The Doll's House

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Alison Sprackling stood in her daughter’s bedroom and stared out of the window. She often came here once everyone else in the house was asleep. Had she slept at all since Ruby had gone missing? She supposed she must have, otherwise she wouldn’t still be able to function, but it certainly didn’t feel like it. Jonathan was no different, tossing and turning from dusk till dawn, but this was little comfort. They seemed to be talking to each other less and less.

Alison sat down on Ruby’s bed and opened her bedside drawers. She knew she cut a sorry figure sitting on the old John Lewis duvet, rootling through drawers she had once been banned from opening, but what else could she do? She had been through Ruby’s stuff three or four times now, searching for some small clue as to her whereabouts – leafing through shoe boxes of old letters, discarded shopping receipts, old school reports – but to no avail. Ruby continued to elude her.

She knew the police no longer had a suspect in custody. There had been a brief surge in optimism when they had been questioning that builder, but that had turned out to be a dead end. How she’d cursed them when she found out. Jonathan had counselled her against false hope, but Alison had already played out the narrative in her head. A speedy investigation, a swift arrest and Ruby returned to them safe and well.

The truth was that there weren’t many obvious culprits and that was what unnerved her. Shanelle had been exonerated, as had this other guy, and, despite all of Alison’s desperate searching, no one else had come out of the woodwork. They said it was often family members who were responsible for these things, but that was impossible surely? She had contacted Ruby’s boyfriends and schoolmates, but they were all awkward, surprised and innocent of any wrongdoing as far as she could tell.

So who? Who would do such a thing? Alison sensed the answer must be obvious and simple: she didn’t believe in bogeymen or stranger danger, but this was baffling and dispiriting. Ceasing her searching, Alison curled up on Ruby’s bed. Just the smell of the pillow made her cry. It smelt of Ruby’s perfume. Alison had always privately disliked Ruby’s choice of scent – it was one of those celebrity-endorsed products that cost nothing to make and everything to buy – but it smelt sweet to her now. It smelt of her Ruby. Burying her face in the pillow, Alison sobbed quietly. Another sleepless night beckoned but tonight for once she wouldn’t feel so desperately alone.