depends from wish of people"

Da, it was time when we wanted to see each other very much in real life and we began to understand that is possible. Many things should at first went through mind of person before becomes true. I am agree with you Ted, all depends from people's wish. And sometimes people could do unpossible things for that. You are good example!..lol

So all my thoughts worked forward to this goal, to meet my Ted! I couldn't tell nobody except Irina about my feelings to Ted and it was very difficalt to live so. I hate this time…to wish and to feel love to one man and to live with another. It was my conflict inside me. I am sure such situation destroys everybody and it is not useful for health. Of course there are many people who are o'k with lie in their life and feel comfortable. But for me it was terrible. I think it is more pleasant to live in agreement with your thoughts and real life.

This is all while.

We leave. Meet us.

Lena.