Mice

24

I was woken up by a hand gently rocking my shoulder.

I opened my eyes to see Mum looking down at me. It was dark outside. The only light in the lounge was the orange glow from the standard lamp by the TV.

‘Are the police here?’ I asked, sitting up with a start.

‘No, no,’ Mum crooned soothingly. ‘The police aren’t here, Shelley. I’ve made you a nice cup of tea. It’s half-past ten.’

‘Half-past ten?’ I’d been asleep for over five hours!

‘You were sound asleep when I got in. I thought it was best to leave you. I went over the kitchen again with a fine-tooth comb, then I had a bath, came down here and sat in the armchair, and next thing I knew I was fast asleep too. I’ve only just woken up myself.’

I took the mug she was holding out to me. My mouth was dry and foul-tasting and I sucked thirstily at the tea, which was lukewarm and easy to drink.

‘How’s your neck?’ Mum asked.

I swallowed. That scratchy feeling was still there.

‘It still feels weird.’

‘I bought you some throat sweets and linctus. Take the linctus before you go to bed and we’ll see how you are in the morning. With any luck it will make it feel better. I hope we don’t have to take you to the doctor’s — Dr Lyle’s old, but he’s no fool. He’s bound to ask some awkward questions.’

‘How was work, Mum?’

‘Horrible. I had a flaming row with Blakely in front of Brenda and Sally.’

‘A row?’

‘He wanted me to work late and I said no and he didn’t like it.’

I thought she was most likely exaggerating. I’d never known Mum to have a row with anybody.

‘Did anyone notice your eye?’

‘Sally asked me why I was wearing make-up.’

‘What did you say?’

‘I said I’d decided it was time I found a new man.’

‘What did she say?’

‘She said she’d heard there was a gorgeous criminal solicitor by the name of Blakely who was single.’

We both giggled. But our giggles faded away as we remembered the burden we lived with now.

We were silent for a long time, sipping our tea and staring into space the way you do when you’ve just woken up. The only sound was the occasional ghostly cry of an owl in one of the trees along the drive.

‘Mum?’

‘Yes, Shelley?’

‘What’s going to happen, Mum?’

She sank her face in her hands and dragged them back and forth across her features as if washing without water. When she turned to me again, she looked unspeakably tired.

‘I don’t know, Shelley. I don’t know. I’ve been turning it over in my mind all day. I just don’t know.’

The owl outside hooted again — a long, mournful vibrato — and I thought of the corpse lying out there in the oval rose bed.

I took Mum’s hand and squeezed it tightly.

‘Mum?’

‘Yes, sweetheart?’

‘Is it OK if I sleep with you tonight?’

‘Of course it is, darling. Of course it is.’

That night I dreamt I was working with Roger at the dining-room table when the police came to the house. It was dark outside and when I opened the front door I was blinded by the flashing of their blue lights. ‘Turn your lights off!’ I cried. ‘Can’t you see I’ve got bloodshot eyes?’ Mum and I were led out of Honeysuckle Cottage by policemen in gas masks carrying shotguns. Roger came to the doorway calling out weakly, ‘You can’t take her away — don’t you realize she’s got very important exams in two months’ time?’ Mum and I were wearing orange jumpsuits like American prisoners I’d seen on TV; our legs were chained at the ankles and our hands handcuffed behind our backs. ‘Why are you wearing gas masks?’ Mum asked one of the policemen. He bellowed back at her, ‘The stench! The stench of death! If you can’t smell it, that proves you’re guilty!’

I heard someone laughing and looked over to see the burglar standing up in the rose bed. He was uninjured, just as I’d first seen him standing at the top of the stairs, except that his olive-green bomber jacket was decorated with bright red bows and these bows streamed long red ribbons, which spooled on the ground at his feet. When he saw me his expression became hard, murderous. ‘It was them eggs,’ he said, ‘you ugly, stuck-up bitch. Them eggs was off.’ His mobile rang and he reached into his back pocket. ‘Excuse me, I’ve got a call,’ he said, and putting one finger to his ear to hear better, he wandered away in the direction of the house.

The policemen pushed us into an armoured van and it moved off down the drive. Out of the window I could just make out a car parked in the narrow lane and a shadowy figure seated behind the wheel, waiting. The car’s headlights suddenly flashed on, its engine revved angrily and it began to follow us.

‘Who’s that?’ Mum asked.

‘It’s the watcher,’ I replied.