Peril

EDDIE

In the darkness Eddie tried to imagine the man who stared at him from just beyond the closed lids of his eyes. He couldn’t see him, but he knew he was there, towering over him. He could hear his steady breathing. Slowly, the man himself swam out of the darkness, vaguely translucent, an afterimage in Eddie’s mind. He was tall with silver hair, and his eyes were blue, and he wore clothes that Eddie had only seen in movies and on brief trips to midtown Manhattan. He was one of those people, the ones who controlled things, and beside whom everyone else felt small.

And he was smart too. Eddie knew that much. He’d turned the tables on him, accused him of following him so he’d be there when Tony’s wife was found, be there because he was going to hurt Tony’s wife. I know this game. That’s what the man had said. I fell for it once, but never again. But none of that was true. Eddie knew that much. None of it was true because the man with the silver hair was working for Tony’s father, one of his thugs, a guy he’d hired to track Sara down.

In his mind Eddie recalled Sara as she’d appeared the last time he’d seen her. She’d seemed sweet and lovely, and she’d smiled at him and said hello but he knew that even if she’d hardly noticed him or treated him badly he’d still be holding out the way he was because it really wasn’t about Sara. It was about Tony, this guy who’d stood with him when his father died, and sent him a Christmas card, and sometimes took him out for a steak and fries. Tony, who’d visited him in the hospital when he got hurt on the job and seemed to know when he needed a hand. Tony had done all of that despite the fact that he was busy and his business was in trouble and he had worries of his own, and so it was clear to Eddie that you knew who your friends were not by their favors but by their sacrifice.

“Who sent you?”

He opened his eyes and the silver-haired man was peering at him, his face very still and menacing, like a snake poised to strike.

“Who sent you?”

The silver-haired man ripped the tape from his mouth with a fierce, violent jerk.

“Who sent you?” he repeated, now very sharply.

Eddie closed his eyes again and thought of Tony at his side, and it seemed to him that in the end a friend could be judged only by how much he was willing to lose. He drew a steely breath, opened his eyes, and glared defiantly at the man whose face was very near him now, and in which he saw a terrible capacity for violence. He never used bad language, but just this once it seemed okay.

“Fuck you,” he said.