Dismember

THIRTY-TWO

Libby sat on Trevor’s bed. She had one of his action figures, a cartoony looking guy with red skin, pressed between her hands. Mike had stayed in the living room by the phone, but she’d wanted to get up and stretch her legs. She’d ended up here, looking through Trevor’s things, thinking about him and crying.

She twisted the action figure around and found a hole on his back probably meant to connect with some accessory, maybe a jet pack or an extra set of bendable arms. She wasn’t sure, couldn’t remember buying this particular toy. Mike had probably gotten this one for their son on one of their weekends together.

Not for the first time, Libby thought about how strange it was that Trevor’s life contained portions to which she was not privy. He spent whole days away from her, doing things she didn’t know about (though he often told her of the days’ events in extreme detail), having conversations she wasn’t a part of. She supposed it was the same when he went to school. Him with his little friends, talking about comic books and superheroes, television shows and movies. But it wasn’t the same. The time Trevor spent in this house, away from her, was the result of her and Mike’s failed marriage. It was her fault. Every kid went to school, but not every kid’s parents split up. She dropped the toy onto the X-Men pillow beside her and rubbed her face.

No more police had arrived, no knocks on the door, no check-up calls, which she took to mean no progress. If they’d found Trevor somewhere in the woods, they’d have brought him directly home. Surely. She tried to imagine where Trevor was but quickly shut off her imagination when the images took a nasty turn. It was better to sit here and play with his toys, to try not to think about what was happening to him, to wait.

She plucked the action figure from the pillow and flew him lazily through the air. When the phone rang, she dropped the toy on the mattress, and looked toward the living room. Part of her didn’t believe it, thought it must be her mind playing a trick on her. Another part recognized the sound as reality but didn’t want to know what news the phone call might bring. What if they’d found Trevor’s body? What if the kidnapper wanted a million dollars they didn’t have?

She hopped off Trevor’s bed. Although she felt like she’d hesitated forever, she entered the living room before the phone could ring a third time.

At the mall, Mike had wanted to blame Libby for losing Trevor, had wanted to scream at her, but now it was his fault. He’d done what he could, but it hadn’t been enough. He’d failed. Trevor was gone because of his inadequacy as a father.

He leaned back on the couch and wiped a tear from his cheek.

He wondered about Trevor and the other boy, if they were safe, if they were still alive. He didn’t want to think those kinds of thoughts but couldn’t help it. Libby had always been good at controlling her thoughts, but he had not. His mind went where it wanted—he simply tagged along. Sometimes he chalked it up to artistic tendencies, but right now he cursed his overdeveloped imagination.

He looked toward the hallway. He didn’t know for sure, but he thought Libby had probably gone to Trevor’s bedroom. They could have sat together and talked, had another cup of tea, but once they’d exhausted their conversation about Trevor, things had gotten a little awkward. Mike hadn’t wanted their conversation to get too deep, too emotional, because he thought it might make her uncomfortable, but you could only go so long on small talk, especially on a night like tonight, when already mundane topics like weather and work seemed all the more unimportant.

He thought about the kidnapper. Why would he take Trevor? He’d asked himself the question a hundred times, and he still had no answers. Had he gotten the wrong kid—meant to get some rich, spoiled brat and taken Mike’s precious Trevor instead? Maybe, although Mike couldn’t imagine anyone coming into this house and thinking they were rich or even well off. It could have been a random act of violence, but that didn’t make sense either. Nothing about the kidnapper had seemed random. He’d come into the house purposefully, come straight to the bedroom and gone after Trevor with only a single attempt to wound Mike. If he’d been after meaningless violence, Mike would have been the more accessible target. Besides, if it had been for the money, they’d have gotten a phone call, and if it had been pure aggression, the guy would have killed both Mike and Trevor on the spot, not taken the boy with him. Something else was going on here, something he didn’t understand.

From the table beside the couch, the phone rang. He’d put it on the charger after the cops left.

He looked at the phone but didn’t move to answer it. What if Deputy Willis had called to tell him they’d found Trevor’s body stuffed into a drainage ditch or spread across the highway? He didn’t know how he would handle that, if he could handle it. Surely, if he heard such a thing, his heart would simply stop beating and he’d drift off to wherever it was dead people went, to wherever Trevor had gone.

He reached for the phone and held it in his hand, not pressing the talk button, watching the fluttering light and trying to hope.

Libby came into the room looking worried and ten years older than normal. She opened her mouth to say something, but before she could, Mike punched the talk button and pressed the receiver to his ear.

“Yes?” he said. “Hello.”