Vampire a Go-Go

WHAT DID YOU DO?

I t-took a rope. A noose. I put it around my neck. Oh, God.

It’s okay.

Oh, God. I remember. Oh, my God.

Let it out.

I wept. I don’t know how long. It’s hard to tell when you’re disembodied, when you can’t feel warm tears roll down your cheek. I wept and wept.

There. Feel better?

I don’t know. I feel tired.

I’m going on ahead. I’ll see you there soon. You’ll make it okay now.

Okay.

And I feel myself being pulled along. Not like when Zabel summoned me to his rooftop. More like floating along with a gentle current. I’m floating into the gray. There’s no tunnel of light. No choir of angels. Just the long gray. And I’m going there.

Toward an ending. And a beginning.

Into all things.