Chapter 30
“Everything okay?” Sophie called from her chair as Grant stormed through the foyer and into the living room.
“Fine,” he said, selecting a short, squat candle that smelled like lavender from the flickering legion on the coffee table.
Grant went back into the foyer and made his way down the hall beside the stairs, stopping at the door to the basement. The tap continued to run in the kitchen. He listened for the clink of plates and glassware but there was no other sound. Imagined Paige standing frozen by the sink, the same mosaic of hurt across her face.
During that last intervention in Phoenix, when Paige was in the throes of a spectacular crash and burn, she had leaned over to Grant with tears in her eyes and whispered that she wished the car accident had left him a vegetable too. Then she’d kissed him on the cheek. That was Paige at her worst. Paige out of her mind. It hadn’t made it any easier, but at least he’d known it wasn’t his little sister saying those things.
So what’s your excuse, pal? Around what can you hang the blame for your poison?
And yet still, it was there.
Unquenchable rage.
He stared across the kitchen at Paige’s back.
Knew he shouldn’t say it. Knew he should just let it go. Walk away. Punch a wall in private, but he couldn’t stop himself. He never could. The acid wanted out, and it was coming.
He said, “Did you ever think for a minute that maybe I needed you? That maybe I needed a sister? Instead of a train wreck of a child who has not for one single day since I’ve known her had control of her own life? Has that thought ever crossed your mind? I guess I’m lucky I’ve never really needed you.”
He opened the door and headed downstairs.
The candleflame faltered.
In the weak light, a few fragile stairs offered the way down before disappearing into darkness. Grant remembered how easily they had flexed under his weight before and placed his feet gingerly on the first step.
It bowed.
He could hear Paige crying in the kitchen. He hated it, but he wanted it.
He started down the stairs, staying at their edge and spending as little time on each step as possible without rushing the descent.
The darkness at the bottom was even thicker than he remembered. It seemed to congeal with the dank air like a viscous ether, cold and clammy on his skin.
Grant held the candle up and squinted, realizing that his eyes had already done all the adjusting they were going to do.
In the corner, the piano loomed, barely visible in the feeble illumination.
Something about its presence unsettled Grant, a part of him actually afraid that the darkness might blurt out some old rag time, the keys moving but no one at the helm. Sour notes where the hammers were missing or lame.
Grant put the brakes on that train of thought.
All those nights lying awake in bed, just a kid and no adult in the house, afraid to close his eyes—it was the same fear. He always thought he’d grow out of it. Still hoped he might. Hell, wasn’t owning that fear part of the reason he’d been drawn to law enforcement? But adulthood had a way of making him feel like more of a child than when he’d actually been one.
Thirty-eight years old and still afraid of basements.
He took a moment to gather himself, and then made his way across the uneven stones to the window Sophie had smashed.
The fluorescent orb of a streetlight peered down at him through what remained of the glass.
Hunkered in the dark below it lay the buckled mass of the workbench. It was crudely made, a sheet of particleboard nailed to a pair of wooden sawhorses. The crew who’d done the remodel had probably left it behind. When Sophie had fallen through, she’d split the table top so that the two halves now met at a ninety degree angle. He didn’t know if it would be enough, but it looked like perfect firewood.
Grant gave one of the halves a kick, hoping the wood might be soft enough to split with his foot.
The particleboard barely flexed.
A tremor of pain shot up his leg.
He turned and scanned the rest of the room for something he could use to break it up.
In the corner beneath the stairs, a cluster of long-handled tools rested against the wall.
He walked over and picked through the pile, finally selecting a sledgehammer which he hoisted and carried back to the workbench.
Grant set the candle on the floor beside him, and with his free hand, pulled both halves of the table away from the wall.
On the exposed brick in front of him, the unsteady light made his shadow tremble and curl onto the ceiling, the sledgehammer grotesquely elongated like a malformed limb.
The silhouette moved when he moved but it didn’t feel like it belonged to him.
He threw an impulsive look back over his shoulder at the piano, but it was lost somewhere in darkness behind him.
He squared himself up in front of the bench.
Got a solid, two-handed grip—right hand under the head, left down toward the end of the handle—and raised the sledgehammer over his head.
The blow fell with such force that he didn’t even feel it pass through the bench, splinters of wood exploding as the head crushed into the stone floor and sent a jarring shockwave up through his arms that rattled the fillings in his molars.
Eight more swings and the workbench had been reduced to a pile of kindling.
Panting, he leaned on the handle of the sledgehammer and examined the damage.
A good start, but not enough to burn through the night.
More importantly, not enough resistance to fill his need to destroy something.
Grant picked the candle up, threw the sledgehammer over his shoulder, and approached the corner where the piano sulked.
Up close, it was a gorgeous instrument. An upright Steinway of mahogany construction with brass gilding on the bass and treble ends. Must have been exquisite in its youth. Now, decades of exposure to the elements had stripped away most of the varnish and rusted its fixtures.
He propped the sledgehammer against one of its legs and ran his hand across the keyboard.
It was rough where the lacquered ivory had worn down to the wood beneath.
His index finger came to rest on middle C.
He pressed it.
The key sank with a gritty resistance, and for the first time in what Grant guessed might be decades, a single, decrepit note moaned from somewhere deep inside the old piano. It filled the basement, taking so long to dissipate that he began to feel unnerved at its continued presence.
It was still hanging in the air when the basement door opened and Paige’s voice came to him from the top of the steps.
“What was that?”
“Nothing. Just getting some firewood.”
Silence for a beat.
The door slammed.
Grant gave the piano one last look.
The note was gone, leaving only the hush of rain creeping in through the broken window.
He lifted the sledgehammer, heaved it above his head, and sent it crashing through the wooden lid, down into the guts where it severed the remaining strings in a horrible twanging cacophony.
The resistance was glorious.
He drank it in.
Ripped the head out, swung again.
And again.
And again.
And again.