The Executioner

Forty-Two

At first Monica didn’t know why she’d said those words to Hunter. They simply came out, as if she had no control over what she was saying. But just a minute after Hunter and Garcia had rushed out of the interrogation room, she had her answer.

The same sickening feeling she’d experienced just a few days ago inside Los Angeles Union Station came back, and it came back stronger.

A hurricane seemed to have started in her stomach as her vision blurred. The large mirrored window in front of her was substituted by grainy, flickering images. She blinked several times, trying desperately to get rid of them. She didn’t want to see them. She didn’t want to be part of any of it. But she had no choice. Again, they lasted only a few seconds, but a few seconds was all that was needed.

As the images faded, she sat shivering and crying. Her breathing came in short, fast bursts and catatonically she repeated the words ‘please, no’ over and over again.

It took her two minutes to get her breathing back to normal and another two to stop shivering. On unsteady legs she stood up and stared at her reflection in the mirror. She looked dreadful. Her hair was a mess. Her skin looked dry and badly cared for and her lack of recent sleep showed in her tired-looking eyes. She was wearing no lipstick, which made the scar on her lips more noticeable. Her coat looked dirty and old with tiny tears on the sleeves. No wonder both detectives looked at her as if she was a drug addict on a bad trip looking for some attention.

‘What am I doing here?’ she whispered to herself as if waking up from a strange dream in an unknown place. ‘I must be insane thinking someone would’ve believed me.’

She checked her watch and wondered what to do next. The detective had said that he’d send an officer to take her details, but no one had showed up yet. Maybe that was a sign. Maybe telling others about the appalling things she saw wouldn’t help them. It wouldn’t help her.

Deep down she had hopes that if she could help any of the people she saw suffering, then, maybe, the images would go away and she could go back to having a normal life. But standing there, alone, in a police interrogation room, all she had were doubts.

‘I need to get out of here, this is crazy,’ she said as her eyes rested on Hunter’s card on the table.