Arthur Graeme West (1891–1917)

God! How I hate you, you young cheerful men!

On a University Undergraduate moved to verse by the war.

Phrases from H. Rex Feston’s “The Quest of Truth”: Poems on Doubt, War, Sorrow, Despair, Hope, Death, Somewhere in France. He was killed in action and was an undergraduate at Exeter.

His attitude is that God is good, amused, rather, at us fighting. “Oh, happy to have lived these epic days”, he writes (of us). This (he had been three years at Oxford) is his address to the Atheists:

I know that God will never let me die,

He is too passionate and intense for that.

See how He swings His great suns through the sky,

See how He hammers the proud-faced mountains flat;

He takes a handful of a million years

And flings them at the planets; or He throws

His red stars at the moon; then with hot tears

He stops to kiss one little earth-born rose.

Don’t nail God down to rules, and think you know!

Or God, Who sorrows all a summer’s day

Because a blade of grass had died, will come

And suck this world up in His lips, and lo!

Will spit it out a pebble, powdered grey,

Into the whirl of Infinity’s nothingless foam.

This ruined the reputation of all English Atheists for months!


God! how I hate you, you young cheerful men,

Whose pious poetry blossoms on your graves

As soon as you are in them, nurtured up

By the salt of your corruption, and the tears

Of mothers, local vicars, college deans,

And flanked by prefaces and photographs

From all you minor poet friends — the fools —

Who paint their sentimental elegies

Where sure, no angel treads; and, living, share

The dead’s brief immortality

Oh Christ!

To think that one could spread the ductile wax

Of his fluid youth to Oxford’s glowing fires

And take her seal so ill! Hark how one chants —

“Oh happy to have lived these epic days” —

“These epic days”! And he’d been to France,

And seen the trenches, glimpsed the huddled dead

In the periscope, hung in the rusting wire:

Chobed by their sickley fœtor, day and night

Blown down his throat: stumbled through ruined hearths,

Proved all that muddy brown monotony,

Where blood’s the only coloured thing. Perhaps

Had seen a man killed, a sentry shot at night,

Hunched as he fell, his feet on the firing-step,

His neck against the back slope of the trench,

And the rest doubled up between, his head

Smashed like and egg-shell, and the warm grey brain

Spattered all bloody on the parados:

Had flashed a torch on his face, and known his friend,

Shot, breathing hardly, in ten minutes — gone!

Yet still God’s in His heaven, all is right

In the best possible of worlds. The woe,

Even His scaled eyes must see, is partial, only

A seeming woe, we cannot understand.

God loves us, God looks down on this out strife

And smiles in pity, blows a pipe at times

And calls some warriors home. We do not die,

God would not let us, He is too “intense”,

Too “passionate”, a whole day sorrows He

Because a grass-blade dies. How rare life is!

On earth, the love and fellowship of men,

Men sternly banded: banded for what end?

Banded to maim and kill their fellow men —

For even Huns are men. In heaven above

A genial umpire, a good judge of sport,

Won’t let us hurt each other! Let’s rejoice

God keeps us faithful, pens us still in fold.

Ah, what a faith is ours (almost, it seems,

Large as a mustard-seed) — we trust and trust,

Nothing can shake us! Ah, how good God is

To suffer us to be born just now, when youth

That else would rust, can slake his blade in gore,

Where very God Himself does seem to walk

The bloody fields of Flanders He so loves!

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