Ray

XLII

COMING back from the convention in Omaha, I was thinking about my first wife. Because you have to be honest. You are packed with your past and there is no future.

We got married stupid and frantic, Millicent and me. Things at one point were lovely. The children were lovely, and waiting for them was a miracle like the rainbow. And although you try to get shut of those gorgeous moments when we had nothing but good neighbors, the pines, and the sky to look at, it’s true, we had a sublimity. Our children are ready for the world, and they are handsome enough and know enough science.

I have seen so many people not worth saving, not worth putting the tubes into.

God jokes with his best ones.

What release, to look into the past the way I just tried. A petrified log just rolled off my heart.