Hard To Love You

13 My kind of crazy - Mason -

Cooper and I had to get up at the crack of dawn this morning because we have a game this afternoon. Luckily I don’t have to pitch again until Wednesday so I have it pretty easy today. I’m a little hung over since I drank more than I should have at the wedding last night. We pulled up to the Lakewood Stadium with about ten minutes to spare, which is a lot better than I had been doing lately. I’m trying to turn my shit around and stop pissing coach off. I’m done throwing myself a pity party.

Warm-ups are finishing up. Cooper is excited for today’s game against Greensboro. Zack O’Neil is pitching today. Zack has one hell of an arm on him. He threw a slider at Chris, our catcher, and it was fucking perfect.

I have plans for tonight after the game so I am impatiently waiting for it to be over. It feels like the innings are never going to end. I’m kind of glad I’m not pitching today; my head isn’t quite in the game. All I can think about is the way Hailey felt in arms last night. I try to pay attention to the guys and the game but my mind keeps wandering back to when I first got my street bike and took Hailey for a ride on it.

MacKenzie was throwing a sweet sixteenth birthday party for Hailey, the same weekend I was buying my Suzuki GSXR. I had saved all my hard earned money that I got from working with my uncle over the summers and on the weekends. I, along with Hunter and Cooper, took our road test for our motorcycle licenses a few weeks ago so everything was set. MacKenzie made me promise before I left that I would be back before the party started. She was growing used to the idea of Hailey and I being really good friends. Hailey liked that I protected her, just as I always did with MacKenzie. I just wished I could also protect her from her screwed up family.

Cooper, Hunter and I all headed out to the Suzuki dealership early that afternoon so we would be back in time for the party. Once I laid my eyes on my bike I knew I had to have it. I fell in love. It was a Suzuki GSXR 750, all black and chrome, fast and loud, just the way I wanted it. I test drove it and everything felt perfect, I was sold. Only then did I realize my problem; there was no way we were making it back to the party in time. Once we were at the dealership, Hunter and Cooper had to get bikes too. That wasn’t part of the plan so technically it wasn’t my fault we were late.

Finally, after we got all had our finance paperwork done Hunter decided to leave his truck there so he could ride his bike to the party with us. We would just come back to pick up the truck later that night. Cooper decided he wanted to take the long way home and that was a huge mistake. Route 295 was jammed bumper to bumper with traffic, all lanes stopped. We were between exits so it wasn’t like we could turn off and loop back around to go home. When they finally opened the highway, after they’d cleaned up a vehicle fire, we were two hours late to the party. We all parked the bikes up on the sidewalk since the driveway was full. I was unsnapping my helmet when I caught the front door fling open. MacKenzie stood there with her hand on her hip.

“Really?” She asked when the three of us walked up.

“Sorry Kenz, we got held up with the paperwork and then hit traffic.” I said as I slipped past her into the house.

The house was packed with all MacKenzie and Hailey’s friends. I scanned around for Hailey but didn’t see her anywhere. I knew she had to be somewhere since this was her party after all.

“You get clean up duty, jerks.” MacKenzie said as she stomped past us into the sitting room.

Hunter, Cooper and I went into the kitchen to grab a few slices of pizza. Dad and Mom were there and started grilling us about why we were so late. Mom was worried sick that something happened because none of us were answering our cell phones. Mom had begged me not to get a bike before we left and now that Cooper and I both had one I saw the panic flash in her eyes. I assured her we would be careful. Dad wrapped his arms around her and told her that we were nineteen now and old enough to start making our own decisions. She knew he was right but that didn’t mean she wouldn’t worry about it.

I left Cooper and Hunter in the kitchen talking to Mom and Dad and went in search of Hailey. I knew she would be pissed but I’d just have to make it up to her. Maybe a ride on the bike would do the trick. I walked into the sitting room and found her sitting on Tyler Walter’s lap. That guy was a piece of shit and only after one thing, a piece of ass. I’ve heard about how he treats the girls he’s with and he deserved an ass beating for that. The only reason he didn’t get one was because he was under age and I didn’t need to be put in jail for hitting a minor. I’ve warned both MacKenzie and Hailey to steer clear from him, obviously they didn’t listen now that Cooper and I aren’t around as much.

I walked over and glared down at the both of them. Hailey had her arms wrapped around Tyler’s neck and he had his right hand resting high on the top of Hailey’s left thigh.

“Hailey,” I said through my teeth. I clenched my jaw a few times as she slowly pulled back and looked up at me.

“Oh, hey Mase.” Hailey said while rolling her eyes.

“Can I talk to you for a minute outside?” I asked her.

“Can’t you see we are kind of busy?” Tyler replied.

“Can you tell I don’t give a fuck?” I retorted.

“Alright, alright, give me a second.” Hailey told me as she started untangling herself from Tyler.

I wasn’t waiting around so I walked out front and stood in front of the garage door until she walked out. When she finally came out a few minutes later with a sad look on her face, I knew I’d fucked up and that helped dissipate some of the anger rolling off me.

“I told you to stay away from that asshole, Hailey.” I gritted out.

She flinched; good, she knew I was pissed.

We stood there in silence for a few minutes, “Look I’m sorry. I know I promised I’d be here. I didn’t know we would be this late. Cooper and Hunter decided they had to have bikes too and then we got stuck in traffic.” I said as I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me.

Hailey had begun sneaking into my room every time she would sleep over and I was at home. I think MacKenzie knew that she was. How could she not at this point? There were a few nights when Hailey didn’t make it back into the room with MacKenzie until after she was already up. It was getting harder and harder to sleep with her in my bed. She was filling out and getting sexier the older she got. I wanted her; I had from that first time I got her off at the beach house. But she was still only sixteen, still in high school and my kid sister’s best friend. She should be enjoying her last two years in school. I shouldn’t be hung up on her. The cleat chasers back at school were helping take the edge off wanting Hailey and keeping myself in check. I couldn’t have Hailey, not the way I wanted her. I’d have to deal with at least the little pieces I got of her for now.

I lifted Hailey’s chin so she was looking up at me. “Hailey,”

“I know Mason, no big deal, okay? I get it. You’ve got more important shit going on.” Hailey said. I could see the tears welling in her eyes. She thought I was going to start pulling away from her.

“Hailey, don’t do that. I’ve told you I’m not going anywhere. I’ll always be here for you. I didn’t show up late to hurt you. You should be enjoying your party not worrying about me. You’re in high school and you should be having fun these last few years.” I couldn’t bring myself to mention that she should be dating too. Even though Hailey was off limits that didn’t mean I had to like the fact that she should be going out with other guys.

“I am having fun, Mase.” She rolled her eyes, “You’ve been telling me to enjoy myself every time you come home. Don’t you get it? I am having fun. I just have a little more when you’re home.”

“Good. Do you want to have a little fun now?” I asked trying to steer this conversation into better territory.

“Yeah.”

I pulled her to me and wrapped her in my arms. “You see my bike yet?”

She shook her head, “Where is it?”

“Turn around.”

She did and then walked over to it. “That’s hot, Mase. When are you taking me out for a ride?”

The front door opened and MacKenzie, Jaylinn, Cooper and Hunter walked out; a few of their friends followed a few seconds later but stayed up on the porch.

“Want to go now?” I asked her.

Her eyes widen, “Are you serious?”

I chuckled, “Of course.”

“I don’t think that’s such a good idea, Hails.” MacKenzie spoke up.

“I’ll be fine.” Hailey told her.

“Coop, can I borrow your helmet for a few minutes?” Cooper walked over and handed it to me. I slid the helmet down over Hailey’s head. She pushed her bangs out of the way while I fastened the straps under her chin.

I sat on the bike and balanced it while Hailey climbed on. I realized then how big of a mistake this actually was going to be. Her body was going to be wrapped around mine. I started the bike and revved the engine a few times, needing a distraction from Hailey sitting behind me; with a dress on nonetheless. I said over my shoulder, “Hold on as tight as you can. When I lean into a turn, lean with me, and whatever you do, don’t let go.”

I leaned forward and Hailey squeezed my hips with the inside of her thighs. I could feel the heat from between her legs. Then she wrapped her arms around my stomach and locked her fingers together. My dick started growing hard. Fuck! I had to get out of here.

I gave the bike a little gas and we slowly went down the sidewalk until we were able to get on the street and then I gave it even more gas and we were flying.

I didn’t know where to take Hailey so I took her where I always ended up; down at the baseball field. I pulled into my old high school parking lot and killed the engine. I took my helmet off and looked over my shoulder and told Hailey to slide off.

When she did I climbed off myself and then helped her with her helmet. “Why am I not surprised that we wound up here?”

I laughed. She shouldn’t be surprised at all. “Where else would I take you?”

She shrugged her shoulders and walked towards the field, I followed behind her. As she walked her hips swayed back and forth. Shit! I can’t think like this.

“Mason!” Hailey yelled.

“What?”

“I can feel you staring at me you know.” She said with an amused tone in her voice.

“I can’t help it.” I laughed.

She stopped walking and waited for me to catch up. Lucky the lights for the field were still on, I’m sure a game had wrapped up not too long ago. The smell of the dirt made me feel at home.

“So how’s college going?” She asked as she took a seat in the dugout.

I took a seat next to her. “It’s going, there is always practice, a game, school work and parties to go to so there is something going on all the time.”

“Girls?” Hailey said as she looked out over the field, avoiding my face.

“Lots.” And that was all I was willing to tell her. I’m sure she could figure out for herself. She knew how the girls were in high school.

“That’s what I figured.” She said with a nervous laugh.

“They don’t mean anything, Hailey. I don’t have time for any of them.” And that was the truth. I didn’t have time and I didn’t want them to interfere with my schedule.

“I miss you, Mase.” Hailey said softly.

I reached over and grabbed her hand that was resting on the bench. “I miss you too, Boo.” She looked over and smiled at me. “Come here.”

She stood up and I pulled her into me, so she was straddling my legs. I pulled her closer and rested my head against her chest while she ran her fingers through my hair. I sighed; I loved it when she did that.

She put her tiny hands on either side of my face and tilted my head up. “Kiss me, Mase.” She didn’t ask, she told me.

I crashed my lips to hers. Everything with Hailey was so strong, so hot. When she would get pissed off at me she would be cold as ice. I loved that she told me what she wanted, what she felt.

Hailey moaned into my mouth. Then all of a sudden it was pitch black. The overhead lights had been turned off.

Hailey pulled away and started laughing. “I guess someone wants us to leave.” She said as she climbed off my lap.

As she turned around to walk away I caught her hips and drew her back into my lap. “Where are you going?”

I felt her start to shake. “I thought we were leaving.” She whispered.

“We will in a few minutes.” I whispered into her ear. Then I took her ear lobe into my mouth and bit down gently.

She shivered.

I held her close to me for a little while, enjoying her being in my arms, kissing her neck, but I knew I had to get her back. MacKenzie and Mom would send out a search party soon, plus she had her friends waiting for her. “I guess I should get you back huh?”

Hailey shook her head, “No, we can stay here a little while longer.”

I laughed and gently pushed her up so I could stand. I grabbed her hand and helped her find our way back to my bike. I grabbed the helmets, handed one to her while I climbed on. I was about to put my helmet on when I looked over at Hailey who was just standing there staring at the bike.

“What’s wrong?”

She gazed at me for a second before looking at the bike and then to me again. “Can I try something?”

I eyed her suspiciously, “Uh, yeah I guess so.”

She walked over like she was going to slide on but she was standing the wrong direction when she lifted her leg and slid onto the bike facing me. Her legs wrapped around my hips. Her heat encased me again and I got the smell of her arousal. Her chest pressed up against mine and we were now face to face. Hailey kept wiggling, trying to get situated and every time she did my dick twitched. I was becoming more and more uncomfortable as my dick pressed up against my zipper.

I grabbed her hips, “Hails, stop moving.” I said with a nervous chuckle.

She smiled. She knew exactly what she was doing. Hailey leaned forward and started kissing my neck and then slid her hands up under my shirt.

“Hailey,” I moaned as she raked her nails down my chest to the waistband of my jeans.

“Hmm.” She shifted her hips again. “I want you, Mason.”

It was like a cold bucket of water was thrown on me. I wasn’t expecting that from her. “Hailey, you don’t mean that.”

She stopped kissing me and looked me right in the eyes. “I do, Mason. I’m ready, more than ready and I want it to be with you.”

I knew I had to tread lightly about this with her. Her dad had done a number on her and I knew if I pushed her away the wrong way it would end badly.

“Not like this Hailey. You deserve better than me taking you here on my bike in the school parking lot.” I said as I kissed her lips.

She didn’t kiss me back. I brought her body closer to mine. “I’m not saying no, Hailey, just not like this. That’s all.”

“Fine.” Hailey tried to slide off but I stopped her. I knew what that fine meant. She was pissed off and wanted me to be left alone.

“Hailey,” I said with a warning. “I’ll do it but you’ll regret it tomorrow. You forget I know you Hailey. You’re hard on the outside but soft on the inside.”

This time when she tried to slide off the bike I let her. She put the helmet on, and then climbed on behind me. She wrapped her arms around me but a little too gently for my liking. I grabbed her hands and pulled her closer to my back. “Hold on tight, Hailey. I’m not fucking around.” I meant it as rough as it came out. Hailey needed it that way sometimes to get it through her thick head.

She sighed loudly and then interlocked her fingers around my stomach.

“I’m stopping at Wawa before we go home.” I told her before I started the bike.

By the time we pulled up to Wawa a few minutes later she still hadn’t relaxed. Her body wasn’t as tense as had been though.

“You want anything?” I asked as we climbed off the bike.

Hailey raised her eyebrows at me. “Besides that.” I laughed.

She took a step closer to me so we were practically chest to chest. “Well since I can’t have your,” she looked down between us and then back up to me, “I want chocolate milk.”

I laughed and threw my arms around her and we walked into Wawa and I bought her the drink.

“Mason,” Mark, another pitcher, called my name. “Where’d you go?”

I shook my head, “Sorry, I spaced out.”

When I look around the stands they are mostly empty. The game had ended and we won five to two. I find Cooper in the locker room with a towel wrapped around his waist.

“Hurry up dude I’ve got somewhere I need to be.” I say to him.

“Just take off. Jaylinn is picking me up.” Cooper says as he reaches for a shirt in his locker.

I want to talk to him about Lily with the wedding being over but now I’m not going to get a chance. I don’t want family business discussed in the club house so I make myself a promise that I will talk to him as soon as I come home tonight. If I were lucky I wouldn’t be coming home until tomorrow night though.

An hour later I pulled up in front of Hunter and MacKenzie’s house. Here goes nothing.