Angelica Lost and Found

Chapter 2. Ravenously Seeking Angelica

Always has she been in my mind: naked Angelica chained to that so cruel and brutal rock in da Carpi’s painting. Ah! her terror as she shrinks from the monster rising from the waves breaking below her. Even now I hear the screaming of the gulls, the sea-wind’s moan, the roar of the great scaly Orca as he heaves himself up out of the sea. Naked Angelica, glistening with salt spray, howling into the wind, ‘Holy Mary, Mother of God, let me die, I beg you, before this great beast takes me!’

How had she come to be chained to that rock from which we freed her? A homeless wanderer since the slaying of her father, the King of Cathay, she was riding on one of the shore roads not visible from the front of the picture, making for Gascony, when she had the ill luck to attract the attention of a hermit whose eyes were bigger than his shrunken member. This solitary hoper had a few demons at his disposal and he sent one to possess the horse Angelica was riding. This sort of thing was not unusual in the world of Ariosto: travellers could take nothing for granted. Angelica’s demonised steed plunged into the sea with her, swam far out with his terrified passenger, then, remotely controlled by the shrivelled satyr, brought her to a bleak strand where the hermit welcomed her with offers of shelter and refreshment.

Needless to say, once she was in his cave, also not visible from the front of the picture, he drugged her drink and attempted to perform that manly office which Ruggiero in his turn would aspire to. But, though the hermit’s mind is tumescent, his manhood is quiescent. He is too embarrassed to call on demonic aid when a galley manned by an Ebudan press gang, cruising for new virgins to serve up to Orca (this is an arrangement of long-standing with the sea god Proteus which Ariosto describes in Canto VIII) carry off the frustrated ancient and his still-intact victim.

Now, while Angelica’s rescue kept happening in da Carpi’s painting, I went to that rocky shore deep in the distant background of da Carpi’s vision and found the failed holy man, back from Ebuda, toying idly with spells and potions that gave him no satisfaction.

Holding him down with my talons I said, ‘Old man, there is too much ugliness in the world and you have contributed more than your fair share. Your conduct with Angelica violated every sacred tradition of rendering aid and comfort to travellers, and even worse, showed no aesthetic appreciation. The world would be a better place without you but I’ll let you live if you tell me how to move beyond the limits of time and space and take human form when needful.’

‘You don’t know what you ask,’ said the old sorcerer.

‘I know exactly what I ask and your demons will not help you if you don’t answer to my satisfaction. Speak!’

‘To do what you desire you must go back, back, back!’

‘Back to what?’

‘The beginning!’

‘Of what?’

‘The dream that is called reality.’

‘How am I to get to that beginning?’ Although I am fearless the idea of such a venture filed me with uncertainty.

‘You must go through the eye of the great raven.’

‘How do I find that raven and his eye?’

‘He must find you.’

‘How?’

‘He must come to you in a dream.’

‘And if he doesn’t?’

‘Then you can’t go back to the beginning.’

‘Has he come to you?’

‘Nobody comes to me. I live out my days alone.’

‘Now, yes, but did he ever come to you?’

The hermit ignored my question.

‘I haven’t even got a name,’ he said piteously. ‘Jerome had a name. Also a tame lion. I have nothing, even my demons have left me. Do you have a name?’

‘I am Volatore.’

‘Ariosto gave you that name?’

‘I gave it to myself.’

‘How full of yourself you are! Ariosto didn’t bother to name me because my part was only to get Angelica from my bleak shore to the rock she is now chained to. He also imposed on me the humiliation of making an attempt on her virginity and coming up short.’

I was unable to offer the sympathy he craved.

‘You should have been mindful of your limitations,’ I observed. ‘You can’t break down a door with a rotten banana.’

‘That comedy wasn’t my idea! The Maestro, curse him! gave me lines to speak and things to do and I was obliged to speak the lines and do the things or be written out of the story.’

‘I speak my own lines.’

‘You can do that because the Maestro gave you, animal that you are, no lines to speak.’

‘Don’t try to be clever, old sinner. I want to know if the great raven has never come to you, how you were able to tell me how to go back, back, back to the beginning of the dream that is called reality?’

‘These things are known even to those members of the sorcery community who have no importance, but we lack the virtue necessary to make use of the knowledge.’

‘Very well, I’ll release you now but if you have lied to me you won’t enjoy my next visit.’

The hermit shook himself feebly when I let him go. He wandered off with no word of farewell and I departed to seek a suitable dreaming place.

I flew over sea and land, still in the world of da Carpi’s painting, until I came to a sort of natural amphitheatre at the foot of a black escarpment which seemed to resound with echoes of silence under the arch of the sky.

‘This will be my dreaming place,’ I said. I landed in the centre of the amphitheatre and lay down to sleep. Day became night and I dreamed many things: ships and battles, knights on horseback, beautiful women, music and song. I awoke when the sun rose behind the escarpment and the second day began.

I remained where I was, fasting to clear my mind for the great raven. When night came I slept and I dreamed of sieges and towers, battles and blood, stormy seas and ships driven on to rocks where some people died by drowning, others by the sword, and the screaming of women was heard.

On the third day when night came I dreamed of blackness, only that. I dreamed of blackness every night after that, and on the eighth night the blackness swooped and became the great raven.

The great raven looked at me and blinked, showing me a clear bluish-white disc like a little round mirror in which I saw only blankness.

‘Where do you want to go?’ he said, and his voice rebounded in massed echoes from the black escarpment.

‘To the beginning of the dream that is called reality,’ I whispered.

‘Why?’ said the raven.

‘I want to go beyond time and space to rescue Angelica always.’

‘There are heroes for that. To me speak only truth.’

‘I want her for myself.’

I was looking into the raven’s left eye when I said that. Then the mirror flashed and I was in the eye looking out. Around me the vast blackness of the bird opened and lifted and the earth fell away below us, all the flimsy contrivances of humankind and the clamour of its voices blurring into dimness and distance as we rose above the grey sky and into the brilliant clarity of the blue dome in which the present curved endlessly upon itself to compass past and future.

Up we flew, high, high into the blue dome, then whistling down in a dizzying black-winged rush we shot the long, long curve past faces huge and tiny on the flickering screen of memory, faces in the shadows, in the light, lips shaping words remembered and forgotten in the moving gleams of time, the wavering of candlelight, the pattering of ghostly feet, the boom of tower clocks, the fading ink of letters tied with faded ribbons; faces wheeling with horsemen and battles and cannon, marching with armies, screaming in burning cities, drowning in shipwrecks and the thunder of the wild black ocean; palimpsested voices, distant figures and the changing colours of processions, plagues, migrations, ruins, standing stones, cave drawings, jungles, deserts, dust, volcanoes, floods, ages shuffling into silence.

Down, down we arrowed blackly through the silence to a dim and smoking red that seethed and crackled and bubbled and was veined with golden rivulets of lava. Down, down through that red to a dimmer red, a deeper silence, an older stillness. We were in a cavern dimly lit by the red and flickering light of our mind, the raven’s and mine.

Here, we said.

What?

Here, here, here. Our voice had become many voices, voices without number, tiny and great. The raven was no longer a raven, raven, raven, raven. Nor was I what I had been; we were without form, we were not yet alive: tiny, tiny dancing giants looming greatly in uncertain shapes and dwindling in the shadows; fast asleep and dancing in the dim red caverns of sleep.

Through age-long dimnesses of red we danced and sang incessantly the long song of our sorting: yes and no, we sang in silence, grouping and dispersing and regrouping in the circles and the spirals of the sleep-dance. Through aeons we danced while the mountains cooled under the long rains and the deeps filled up with oceans. We danced through all the colours of the years while, unseen and unknown by us, the world danced with us into the dream of reality.

The dancing continued in my mind but the raven was gone. I awoke in the centre of the amphitheatre and I knew that I could now go through time and space and assume whatever form was necessary.