Tunnel Vision

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Roman’s weapon of choice for assignments was the 9 mm Beretta 92FS Parabellum. Its name derived from the Latin, Si vis pacem, para bellum, meaning “If you seek peace, prepare for war”—which could have been Roman’s own motto these days.

What he liked about the Beretta was its accuracy at high distances. The manufacturer boasted a flat trajectory for a hundred meters, but Roman didn’t need that in his trade, since most kills were up close. And the 9 mm had lethal stopping power. Especially important was the long barrel, which added to the noise suppression provided by a silencer. Silencers didn’t really silence the way they did in the movies, they only reduced the gunshot to maybe a hundred decibels. Like car mufflers, they contained and dissipated the hot gases from the exploding propellants, suppressing a much louder escape blast. Thus, the longer the gun barrel, the better the suppression.

Every couple of weeks, Roman would bring his Beretta to the Pawtucket Rifle and Pistol Club to shoot off a box of rounds. He had done this for years, even after officially retiring. He’d love to fit the weapon with one of his suppressors, except that they were illegal for private ownership in Rhode Island or Massachusetts. Only the military or police could use them. So he wore his ear mufflers and fired full blast at various distances. He did, however, bring his own special-order paper targets, which came in a wide variety, from the dart target board to deer silhouettes to human silhouettes. Today he was shooting at a slightly demonic blackened skull with the bull’s-eye on the forehead. He liked that because it reminded him of the devil. No matter what the target, range shooting was great therapy—pure eye–hand coordination and a chance to clear his mind of the usual debris.

But his thoughts today kept coming back to that fucking Kashian kid.

What he knew confused him. Here’s this kid who quotes the Lord’s Prayer in the original while half-dead. A bunch of people flock to him for miracles, some feeling Jesus in the room, some smelling roses of the Virgin Mary. Yet Devereux claimed that they were testing him, hoping to confirm the spirit world was real—and maybe the reason Roman had been hired to pop the scientists. That made no sense.

He went online and looked up “near-death experience,” finding hundreds of reports. Most accounts were firsthand testimonials of people who nearly died in hospitals or in accidents, then went sailing down tunnels to a bright, happy paradise where they met with the spirits of dead loved ones and holy ghosts.

He also found Christian Web sites dealing with NDEs—Web sites that outright condemned attempts to contact dead relatives or saints, claiming that “great spiritual dangers” awaited those who made such attempts. Apparently those interactions weren’t with dead loved ones or Jesus, but with demons—or Satan himself, hoping to lead victims away from dependence on God. The worst offenders were NDE charlatans who exploited victims of grief. One blogger claimed that the death of a loved one should drive us into God’s loving arms, not New Age books full of lies and false hope.

The complete disparity in claims not only quickened Roman’s curiosity, but blurred his theological mission. He took aim at his target and put five holes in the skull’s forehead, thinking that he’d better check out this kid at close range.